The song

I was rewatching Winter Soldier just now and got to the bit Fury hiding in Steve’s apartment. While he was telling Steve SHIELD has been compromised, IT’S BEEN A LONG LONG TIME was playing. After a few notes 🎵 I realised it was the song Steve and Peggy dancing to in the end. And I, as you imaged, was NOT OK at all. All the End Game tears came back to me. Sorry about the ramblings, I’ll go back to rewatch now. This is what the song has done to me. 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼

I started watching Supernatural in 2012 after my friend talking about it for years. I was so scared of those demons and monsters at the beginning. So my friend suggested me started from season 4 and she filled me in the outline of first three seasons. As a wuss I was, weirdly I felt so safe watching a “horror show” in my definition at the time. And of course, later I’m all caught up with the season 1-3.

Because this show, I met new friends and got into a fandom that I can call family. I still remember that I would wake up at 3am to watch the livestream and live blog about it. I still remember the time Rome public transportation was on strike, I sprained my ankle and can’t get to jib6 in time. But when I rushed into Misha’s panel, i felt he’s worth it.( The first sentence I heard was “is my fly undone?” Talk about the timing.) I still got the phone case Misha signed, because of it, I just don’t want to get a new phone.

I saw how the cast being so nice to the fans. At first I thought they’re just pretending to like the fans as part of their jobs. But at jib6, a girl fainted at the Friday’s panel, and at the Saturday’s signing session, Jensen recognised the girl and asked whether she’s feeling better now. The emotion I had at the time, no words can describe.

I’m kind of late to join the family, but Supernatural has been there, through my studying abroad years, my not fitting in years, my figuring myself out years. Maybe after I started working, I don’t follow the livestream anymore. I don’t make gifs and discussing the show online anymore. But supernatural is there, like it has always been for me and all of us. It’s such a cliche saying this show has changed my life. But it is the truth.

Any good things have to come to an end. I have been waiting this announcement for a few years now and hoped it will never come. I always thought the only way they can end the show is that team free will just all die at the same time. And I mean dead dead. Not just Winchester dead. As long as someone’s alive, they will try to save the others. Reset and repeat.

Although the end is near, we still got time to prepare ourselves (so much rewatch to do). And we will always be SPN FAMILY.

I haven't got the chance to rewatch.

But I can say that THE FINAL PROBLEM is my favourite episode by far. So dark, trippy and soul crushing. In a way it makes me very uncomfortable(maybe because I woke up on 5 o'clock in the morning to watch the live stream). But I LOVE it.