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Before we really get into it, I’m just gonna snicker for a second over the fact that the death doula is named Natalia. Why? The name is related to the Latin term for Christmas Day, which is the holiday when Jesus was born. So the word that the name comes from is related to birth, natal. There’s a touch of irony there, that they gave this name to the girl who is not just a death doula, but who looks like she’s actually into death (who thinks dying for a few minutes is cool or amazing. I have to say, it’s not. It’s a good thing to accept death as a part of life, one that heightens life’s meaning, and help others do the same, it’s another to think that the physically and emotionally scarring experience of being dead for a few minutes is “cool”) and I think that’s an interesting tone to choose when introducing Buck’s new Love Interest. (if you’re into it, you can find more name meanings for 911 characters here) ~~

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I know, "Recovery", will be at the Diaz household. How?

Well for one, Buck does not yet have a couch.

Two, I doubt either Eddie or Christopher will want to let Buck out of their sights after everything.

Also, the Madney household is not done, plus there's a sweet but restless toddler running around the house. 😍

And since this storyline is awfully familiar to me (station 19 - Vic, anyone? 👀) Buck is going to be wearing a monitor watch to make sure his heart is not in distress, which also will have to include a lot of rest and require to have someone to watch out over him. (In Station 19, they were Vic's boyfriend and her best friend. - Eddie and Christopher for Buck? 👀😉)

Also, because there is a very big foreshadowing that has announced exactly that earlier in the season.

I am talking about 6x07 "Cursed."

The undefined relationship between Felisa and Alexis (aside from the money thing, obviously) felt very familiar.

Felisa stresses outside the crystal shop (where both she and Alexis are knocked out, btw) that Alexis is all she has.

Eddie's face says it all. He has one of those, and indeed, in the next frame, we see Buck loading Alexis to the second ambulance.

She sits with her in the hospital after she's released and talks to her, suggesting a girls' trip once she's better. - Eddie is a spectator through all of this. And he gets this amazingly tender look on his face when he listens to Felisa as she talks to unconscious Alexis.

Fast forward to the end of the episode, Felisa tells Eddie that Alexis is going to stay with her when she gets out of the hospital.

and eventually tells him that she's going to have the house blessed just in case, before Alexis comes to stay with her.

Another thing she says is that it's easier to believe you're cursed than wrong, and post-therapy Diaz is amused by it.

And yet he still calls his Abuela after Felisa leaves and asks her about his future anyway.

Here, in this frame, everyone thought, at the time, that the focus on Christopher a frame later is because he will be in danger, but the truth is, that the whole of S6a even stretching back to S5b, is about Buck's connection to the Diaz boys.

And as most of you saw the promo pic of 6x11, it also confirms that the Diazes are going to pull Buck even closer to them once he's awake and out of the hospital.

For all his bluster and disbelief of curses in general, when Buck asks Eddie outside the crystal shop if he still thinks Felisa isn't cursed, he answers, "No, but I think I am."

Now, why would he say that? Because Eddie lost his wife, lost his army buddies, nearly lost his son and best friend, and nearly lost himself somewhere along the way.

He also keeps encountering couples in the making that will eventually end up together, there were the ladies from the driver's test in S5, there were Josh and Carson, now Felisa and Alexis, everyone eventually pretty much get over the first encounter and move forward together. - But not Eddie, not with Buck, not yet.

If there was ever a catalyst to get these two to, at least, talk about their shared trauma and living together in the same house, this is it.

I think what gets me is that Bobby knows what's coming next, he sees Eddie getting up from the corner of his eyes, knows that Eddie has yet to find out what happened to Buck, and was worried of his reaction once he saw what happened.

Because he's been there before, at the Well with Buck, he knows how much they mean to each other. 😭❤️

Bobby wasn't wrong, Eddie’s reaction was instantaneous, as we've posted over and over again.

And even though Bobby probably really wanted to try and revive Buck, he really just wanted to stand there and wait for Chimney and Hen to do their jobs and get Buck's heart working again.

But the moment Eddie arrived and pushed past Bobby, Bobby knew he'd have to get him away from Buck and give Eddie something to occupy him with.

Because Eddie can't be professional when it comes to Buck, Bobby can already see emotion takes over. And like he pulled Buck away from the well, he pulls Eddie away from Buck's unconscious form.

Bobby is worried, he's anxious, he wants nothing more than to make sure Buck will be okay, but with Eddie being completely off kilter here, Bobby knows he has to be captain for a little while longer, and get everyone moving.

Now, here's another thought: What if we get to see the drive to the hospital? What if Eddie and Bobby have to listen to the long flatlining siren on the way? Hoping, praying that Buck’s heart starts beating again.

What if we get a parallel to 3x17? Of Eddie having to listen to Buck dying like Bobby had to listen over the radio to Athena? 👀🥺

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A while back I wrote a post about Eddie's body language with Buck (here's the link), and we got another prime example in 6x09.

The roof scene:

At the beginning of the scene, Buck has not joined them yet, supposedly asleep, but there is a chair open next to Eddie, just in case he decides to join them.

Eddie is not sitting comfortably. He sits closer to the edge of the seat as if he's ready to go at a moment's notice. He's not relaxed like the others.

He participates in the conversation, but his heart's not really in it. It's mostly to tease Chimney good naturedly about his "Murder house"

And then Buck joins them.

Hen's "Look who's up." Was so sweet. They are genuinely happy to have him with them.

Eddie is teasing him lightly when Buck comments about random cars driving into the firehouse unannounced. "Would you prefer an announcement?" Establishing eye contact - which btw I didn't notice until I gif-ed the scene.

I don't know if Eddie was making sure Buck is okay or just wanted to share one of their private looks.

Buck retorts, very sweet, by the way, playfully. "I would."

But it's telling that Buck couldn't sleep because of that car. He woke up to shouting and a car driving fast into the house, thinking that something had happened, he was worried, and his protective nature would not allow him to sleep when this could happen again and end in an injury of one of his family members. (Read Eddie. 😇)

Buck sits down and settles back, but Eddie has yet to because he wants to give Buck his cup of hot chocolate first.

Only then does Eddie start to settle back, and right afterward, we see Buck sharing a smile with Eddie and Hen.

Once Buck is set, we get to see Eddie finally fully relaxed and sitting back in his chair.

Body language is open - his arms are opened, and to the sides, his legs un-crossed, he is now completely content to sit back and talk until the end of shift if possible.

This turning of their heads shows that they were first looking towards each other, and both turned to Hen when she talked about the ions in the air.

Buck's completely content to be with his 118 family and Eddie up on the roof but the fact that the wind makes his skin itch, means he's on edge, he's also the first one to catch onto Bobby's "Smell that?" intent. They are both unsettled, but their issues are spread outside the firehouse.

