Rules: Answer 17 questions and tag 17 people you want to get to know better.

I was tagged by @wincestismyguiltypleasure and @slut-for-jared - thanks, guys!!!

 Nickname: Dee, D

Zodiac Sign: Cancer (well, 12 minutes from Leo, anyway)

Height: 5'6''… and a half… *snort*

Hogwarts House: None, ’cause I’m one of those freaks that don’t dig Harry Potter.

Last Thing I Googled: "Attack Decay Sustain Release” or ADSR which is… Well, values used to modify sound in its duration, sorta. It can be applied to several targets, the most common targets are volume, pitch and filter. ’Cause I play with sound a bit.

Song Stuck In My Head: ”Jeremy” by Pearl Jam. Epiiiiic.  

Following and Followers: I'm following 147 blogs and I have…. Errr… *checks*… 178 followers?! Wtf?? Are that many ppl actually reading what I… put… out there? I don’t know if I should be terrified or extremely flattered by that, so I pick both! I am terri-flattered!!!!! Thanks, lovelies!

Amount I Sleep: Far too much. If I’m within my ”normal”, then between 8-10 hours. If I’m spent or hungover I can sleep for 15 hours straight. That’s right, I am in fact… a sloth.

Lucky Numbers: 7. Just 7. Because it’s awesome.

Dream Job: Doctor or liguistics expert… I’d love to work with ancient languages. Like Latin, Sanskrit, Egyptian and such.

Wearing: A red/black checkered flannel shirt with black lace-up front (just for a tiny bit of cleavage, ya know?) and black pants. Black socks and underwear to go with it. Because I am predictable.

Favorite Songs: ”Change” by Deftones, ”Teardrop” by Massive Attack, ”Twilight Innocence” by November’s Doom, ”Angry Again” by Megadeth, ”Killing in the Name” by RATM, ”Money for Nothing” by Dire Straits, ”My Twin” by Katatonia, ”Rooster” by Alice in Chains, ”Christian Woman” by Type O Negative,  ”Torsteins Kvæði” by Týr, ”Switch” by Senser, ”Ritual Noise” by The Covenant, ”Hail to the King” by Avenged Sevenfold, ”Flesh into Gear” by CKY, ”Wish You Were Here” by Pink Floyd and many, many, many more....

Favorite Instruments: Probably guitars.... and those slender flutes that the irish play... and bagpipes! Because those and just fucking weird.

Random Fact: Umm… I… Know shitloads of ultra-random and totally useless facts but I can’t remember how or when I met someone. The deepest lake in the world is Lake Baikal in Russia! How did we meet again? When’s our anniversary, darlin’? Oh! *Deep sigh*

Favorite Author: Koontz and King.

Favorite Animal Noises: Birds chirping in the spring and summer. Definitely!

Aesthetic: Is ”Sam Winchester getting his ass plowed by his big brother” an aesthetic?

I tag these lovely tumblrs (feel free to ignore if ya don’t feel like it):

@palishere, @takikojou, @laminiaksblog, @arclucifer666, @omgbubblesomg, @jaredisanangel-samisagod, @sammydeeimpala67, @the-moose-says-jerk, @sammywinchester-obsessed, @perpetuallymywinchesters, @fullonswayzed, @oddsocksandstuff, @thecleverdame, @supernatural-fangirl-15, @sarasaurussex, @sleepsweetie-sleepsweetfire, @all-4-wincest

What I Like About Myself

I was tagged by the lovely @pinkoptics – thank you, honey. This is a hard one though! *Shakes fist lovingly*

Once you get this, you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly. Then you have to send this to ten of your followers 🌈🌈 (Or you know, just say nice things about yourself, that’s good too :D)

 1: I am very empathetic.

Almost too empathetic for my own good.  I have the ability to quickly pinpoint, acknowledge and understand people’s feelings/emotions. I try my best to be kind and to let people know that I respect their feelings and that they are just as valid as mine. That’s a good trait, right?

2: I am intelligent.

God, it feels so weird to say that. I automatically feel like a complete asshole just by saying that I am not an ignoramus. But I’m not. At least according to Mensa, hahah.  But really - somehow, in all honesty, I know that I’m actually pretty clever when it comes down to it. I think.

3: I am caring.

I go out of my way to help others, to make them feel better and to help them on their way. I treat others as I hope they will treat me when/if I ever need their help. I try to be supportive and helpful whenever I can and I guess that’s a nice thing.

4: I am creative.

I am good at creating. I love to paint, draw, write, take photographs… And I think I am fairly good at it. I love to create new stuff, to explore my imagination and get my “visions” out onto media of different sorts, be it paper, screen or canvas. I am actually pretty skilled at portraying my ideas and visualizing them. My techniques – depending on media - are actually also kind of good. At least I think they are.   

5: I try to be kind to myself!

