I started watching Supernatural in 2012 after my friend talking about it for years. I was so scared of those demons and monsters at the beginning. So my friend suggested me started from season 4 and she filled me in the outline of first three seasons. As a wuss I was, weirdly I felt so safe watching a “horror show” in my definition at the time. And of course, later I’m all caught up with the season 1-3.

Because this show, I met new friends and got into a fandom that I can call family. I still remember that I would wake up at 3am to watch the livestream and live blog about it. I still remember the time Rome public transportation was on strike, I sprained my ankle and can’t get to jib6 in time. But when I rushed into Misha’s panel, i felt he’s worth it.( The first sentence I heard was “is my fly undone?” Talk about the timing.) I still got the phone case Misha signed, because of it, I just don’t want to get a new phone.

I saw how the cast being so nice to the fans. At first I thought they’re just pretending to like the fans as part of their jobs. But at jib6, a girl fainted at the Friday’s panel, and at the Saturday’s signing session, Jensen recognised the girl and asked whether she’s feeling better now. The emotion I had at the time, no words can describe.

I’m kind of late to join the family, but Supernatural has been there, through my studying abroad years, my not fitting in years, my figuring myself out years. Maybe after I started working, I don’t follow the livestream anymore. I don’t make gifs and discussing the show online anymore. But supernatural is there, like it has always been for me and all of us. It’s such a cliche saying this show has changed my life. But it is the truth.

Any good things have to come to an end. I have been waiting this announcement for a few years now and hoped it will never come. I always thought the only way they can end the show is that team free will just all die at the same time. And I mean dead dead. Not just Winchester dead. As long as someone’s alive, they will try to save the others. Reset and repeat.

Although the end is near, we still got time to prepare ourselves (so much rewatch to do). And we will always be SPN FAMILY.

And I’m also a little overly obsessed with Alpaca World this weekend. Naming all the alpacas I own after supernatural characters. Hiatus, am I right? *Yes, that’s Dean fulfilling his batman dream.

Did Dean just friendzoned Cas there? You don't do that to people in the end of world! You don't. Confess affection, that's what you do.

I thought the ending was a bit anticlimax, but then those two things happened and I'm not okay now. *Curling up and crying.

I'm not crying. You're crying. Your whole FAMILY is crying.

Woohoo! A woman of letters. But she does not look friendly. And those intells are quite old.

Why did Cas react to seeing Chuck so calmly? I mean He did know Chuck is back, but would a son react to his long lost father like that? After all that search and losing faith?

A witch, an angel, a moose, king of hell and God walking into a bar.

Throwing Punches

J2M greeting fans after the closing ceremony. [X]

I’m sensing a trend here. [X,X,X]