Call it the way I see it!

I wholeheartedly believe, that Eddie’s mental state will take a turn to the better, after he talks to Buck/break down (and our hearts in the process) in front of Buck.

History shows exactly that.

The Santa's village talk:

And we cannot ignore the kitchen talk:

That was followed by that:

And ended with Eddie feeling more settled in the end of the episode:

There's also fools:

That ended with this:

And recently:

That ended with Eddie breaking up with his gf who he was miserable with:

(Sorry, i need a minute. He just looks so good in that shirt 👀)

And last but not least, was a fraction of a moment, where Eddie was on the verge of a panic attack and Buck stepped in and gave him an anchor to hold onto until the whole crisis was over:

I've hit my limit on gifs per post. But the point is, that Eddie stopped talking to Buck about the big things, concerning himself. And for once, because they both suffered that specific trauma of the shooting together, Buck let him get away with it.

Either out of guilt, fear, shame, overprotectiveness, an overwhelming sense of not knowing how to fix this one or just the fact that he himself is in pieces and not sure how to reassemble them both together without losing it completely or all of the above, Buck didn't push. And Eddie continued to isolate himself to a point where Christopher’s own fears, rage, and helplessness were enough to knock Eddie completely off for a loop that his defense mechanism wasn't equipped to handle.

Personally I wondered why Buck wasn't there when they were decorating for Christmas, I also wondered why that specific conversation of Christopher's fears was done with Carla.

Because Buck didn't know anything about it beyond the nightmares, and I'm thinking that Eddie, while not wanting to face his own trauma, is also trying to shield Buck from the mess that is his life, not wanting to add to what Buck is already going through and not wanting to reawaken the trauma that plagues Eddie, because they were both there, and both are very aware of that.

Historically, Eddie doesn't do well without Buck, and even though this time it's of Eddie's own doing, Eddie will still spiral until his rock, sounding board, anchor call it what you will, grabs a hold of him and grounds him again.

Buck will have to push, again, like only he can, and I am so here for that.

Wow this was longer than I planned it to be, if you made it this far. Thank you!!

Happy Wednesday my loves!! ❤

And Eddie did get better, when he started to let Buck back in, I'm a wreck 🥺❤️🥺❤️