Even here, as they get up, their eyes meet, Eddie turns to Buck seconds before the alarm goes off. He believes him. He doesn't question him. They're already rising before the alarm goes off.

The fact that Buck sought Eddie’s presence after the car incident and that Eddie relaxed only when Buck was by his side shows how much those two anchor each other and help one another to feel more settled in their own skin even when things are rocky and shifting around them.

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I have to admit, we talked about Taylor breaking Buck’s trust, we considered the implications of her breaking the story on Chim and Hen (possibly putting them in harm’s way), I even took into account that Greenway might use her story to try and counter the actions taken against him from a legal position. But I have to admit, I did not think of the implications for Buck at work. TBH, it’s not fair that there would be any, but Taylor’s worked with off the record sources before, she must have been aware that the world is unfair in this manner, and that her actions could jeopardize Buck’s work. Now her words about hating for things to get messy for him at the fire station in 516 land even more of a punch. She knew, and she still went ahead. She knew, and she still didn’t think of giving him even just the benefit of a warning. This season’s B/T storyline started with Taylor ignoring Buck and his feelings for the sake of obsessing over the news in 501 and it ends in the same spot. It was always spelled out for us. ~

Eddie made me so proud in this episode. We already knew that he was progressing and healing, but it was damn fantastic to see him go from where he was in 511, at his lowest, snapping at Bobby, to getting to a place where Eddie could thank his captain for the help, which included exactly the thing for which Eddie had snapped back then.

The ending of these scenes was even similarly shot, with Bobby down below in the living room, looking up at Eddie (though in the finale, the distance between them is physically smaller). More than that, after the low point of 511, we go to Eddie starting to improve his r/s with his father in 517 and then on to him coming full circle and being able to (unknowingly) help save his father figure in this ep by thanking Bobby for being saved by him. This is the stuff that keeps us all watching, isn’t it? ~

I just have to say how happy I am that Buck finally realized he gets to walk away from a relationship if it doesn’t suit him. It was so clear he had such a fear of being left, that he ended up clinging to someone who he didn’t really love and didn’t make him happy. Realizing through his talk with Maddie in 513 that that’s what he’s doing, he was ready to confess to Taylor about kissing someone else, ready to take her wrath or a break up, but he still wasn’t in a place where he felt like it was okay for him to break up the relationship. That it was okay to walk away even if the other person was willing to stay. That sometimes, it’s the right thing to leave. He told Eddie it was in 502, but he still didn’t fully embrace it for himself, because all he’s ever known was being the one abandoned. He couldn’t bring himself to do that to someone else. He finally knows that he’s not going to be able to suppress how he feels about Taylor choosing her job over actual people. He can’t learn to live with it. She was willing to change, but he finally grasped that something was fundamentally broken between them, and chose to end their relationship. This is why things needed more time to unfold, so he could get to this point where he gets to choose himself.

Just like Eddie had to do the same with Ana at the beginning of s5, realize that he can’t stick it out for Christopher’s sake. We’ve seen these men’s romantic journeys, so often tied closely together, and in this season, we got to see both of them having reparative experiences for what they didn’t get to do in a romantic relationship before, getting to choose themselves and their own happiness over the need to be in one at any cost. ~

The Buddie scene fixing Eddie’s walls together was something else entirely! It obviously referenced the talk they had in the classic balcony scene earlier this season in 504, where Eddie told Buck he’s the guy who likes to fix things. Clearly, this shows how much what Eddie says resonates with Buck, and to make the connection even more blatant, Buck seems to even be wearing the same hoodie! I also adored how easily Eddie can read Buck and what’s up with him, that’s another ongoing theme with these two, figuring out exactly what’s going on with their best friend even before he spills the beans. And let’s not talk about the insanely domestic nature of Buck going to Eddie when he can’t be in his own home.

Remember Buck in 407 talking about the need for his loft to be his safe space? Remember him saying in 311 he’s not really a guest in Eddie’s house? This bit cements that Buck’s safe space and home away from home is wherever Eddie is, even when the place is physically still torn apart. But this scene was also a parallel to when Buck gave Eddie a wake up call about needing to break up with his girlfriend, and the next thing we knew, Eddie did. Buck’s break up with Taylor starts here, with Eddie’s words. For real, these break ups truly were the parallel bookends of this season in so many ways (I’m not talking only about the bigger things that I addressed in the previous paragraph, I’m also talking about stuff like the color of the couples’ clothes or the choice to do both in the kitchen), it’s truly unhinged. Except it continues the perfect tradition of Buck and Eddie’s love lives being intertwined, so really, it’s in perfect alignment with what 911 has always done. And if that domesticity wasn’t enough, they were literally finishing each other’s sentences in this scene, they are officially the most married people on TV ever. And they were also so content simply to be together here? They each had their own arc to wrap up in this scene, coming to a climax in the flashes we get during the wedding. Buck has to break things off with Taylor. Eddie has to talk to Bobby and reclaim his place with the 118. Those are good, satisfying moments for them. But we see them being the softest and most content to just be in the moment despite everything else they need to take care of, it’s this scene, when they’re together, literally helping and having each other’s back (precisely as Ravi mentioned in this very ep), Buck physically helping to repair Eddie’s home after also being there for him and their family unit, Eddie being there to stir Buck in the right direction.

And this scene is included in the same ep in which Buck spells out to Maddie what true love, true romantic partnership is like. To be there with that partner when each is hitting their worst and still choose this togetherness over and over again, just like we see the amnesia couple do in this ep. We already knew Buddie have been there for each other through the worst and lowest points in their lives, but this scene literally depicted that and their choice of their togetherness in the most perfect, wholesome way. If Buddie are not true love, it just doesn’t exist. ~

Speaking of the amnesia couple being at their lowest, but choosing each other, I just had to add in this one last, small detail about them. They begin and then they also start over by agreeing to go out and eat together. This specific line threw me back to how Buck and Eddie began as rivals in 201, but as soon as they got to vowing to always have each other’s back, meaning once they agreed to start over, Eddie asked Buck and Bobby to go and grab something to eat together. It may not seem that romantic, since he also invited Bobby along, but it stood out as being more romantically coded when Eddie repeated the gesture in 313, at roughly the same time he was thinking of maybe starting over, begin dating again, as is implied by his talk with Chim in that ep. ~

I don’t write Madney meta despite loving them, so I kinda got out some of my love for Chim, Maddie and Madney by posting this. However, I do have to point out that one of the ways in which we can tell they’re destined to get back together is that neither one of them was very happy with the idea of dating others. Kind of like how we’ve never really seen either Buck or Eddie truly embrace each other’s girlfriends. Just think of how Karen is embraced by Bathena and Chim. Or David became a part of Michael’s gang together with Bobby. Partners on this show are also a part of this extended family, but Buddie’s external Love Interests never became that to their boyfriend’s best friend, they either remained far removed from them or showed active signs of unspoken dislike, the biggest case in point being Eddie with Taylor. These men aren’t fans of the idea that their partner is dating others, either. TBH, they don’t seem to be fans of dating others themselves, given how awkward the Eddie and Ana as well as the Buck and Taylor relationships have been. ~ Oh, but apparently I’m not totally done with Madney related comparisons, because hey, I pointed out Buck was their truth-teller back in 208. He takes that role upon himself again in the s5 finale, trying to imply to Chim that Maddie still has feelings for him. This is lovely in itself, but it also took me back to when Buck first did this, and how it was paralleled with Maddie being Buck and Eddie’s own truth-teller in 204, when she called out Buck’s crush on Eddie. ~

It was interesting to me that even though we saw Buck break up with Taylor before the ep moves on to Henren’s wedding, 911 still chose to add one more scene to truly wrap this arc up, when she returns the loft’s key to him. I just had to quietly squeal to myself, because this stands in such contrast with us all knowing Eddie has had Buck’s key since before 301, and 513 indicating clearly that Buck also has one for Eddie’s place. The show really made the key to someone’s home into the symbol of being their partner in the same season in which it reminded us that Buddie have each other’s keys. (also, my first time making one of these meta gifs myself. I hope it’s okay!) ~

I just adored that the happy ending of this season, that final moment when things slot into place and the world is a better place than it was, is when Eddie is finally back with the 118. Oh, but what made it better is that everyone on the team was so intense, everyone other than Buck. He glances over at Eddie, who’s finally there to determinedly stride along with them, and only then do we see this one singular dazzling smile on Buck’s face. Yes, everything is right with the world again at this moment, but this one smile lets us know it’s to a great degree because Buck has his partner back (as giffed here). I think 5b was great in terms of the team’s arcs, but many of the calls just weren’t quite the same without our iconic battlefield boyfriends. Can’t wait for them to ride together again in s6! ~ If you’ve enjoyed any of my meta posts, if you’d like to keep seeing them in the future as well, please let me know in the tags. Thank you so much for reading what I have put out and for any and all support! I’ll still be here during the hiatus and I wish us all a good time getting through it together! Also, I’m endlessly grateful to the wonderful @judsonryder and @whosoldherout, who added so much life to my meta with their dazzling gifs! xoxox

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I've been going back to that last scene in 5x14, and I kept obsessing about the clothing, because to me those brown colors provide a sense of comfort and familiarity.

When I was a kid, I used to go horseback riding with my dad and sisters, I loved the settings, the people, the horses. There was a sense of peace at the ranch and out on the trail.

Brown was apparently unintentionally a dominating clothing colors on those days of visiting the ranch and I never really paid attention to it, until I watched Buck and Eddie's scene, and didn't understand why the colors of the clothes they wore provided such feelings from me.

So I went and checked, and according to this site,

Brown is the color of safety, security, and material wealth. It means stability, structure, and support.

It is the color of physical comfort, simplicity, and quality. The color of physical security and the accumulation of material goods.

It promotes a sense of belonging, especially to a family and friends. It is friendly and approachable, faithful and trustworthy, dependable practically and realistically.

The psychology of color treats brown as sincere and genuine. It refers to the diligence and reliability.

These are all things we can recognize in both man, when it comes to each other. In this case specifically this is Buck, being all these things for Eddie.

Eddie is wearing the brown jacket, Buck's plaid jacket has brown woven into the other colors.

Buck is there to help Eddie, to offer comfort, someone to lean on, and give a new perspective, one that will provide clarity and a clearer direction.

It is sensual, sensitive, and warm, practical, and meaningful and represents a healthy heart.

I highlighted the sensual, as well as the healthy heart, because Eddie knows his heart, it's Christopher and Buck.

And both men have displayed sensuality with each other, if it's the way the seamlessly work and move around each other, if it's the way they give each other the heart eyes we all rave about, or even about the way they talk about one another to others.

It is materialistic because it promotes quality. Brown, together with green, is the predominant color on our planet. It offers comfort and stabilization, while the green color provides balance and youth. It isn’t carefree and spontaneous, and it does not like surprises. Therefore, it may seem dull and uninteresting for many.

Buck is stability for Eddie and Christopher, just like they are to him. Apart, they tend to spiral. And we can see that when Buck finds Eddie in 5x13, Eddie is wearing green.

Having just found out what happened to his army buddies. He wasn't prepared for it. It was too much.

Buck brought back balance. The two have an uncanny talent to balance each other out.

Some shades of a brown color show a certain degree of sophistication and elegance.

Buck is crazy smart, there is no way he didn't know what that assignment meant, he drew the heart to get a smile out of Christopher or Eddie, probably both, since he did leave the drawing on the table for Eddie to find.

It is the color of the structure, although, in no way, it encourages perfectionism, tidiness, and organization.

The psychological meaning of brown may vary, depending on the colors that mix and form brown.

Buck keeps the structured routine for Christopher, as he also helps Eddie into a routine, managing the schedule as Eddie gets much needed sleep and keeps going to therapy.

This time when he comes back from therapy, Eddie trustingly asking Buck "I'm supposed to feel better at some point, right?"

Favorable properties of brown are good quality, practical, affordable, stable, reliable, protective, sensual, sensitive, warm, reassuring, honest, sincere.

All very Buck and Eddie qualities in the last two plus seasons, and it only gets more profound with time.

This, here, is Buck being all these things for Eddie, and Eddie taking his lead and letting Buck guide him through this unfamiliar territory he found himself in.

In 5x14 we see progress, Buck's words succeed where Frank's didn't quite hit the mark.

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This post, that inspired me into making this post, shows Eddie with his arms crossed. Usually when uncomfortable, unsure, he's closed off as he talks to others.

He's facing them, but he keeps his arms crossed, like some sort of shield, detaching himself from the situation.

He seems unapproachable or defensive, but really from what I've glimpsed over the seasons, it's his way of protecting himself.

He does that with everyone except Buck.

And the one exception that it did happen with Buck was when they were at odds during the lawsuit/street fighting phase.

But that is the only time, and once they were past it, even that same conversation in 3x06, Eddie reverted back to easy openness he has with Buck.

The body language is very different when it comes to one Evan Buckley.

5x13 is the perfect example,

When Buck enters the room Eddie has his arms crossed, but it's not in protection of himself, it's out grief, sorrow, shame, it's a sort of a self hug.

But once Buck sits down, and start talking Eddie turns to him, his arms no longer crossed.

He's looking out in the direction of Christopher's door, but lets the hand covering how mouth down when he speaks to Buck and then makes an effort to meet his eyes.

Buck keeps Eddie talking, his questions are mostly directing ones.

Eddie responds to him, he has an assessing look, his fingers are interlaced, but it's mostly to help the thinking process, how much to say, how to say it.

He wants to tell Buck, but past experience keeps whispering that he might not be accepted after what he discloses.

That Buck would be disappointed in him or mad and leave. Even though he knows logically and historically speaking, that Buck will not leave him, he's still hesitant.

Because if he can't accept himself, if he feels so badly and disappointed in himself for not being able to save his friends from their fates, then how can Buck.

That look btw, threw me back to 2x02, where Eddie hesitates to tell Buck he has a son.

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But Buck didn't disappoint then, and he didn't now either.

Eddie knows he can trust Buck, he opens up, "I pulled them out but I didn't save them." It's all said with a sense of failure, like Eddie somehow fell short.

This gives me a sense of confession, like Eddie confesses his greatest sin to the one person who can probably understand him better than anyone. The one person (besides Christopher) that matters the most to Eddie.

And then "That I'm never going to feel normal again."

That look kills me every time, for one because I saw it the mirror before, and second because that Is not something you say out loud to just anyone.

Eddie's open arms policy, when it comes to Buck, is shown here so clearly, his arms are not crossed, his expression is wide open, and tears are visible in red reamed eyes.

He looks terrified, and miserable and defeated and all of that in front of Buck. There's a plea here, 'tell me I'm wrong', 'help me fix this', 'am I going crazy?' And so many other things.

I've talked about Eddie being Buck's anchor before, and theorized that Buck is Eddie’s anchor according to S3a, but here in 5x13 it's clearer than ever that it's not only a theory, it's proven.

Because when Frank asked "what are you afraid of?" Eddie deflected, but when Buck asked so gently, literally pleading Eddie to share this burden, Eddie had no other option but to confide the truth.

One last thing that came to me as I was writing this post,

Buck watched, scared, as Eddie was bleeding out in the middle of the street and both maintained eye contact until Eddie lost consciousness.

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This conversation in 5x13 felt a lot like that, Buck is still scared, and all he can do is sit and watch as Eddie is bleeding out, only this time it's emotionally.

This scene, it's so powerful, because everything that Eddie says, rings true to Buck one way or the other, because Buck pulled Eddie out, and he knew he wasn't completely okay, but it's only now that he's starting to realize that he is not done saving Eddie.

And knowing Buck, he will do everything in his power to ensure that Eddie is saved, whatever that may mean or take.

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Breaking down the door for breaking into the heart

Right before Buck was breaking down Eddie's room door, you can see that he was hesitate to either break in or not. And there could be many reasons for those few seconds. It could be means that Buck was so scared to find what could be found behind the door. That maybe facing Eddie in this situation would take him back to the shooting scene. Somehow it could drag him more closer to facing up the trauma. It also could be means that he has to make a choice of being ready for breaking down all Eddie's deepest walls. And of course Buck won't ever be hesitate to help Eddie no matter what. It's so important to see the moment of hesitation to understand that this is a turning point for both of them. This scene was made for showing us that they are getting more closer. That Buck will make sure that Eddie knows he's more than enough.

And at that scene, Eddie's room is a symbol for his heart or at least his soul. And from the beginning we noticed that he is not asking anything for himself. He always had make sure that Christopher would have everything he wanted and be so happy and joyful . Which is why his room is so colorful and full of happy stuff that pleased his soul. Eddie didn't put anything in his room and that's mean he didn't think that he deserved to be truly happy as well. Honestly I always thought that's because of him having a feeling to follow up the surrounded people's expectations. But after watching the last episode, I got myself wondering that maybe Eddie had always been feeling this emptiness inside his heart/soul. Therefore it didn't allow him to feel normal and happy. The fact that Eddie closed his door is so significant that I would take it as good development on Eddie's journal. Because although it may seems like he didn't want to let anyone else, not even his son see him in bed place. Like he is not supposed to show his weakness. But I think it's the only way he felt safe to let go and to face his feelings that he always pushed away, just like the breaking up with Ana. I always had a feeling that Eddie didn't want to deal with it all by himself and probably didn't want ask for help because yet again, he felt like he was supposed to man up and move on. And I want to believe that he always thought about letting Buck in and maybe he was so scared. In some that guy brings him the peace of mind and joy and Eddie didn't want to take that part of him. Because somehow Buck's perfect to him and he couldn't stand the idea of him damaging this perfection, which is why he didn't call him right away and instead of that called his army friends (@deluweil 's words ly sis<3). So he just keeps waiting for anything to wrack him and finally let go. Until he couldn't anymore and finally snapped and cracked everything inside himself and outside, his room. And that's a first step of his healing journey, because through the tiny crack the light of life will get inside and fil the emptiness. And finally Eddie would be able to rebuild himself and his room in the way he has always wanted. And Buck and Christopher will be there for him, helping him to put some colors in his life.

Buck and Christopher are Eddie's strong foundation, just like red, blue and yellow are foundation for rainbow of colors.

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Buddie 513 meta

As if 512 (among other eps) didn’t make the Madney and Buddie parallels obvious enough, then this ep really drove the point home. For example, just like Albert calls Maddie because she’s Chim’s partner and those two are raising Jee Yun together, so we also get Christopher calling Buck, because that’s Eddie’s partner and his co-parent in raising Chris. They’re a family, your honor! (as demonstrated in this gifset) We discover in this ep that Madney have broken up, mentioning the distance between them for all these months. Except we see in this ep that even when romantically apart, they still hover around each other, and their most significant, intimate moments are shared with one another. Does that remind you of other partners we know?

But that’s not just a comparison in general terms. The ep’s very structure regarding Buddie also reflects that exact narrative progression: throughout most of it, Buck and Eddie are apart, dealing with their own issues. And yet the most important moment they each have during the ep is the one they share at the end of it. In fact for Buddie, it’s the very climax of the ep (as I mentioned in the same gifset), that pivotal moment, the one that holds the greatest emotional importance in the ep, it’s reserved for these two men and their family, their relationship, the trust and closeness that they have developed which allows them to reach a breakthrough at the very end of the ep. ~~~

If that wasn’t enough, the ep did provide us with foreshadowing for this. For example, when Maddie shows up and we see her getting updates from Buck, the very first thing she hears from him is that Eddie has quit the 118. After that, she also hears an update on Taylor. Even just having Buck mentioning these two people together would have shown that Eddie is no less emotionally important to him than his actual gf… But then Buck actually mentioned Eddie first. I’m at a loss for words. Another hint is the scene with Frank telling Eddie that he needs to talk to someone who understands his trauma, which then transitions into a scene with Buck. And in case it wasn’t evident enough, Frank also mentioned to Eddie “anyone else around you” and this ep made it very clear that while Eddie referred to the whole team as his chosen family back in 311, the people he actually surrounds himself with in his daily life, the ones so close he might unintentionally drag down with him, are Chris and Buck.

Lastly, we get Eddie listening on the radio to Pauline speaking, and he clearly identifies with her (just think about how she says she feels empty, much like Eddie mentions to Frank in 309 that there are moments which he knows should fill him with joy, but they don’t), then who pulls her off the ledge, before she’ll self-destruct completely? Buck does. Just like he’s going to do for Eddie before the end of the ep. ~~~

On the job, Buck and Lucy started off getting in each other’s way, which although the context is very different, made me think their “chemistry” is more like Eddie and Hen getting in each other’s way in 505 than like Buck and Eddie always working seamlessly together, even before they became proper friends. I’m just saying, this can’t hold a candle to our battlefield boyfriends. I can’t wait until Buddie are officially back to that! ~~~

With Buck and Taylor, this ep demonstrated, even before bringing the kiss into the mix, that these two don’t belong together romantically. Taylor moves in and doesn’t communicate with Buck at all about what to bring and what to do when they have potential clashes (like two couches), instead she simply overrides Buck. That is not what a good partnership looks like. Then, it takes Maddie no time to figure out that there’s something wrong with this moving in together, but Taylor, who actually lives with Buck, can’t tell something’s up, showing very low levels of communication and familiarity (just think in comparison of how well Buddie know each other, for example Buck realizing within two seconds that Eddie isn’t okay during their dinner in 511).

I was proud of Buck for finally being honest (and clearly, he needed one of his loved ones to return to him so he’d have the strength to overcome his abandonment issues to do that). And not just about the kiss, I think it was really important that he didn’t stubbornly insist the moving in suggestion was detached from those issues. Taylor was fully within her rights to be upset with him. At the same time, after thinking about it, I have to say she was also a bit unfair to him. She’s in the same city she has lived in for years, it’s not like he uprooted her to move in together in a place where she has no one other than him, so it would stand to reason that she has friends she can stay with. She also has enough money to afford a hotel room for a couple of nights if she has no friends, even to buy extra clothes if she doesn’t feel like returning to the loft to get some. It’s not great, but it’s a possibility. So while I think she has every right to be upset, her being unfair still ended up feeling like another time when she was right, but still took things one step too far for me by putting too much blame on Buck, meaning when she told him off after the double date in 408. And then this arc concludes for this ep with the “no more lies” line, which is TV code reminding us there is still a lie hanging over a couple and that it WILL come out and they WILL break up. I just continue to hope 911 handles it in a way that allows Buck to grow. At least in terms of how he coped with most of the romantic entanglement in this ep, it does feel like his approach was more mature than it might have been in the past. ~~~

(The rest under a cut. Thank you so much for reading! Huge thank you to the incredible @judsonryder and @whosoldherout for the gorgeous gifs!)

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okay unhinged cap on! eddieana breakup vs buddie breakup comparison time. i am feral about it and i'm making it everybody's problem

first of all. from the dining room into the kitchen. in 5x03, ana runs from what she can see coming, and eddie pursues. in 5x11, eddie runs from "when you come back to the firehouse", and buck pursues.
ana puttering away in the sink, keeping her back to eddie, rambling away to stave off the inevitable. eddie putting stuff in the sink as buck follows, grabbing the plates, then turning right back around as buck says "you're tired" (and eddie putting plates full of food in the sink, my beloved, makes a return).
the door is open this time, and the decision on whether to shut it or not is out of eddie's hands for a change. not only is the door open, buck is practically glued to it, forcing it as far open as it will go, leaning his entire body against it. there are several points in the scene where it looks unnatural for him to be standing that way, like he should take a step into the room to face eddie properly, but he keeps hanging on to it with one hand:

he's keeping to open, maintaining eddie's connection to the outside world, metaphorically trying to keep eddie open. but he's also pretty clearly afraid to let go of it, of what might happen if they were alone in the privacy of the kitchen with the door shut, left alone with everything that's going unsaid between them.
the kitchen is messy. it's more or less regular cooking mess, not The Mess™️, but eddie goes in there to clean up, buck follows under the guise of cleaning up, and behind eddie, behold:

eddie keeps himself between buck and the mess the entire time. buck came in to help - physically with the leftovers, but also with "you okay? you look tired". he turns and takes the plates out of buck's hands instead of letting buck come closer to stand next to him and put them in the sink himself. the mess is not an explosion this time - it's more oranized, most of it is packed away, exactly like eddie himself. he doesn't need buck's help with it.
also:

he's lowkey highkey standing roughly where ana was standing when eddie was telling her something she didn't want to hear. this time, it's buck telling him "it's not what you're supposed to be doing. you're a firefighter."
we also have, of course, the conspicuously absent magnet people (~~the bane of every gimaker's existence~~), who kind of literally have eddie's back in the eddieana scene, and have now disappeared completely. the blank fridge door is smack dab in the middle of buck and eddie towards the end of the scene.
and again - like in the christmas episode - eddie's kitchen looks dark and small. we're closer, the camera is lower, we can see the wall all the way on the left, which makes the space feel more enclosed:

compare to:

a lot more space. so much light, because it's morning, the start of something, a tiny rebirth. also, something something, the cabinets all flung open, revealing even more mess, as eddie was making a terrifying choice that would leave him vulnerable (because ana was the "right" and safe thing to do that allowed him to cling to a version of himself he thinks he's supposed to be), versus them being properly shut, hiding what's inside. and eddie's shirt (something something see-through, because he's worn thin) matches them, lmao.
lastly. something about ana making muffins and eddie making cupcakes. absolutely no idea what. but something about it. ~~cupcakes are more polished? cupcakes are gay muffins? idk~~

eddie is obviously put in ana's position several times through this scene. he made the food, he leaves the table because he senses a conversation he doesn't want to have, he cleans just for something to do with his hands, he stands in front of the stove as buck tries to get through to him. obviously, buck is not breaking up with him, but the wider implications are fascinating.

in the breakup scene, ana is running from something she already knows, deep down, is going to happen. she has known for a while (as demonstrated by her bringing up eddie's panic attacks), but she's in denial for as long as eddie will possibly allow, right up until he closes the door and approaches her. eddie is running from his best friend who he knows is going to pry, unwilling to let him see the truth that he, deep down, also knows: he's not remotely okay, and he's not remotely moved on. except the scene never plays out in its entirety; buck doesn't corner him, doesn't close the door, doesn't stand there until eddie is willing to admit he's unwell (and i'm really curious to see whether this will come back in 5x13 - whether buck will close the door that time).

instead, buck allows eddie to get away with his own deflective dishwasher monologue - "i like what i'm doing", "buck, you need to move on. i have." "move on" is heavily, heavily romantically coded language, which is truly incredible considering the fact that this is the first and last time we see buck and eddie together in the episode.

after this, buck goes to bobby with his concerns, invites eddie for a team night out, then kisses lucy when eddie doesn't show up; eddie goes to the bar and sees buck - buck, the scene is specifically framed that way - having a good time, so he leaves, because he told buck to move on and it looks like he has.

so when i say buddie breakup, i mostly just mean it has intense eddieana breakup vibes, but also. i'm very sure that if eddie hadn't told buck to move on and forced him to confront the reality of eddie never being back at work, the rest of the episode would have played out very differently.

#loving this #buddie meta #911 spoliers

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Buddie 512 meta

I have to admit that I feel kind of funny writing Buddie meta after a Madney ep (since I love them so much and am rolling in my Madney feels right now), but this is the meta series about Buddie and Buck and Eddie… Plus, just like with Grudd’s ep on LS, there are scenes that make it clear how the 911 verse understands romantic love vs deep, loving platonic friendship, which is relevant to Buddie and needs to be pointed out, so here we go! ~~~

First, I wanna point out this: I love that Maddie saved her own life by choosing to walk out of the ocean. And I’m glad she got to tell Chim thinking about him and what her actions would do to him helped her do that when they met again. But it mattered to me that in her flashbacks, we also saw Buck telling her about his own pain over her leaving him in the past, and I really hope that at some point, he gets to hear from her that she also walked out of the ocean for him. I do think that Buck has begun to heal from his abandonment issues, but they started at such an early age, they’ll never be completely gone. And if 512 did one thing spectacularly, it was to remind us that mental health recovery isn’t built like a story, with a clear progression and an ending after which everything is good, it is a road of constantly working on healing. So Buck will always carry his fear and pain and sadness, just like Maddie will always have to deal with hers. That doesn’t invalidate that they ARE healing. But anything that can help them along their path matters. So I think it would be really important for Buck to know that he IS someone that Maddie can’t easily leave behind, just like she promised him in 316. ~~~

I made this gifset which showed on the on hand Chim and Eli having a deep, healthy, loving and platonic friendship between two men, including a comfort touch, and on the other hand… whatever Buddie were up to in 303. But it’s not just the difference between the way touch itself (Eli pats Chim on the shoulder while passing him by with a bit of physical distance between their torsos, clearly leaving Chim on his own, while Eddie puts his thumb in an incredibly intimate spot on Buck’s PULSE POINT and then HOLDS HIS GAZE while their bodies are so close THEY COULD BE SLOW DANCING), it’s also in the interaction itself. In the words that are exchanged. Eli’s pep talk in this scene is all about the practical help Chim needs. He offers it and then assures Chim it’s okay to do his thing, where very clearly it IS Chim’s thing, Eli’s not a part of it. In 303, Eddie figures out what’s mentally bothering Buck and won’t let him sink into those dark thoughts, drowning in them on his own. And it’s clear that Eddie is very much a part of what’s going on with Buck, as well as a part of how he can cope. In Boston, Eli does Chim a huge favor, letting him stay over for an unknown amount of time, rent free… and Chim’s grateful, so his first reaction is to promise he and Jee Yun will be out of Eli and his family’s hair as soon as possible. Meanwhile, Eddie essentially gives Buck nothing short of the role of co-parent to Eddie’s only child, which is insane enough as it is, but then Buck in reaction doesn’t protest or question it, he just stands there in awe, absorbing it. Which is also reflected in the way the scene was shot! Chim and Eli’s friendly support is framed by a dark apartment, whie Buck takes in Eddie words in the same manner he’s soaking the sunlight flooding the frame. Lastly, Eli and Chim’s talk is just one part of a montage (with its own background music). But Eddie and Chris at Buck’s apartment at the end of the tsunami? They arrive there after a montage has ended. They take up the whole scene, they’re not just a part of a sequence of events, and the music stops for Buddie’s conversation at the end of 303, it is THE highlight, THE scene that concludes Buddifer’s intertwined arc over no less than three eps. If we all pointed to Buddie as a friendship which is abnormally charged and intense and intimate, it’s because that’s how the show portrays it. ~~~

The entire episode felt like it was endlessly offering us parallels between Madney’s family unit with Jee Yun, and Buddifer’s. It hit me right off the bat, as the ep kicked off with Maddie’s voice over.We can hear her saying she believes Jee Yun will be better off without her as she walks into the ocean. This of course made me think of Buck telling Eddie in 414 that Chris would have been better off if had been Buck to get shot. Both Buckley siblings express a fear to their partner for the child that they’re co-parenting, while they both show signs of suicidal tendencies. It’s heartbreaking (and not surprising) that they both have this condition of depression that leads them to this idea (which we now know might also have a genetic factor), it’s also that they both express it within the same notion of caring and fearing for their kid. If this doesn’t cement that Chris is to Buck nothing short of what Jee Yun is to Maddie, IDK what will.

Another example of these parallels between their family units is how Chim sending footage of Jee Yun to Maddie when she can’t be there is reminiscent of how Buck is taking and sending pictures of himself with Chris when they’re spending a day together and Eddie can’t be with them. These are parents with their kids and their life partners, you can’t change my mind!

Which means they also have very similar moments of dread for the members of their core family unit. Just like we are shown the moment when Chim admits to another person he will have to go looking for Maddie in the morgue (and we understand the awful emotional impact of that because they are each other’s core family unit), so too we were shown that realization when it hit Buck, that he needed to go looking for Chris among those who didn’t make it in the tsunami. This moment doesn’t pack as much of a punch unless we understand how much Christopher has come to mean to Buck.

But the thing about how much you love your core family unit is you simply can’t give up on them, not as long as there’s a sliver of hope, maybe not even when there’s none at all. That’s why we see that Chim kept looking for Maddie. Even when he knew the morgue was an option, he was still going around, talking to Athena, printing and hanging up ‘missing’ posters, and then waiting for her outside the women’s mental health clinic, without any indication that she’s there and with Eli telling him that he’s crazy. Similarly, in 512 even after Buck realized Eddie might not be coming back to the 118, Buck still texted him to come along with the team to the pub, waiting for Eddie, like Buck had been waiting for months prior to that dinner they had together, showing that on some level he continued to wait even after Eddie himself told Buck not to. NGL, I think Jane Austen would approve.

Of course, as Jane Austen would tell you, or Eli (since he’s apparently a great amateur of films and their structure, he seriously rocks and is welcome to co-write my meta weekly post any day), it’s always darkest before the dawn, so before it can get better, we need to really feel the full weight of what it would mean if the protagonist for some reason won’t be able to come back to their partner after all. That’s why we have that moment when Chim sees that the ‘missing’ poster is gone, we get the expression on his face, of being completely stunned and unable to process his loss, and I think it’s SO similar to that lingering shot we got of Buck in 511, after he heard Eddie saying that he’s moved on.

That’s when the reunion can kick off, and it starts with Madney gravitating together around saving a life (something they’ve done together before in 313). It reminded me of how the first hint of a reunion we get for Buddie is the Speed call in 511, where thanks to Eddie watching Buck on the highway, the two of them could work together (Eddie on the phone, Buck in the field) to save people’s lives, just like they used to. Battlefield boyfriends forever.

Another parallel between Madney and Buddie in this ep is how the 911 verse tells us that when one of each pair is around others, they naturally shift to talking about their partner and kid. We learn this is true for Chim from Eli, and we also saw that the same applied to Eddie, because during the crossover ep, when he was on his own with Marjan, his social media naturally directed the conversation to Chris as well as to Buck…

If the thematic parallels aren’t enough, we also get the visual shot of Chim and Maddie sitting on opposite ends of the bench when things are emotionally loaded between them after their reunion, which brought back the image of Buck and Eddie sitting on opposite ends of Eddie’s hospital bed when things were about to turn so raw between them during the guardianship reveal in 414.

Lastly, the resolution of Madney’s struggle is tied to their understanding that they can’t pretend with each other. The challenge of that is obviously that sometimes we pretend with ourselves as much as we do with others. That’s what Madney realize in this ep that they had been doing and can’t continue to. And just as discussed in the 511 meta, this is what both Eddie and Buck have been doing as well. Buck even admitted he’s too apt at hiding his own feelings back in 403, right before we learned so much more about the Buckley siblings and their upbringing, which constituted the first instance of Buck acknowledging both he and Maddie carry a certain sadness with them. I just have to give the show kudos for bringing things full circle for Madney. Buddie is not there yet, but we know that they must walk the same path, and one of the strongest indications for this is that the same resolution Madney arrive at, not to pretend with each other anymore, is what Buck was hoping for in 511. They’ll get there, and when they do, it will still be something they’ll have to work at constantly (much like Madney realize in this ep), but just like the Madney reunion, I believe Buddie’s will also feel earned and satisfying.

~~~ Thank you so much for reading! Biggest thank you goes out to @whosoldherout and @judsonryder, who made these stellar gifs for the meta. It takes a lot of time and work, and I hope that they get all the love and appreciation for what they do! And thank you to anyone who support these posts, especially with reblogs. It’s a labor of love, and a reblog is a wonderful way to spread that love around. xoxox

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I was just rewatching the shooting scene™️ like one does and there’s just specific things I will never ever be over. The fucking detailing of the entire scene is so romantically coded as we all know and I just will never get over the fucking things we got from that cinematic masterpiece.

Like the fact that the moment Eddie got shot, his first reaction was to make eye contact with Buck. Because not only is Buck his partner on the field but also the person who Eddie feels the safest with. He looked at Buck almost as a silent plea for help using their strong nonverbal communication.

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Then how Eddie literally fell down and used all of his remaining energy to physically reach out to Buck, not once, but two fucking timessss. The man knew he had been shot and didn’t really know what his chances were gonna be on whether he would survive it. And what did he do? He reached out for his safety net, his fucking person. Just that simple act took all the energy from him and he slowly started losing consciousness.

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THEN HE CAME BACK AND HELD ONTO BUCK’S ARM AFTER BUCK FUCKING CRAWLED UNDER A FIRETRUCK TO SAVE HIS GODDAMN LIFE!!!

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Let’s not forget how Buck went full on Hulk and carried Eddie like he weighed absolutely nothing. The fact that his adrenaline was so high that all he was zeroed in on was saving Eddie.

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But my absolutely favorite part that drives me to the brink of insanity everytime is Eddie gaining consciousness for a few seconds. In which he uses the rest of his energy reserves to ask Buck if he is ok!!! THE MAN GOT SHOT BUT HAD TO MAKE SURE BUCK WAS FINE!!! And you can see the very moment he gets his answer and the fight to stay conscious leaves his body.

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But the best fucking part???? THE LAST THING EDDIE DOES BEFORE SLIPPING INTO UNCONSCIOUSNESS IS LOOKING AT BUCK. HE DELIBERATLY MOVES HIS HEAD TOWARDS BUCK TO LOOK INTO HIS EYES. ALMOST AS IF THAT IS THE FACE HE WANTS TO LAST SEE BEFORE HE..BEFORE HE…AHHHHH. Just knowing that Buck was fine and that he was going to be there for Christopher was enough for Eddie to comfortably let the universe seal his fate. And because he knew Buck was fine, therefore his son would be taken care of, Eddie allowed himself that one second of sweet self indulgence in taking in the man before him, the man who has his heart and being at peace with that being the last image he sees before he closes his eyes to rest.

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#i really wanted the diaz boy to give Buck a st. Christopher medallion of his own #because buck has pretty much traveled the world before settling in la #and even that was to help and protect others #it seemed fitting #so this post makes me so happy 😊#pure genius #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #christopher diaz #the buckley diaz family #buddie meta

Eddie Diaz and the symbolic meaning of his St. Christopher Medallion

I AM SCREAMING. GUYS!! Ok so I saw @eddie-diass post regarding Eddie’s St.Christopher necklace and the meaning behind him wearing it. I was discussing theories with @ktinaj and we realized we’ve never seen the actual medal up close.

Ok so some backstory on what St. Christopher represents. Saint Christopher was a large figure who later became known as the patron saint of travelers (x). As Shannon said to Eddie when she gave it to him in “Eddie Begins”, “To protect you, keep you safe. And to remind you you have a family to come home to.” His response was that, “No matter what happens, I’m always gonna fight to come home to my family.” Eddie kept that medal close to his heart while he was at war and the show really did showcase the importance of family to Eddie by using that medal.

Later, when Ana asks Eddie at Christopher’s show and tell if the medal is his good luck charm, he replies with, “No, he is” while smiling at his son. We never see Eddie wearing it before or after “Eddie Begins”, only in the flashbacks. So, it can represent family for Eddie. His son is his goodluck charm, and he keeps him close to his heart.

In the same article, Tina came across a part where St. Christopher was a popular saint for people growing up in the 40’s, ‘50s, & ‘60s, especially surfers in California. “Surfers wore St. Christopher’s for protection in the ocean and gave the medallions to their boyfriends and girlfriends as a sign of going steady.” Now why is this important? Well we know Christopher was taking surfing lessons because we saw a hand drawn card made for Buck that represented him and Buck with a surfboard in 3.01. We also know that Buck and Christopher were caught in a tsunami, and Buck carried Christopher through the ocean waters to safety. Now this circles back to who Saint Christopher was. He literally “carried a child, on his shoulders across an impassable river and delivered the child safely.” Upon looking at a St. Christopher medallion, we see it’s literally a man who had a smaller child on his shoulders. Eddie has been wearing a medal that has a man (Buck) carrying a younger boy (Christopher) around his neck as a symbol of what he fights to go home to.

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The only time we have seen Eddie wear the medal besides “Eddie Begins” is when he’s telling Buck about his will. It’s very prominent and in the middle of his black shirt, once more symbolizing his connection to his son. This, to me, showcases Eddie’s acceptance of Buck into his family. He wears it proudly as a symbol of his love and devotion to both Christopher and Buck.

#possible buddie parallels to bathena in upcoming episodes #i am feeling like we'll get a hospitalized buck soon though #bathena #may grant #buddie #christopher diaz #harry grant #911 4x01 #911 3x17 #911 4x14 #911 5x03 #911 spoilers #911 speculations #i have so many thoughts #911 meta #buddie meta #give me buddie or give me hell #911 5x08

In continuation to 9-1-1 4x01, I spot a potential new buddie paralleled to bathena:

1. When Bobby speaks to May when she starts to work at the dispatch center. It was the same day Athena got back to work.

Bobby: Don't be scared. MAY: But she's out there, Right where they're saying there could be a landslide. Bobby: She's probably just helping out with evacuations. May: Aren't you worried? It's too soon. Bobby: Hey, your mom is doing her job. And I'm sure she'd want you to be doing the same. Actually, that's a lie. She still wants you to quit. Now in S5b, Eddie is not in danger anymore, but Buck is still very much out there, and no, he is not Christopher’s father, but we all know he may as well be.

And Oliver did say, he has a scene with Christopher in 5x11, and we also know that Buck is going back to working on his own, and back to his fun S1 Buck rescues. I can see Christopher, now no longer worried for Eddie, being scared for Buck. And both Eddie and Buck will have to find a way to allay Chris’s fears. Also I do hope Eddie is smart enough to send the kid back to therapy. 2. This is Athena’s speech to Silvia, when she tries to convince her to evacuate her house, and that is also the first day when Athena is back at work after she was injured in 3x17.

Athena: “You know, today was my first day back on the job. Six months since I last put on this uniform.” “I was injured, Line of duty. Took some time to heal. Silvia: “Not everything heals in six months.” Athena: “You're right about that. My arm's fixed, but the rest of me? I even lied to my husband this morning. Told him that I would be all right, didn't mention that it took everything in my being to get out of that bed this morning and pick up this badge. Then I lied to my captain. Hell, maybe I've been lying to myself.”

Athena is admitting to not being healed, mentally. And we can assume, that Eddie wasn’t healed either. Him leaving in my opinion, is more because he wasn’t sure of his own mental shields/strength anymore. Athena has been through therapy, has probably been injured and hospitalized before, May even seemed well adjusted when visiting her in the hospital, but you could see it was Harry’s first time. With both her kids worrying about her constantly, she never left the job. She thought about it, was close to retire as she told Bobby later on, but she never did, because she is sure that this is who she is, that this is her place, and she draws strength from the people she loves. Eddie, was in the same position as Athena after 4x14, but we don’t see him meeting with a therapist, I’m guessing he had a psych eval before returning to work, but at this point he knows what he needs to say to get the seal of approval, and was probably back to firefighting as soon as he was cleared.

Buck like Bobby did with Athena, did try to check with Eddie, (as we can see in 5x03 and 5x08) but Eddie seemed to be reluctant to touch on the shooting subject. The panic attacks are merely a symptom to the problem. But where Athena worked through her problem, and leaned on her family, Eddie tried to carry everything alone until that house of cards came crumbling down. An unsettled parent makes for an unsettled child, and I’m betting leaving the 118 won’t solve any of the problems Eddie is facing. Because even if leaving was a knee jerk reaction to Christopher’s fear, it was merely an easy way out for Eddie, who’s probably still living in that moment where a sniper’s bullet shattered his hard earned comforting reality.

I was listening to Athena talking and all I could think about was “hell, that’s probably what Eddie’s has been thinking when he got back to work and was still living that awful moment because he never really dealt with it.”

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These two scenes seemed to stand out to me as possible parallels for the S5b buddie progression, My mind is buzzing with thoughts!! Share yours with me too!!

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So because I'm too excited and super obsessing over something I read in some of the asks about Eddie's responses, I think we're definitely due for a freak out.

I've been rewatching through the seasons lately (because seriously what else is there to do), and in S4, we had a chance to see it already if it had made the final cut.

Now what makes me think it's been cut?

In the bus scene in 4x01, Eddie was on the roof. He was not gung-ho about the whole lowering Buck onto a teetering bus, and then even less happy about moving it after it was stable, because he knew there was a very real chance that it will lead to explosion.

Once the bus started leaking gas we can see Eddie on the roof catching the sound and going to check.

Then he radios Buck, not the medical team, not the Captain, he checks in with Buck. Asking " Is everyone off that thing, I think it's venting fuel." Translation: "Are you off the bus? Are you safe?"

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Buck bless his reckless soul, runs, in true firefighter form, into the bus to warn Bobby, but seconds later the bus explodes.

Eddie knowing that Buck is liable to do exactly that calls out to him, in a very panicked voice over the radio.

You can hear it here:

We even get an above the bus view, meaning Eddie was there seeing everything from the roof. - The "BUCK!" Along with that immediate view of the bus from the roof makes me entirely certain that there was a short scene here that's been cut, Eddie from the roof looking down, and Buck reassuring him over the radio, once making sure that everyone still have their bits and pieces intact.

I believe that in 4x05, there was at least one Eddie scene that was cut from the episode of the warehouse sequence, after all we see him the first to get the Buck, and the look on his face was nowhere near calm or cool, he looked anguished and worried as he took hold of the rope Buck has given up on pulling .

GIF by eddiediaz-buckley

In 5x06 there's no reunion scene in the hospital post the hostage scene before the morning after and even then we don't see them leaving together, even if Buck leaves immediately after Eddie left the hospital, so they were bound to meet outside at the very least, if not in the hall leading out.

The scenes that we don't see are endless, and for some reason the 9-1-1 on fox ppl don't see fit to release missing/deleted scenes or even gag reels. I'm starting to think there's a reason behind it. 👀

But I am very sure that the time for an unsettled, sick-with-worry-for-Buck!Eddie is closing in on us, and we will not be ready!

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