I try to give myself the same space and the same respect as I give everyone else. It’s hard and I don’t even know why. I sometimes feel like it’s a losing battle, but I keep trying! I am me, and that’s okay. I am me, nothing more and nothing less – and that’s fucking okay! I don’t have to be as “successful” as the stereotypical society around me craves. I don’t have to fit into a predefined box and I don’t owe anybody an explanation for existing!! I am myself. And it’s okay. It’s okay to just be me. And that’s what I keep telling myself even though it can be exhausting.

I can’t tag 10 people... But I’ll tag @joeybevosentmeover and @oncerpotter2018 and @acherik and everyone else who might need a self esteem boost! Be nice to yourselves out there - you deserve it. ❤️

Rules: Tag Nine People With Excellent Taste (I was tagged by the wonderful @fullmetalcarer - thank you so much and sorry for the late reply, sweetie!)

Colour(s): Purple, black and vermillion. Definitely, cos they’re classy and never grow old. And they’re purdy too. 

Last band t-shirt I bought: Umm… That would be an AC/DC T-shirt I bought for a friend of mine recently. I think the last one I bought for myself was a CKY one and that was back in 2002 or so. Yeah, I’m old, what of it???

Last band I saw live: Saturnus (Danish doom metal). I love them and one of my (many) favorite songs by them is “Litany of Rain”, which you can hear here, if you wanna check it out.

Last song I listened to: Mark Knopfler with “Boom, Like That” – it’s stuck in my head 24/7 these days and it’s just such an awesome song. It’s so happy and easy listening, sort of – even though it’s about the McDonald’s entrepreneur, Ray Kroc. *Huffs*

Last movie I watched: “Logan” – finally got my act together and watched it. *Sniffle*… My feels won’t forgive me though. They still blame me for it, because they got pretty damn shredded. Thanks, Marvel. Really.    

Last three tv shows I watched: Eh, that would probably be “Family Guy” and “The Simpsons” along with various documentary stuff on History Channel about the Tudors, the middle ages and all things like that. Whatever medieval shows I zap to I seem to get stuck on.  

Last three characters I identified with: Charles Xavier, Jean Grey and probably Eeyore from Winnie-The-Pooh. LOL, what a mix.    

Book I’m currently reading: Do AO3 and Wattpad count? I haven’t read a “proper” book in years, can’t focus. Also - not enough smut, which is definitely a huge deal breaker. Cos I iz perv and I need my fix.  

I’ll tag whoever wants to play the game - which means everyone and no one! Sorrynotsorry. Yeah! Cuz I don’t always play by the rules. 🖕🏻 And I think everyone I know has been tagged before - if you haven’t, consider yourself tagged!!  

I was tagged by the dear @l-p-r-o-c-k - thank you sweetie!

1ST RULE: tag 9 people you want to get to know better!  

Mm, I’ll defy this rule a little and keep it short, just tagging a few. You of course don’t have to do it. But those few will be:

@fa-nfiction

@fullmetalcarer

@oncerpotter2015

@oydie-outrovert

2ND RULE: BOLD the statements that are true!

APPEARANCE: - I am 5'7 or taller - I wear glasses - I have at least one tattoo  - I have at least one piercing - I have blonde hair - I have brown eyes - I have short hair - My abs are at least somewhat defined - I have or had braces

PERSONALITY: I love meeting new people - People tell me I am funny - Helping others with their problems is a big priority of mine - I enjoy physical challenges - I enjoy mental challenges - I am playfully rude to people I know - I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it - There is something I would change my personality

ABILITY: - I can sing well - I can play an instrument - I can do over 30 pushups without stopping - I am a fast runner - I can draw well - I have a good memory - I am good at doing math in my head - I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute - I have beaten at least 2 people arm wrestling - I can make at least 3 recipes from scratch - I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES: - I enjoy sports - I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else - I’m in a orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else - I have learned a new song in the past week - I exercise at least once a week - I have gone for runs at least once a week in warmer months -I have drawn something in the past month - I enjoy writing - Fandoms are my #1 priority  - I do some form of Martial arts

EXPERIENCES: - I have had my first kiss - I have had alcohol - I have scored a winning point in a sport - I have watched an entire TV series in one sitting - I have been at an overnight event - I have been in a taxi - I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year - I have beaten a video game in one day - I have visited another country - I have been to one of my favorite bands concerts

MY LIFE: - I have one person that I consider to be my Best Friend - I live close to my school/work - My parents are still together - I have at least one sibling - I live in the United States - There is snow where I live right now  - I have hung out with a friend in the past month - I have a smart phone - I own at least 15 CDs - I share my room with someone

RELATIONSHIPS: - I am in a Relationship - I have a crush on a celebrity - I have a crush on someone I know - I’ve been in at least 3 relationships - I have never been in a Relationship - I have admitted my feelings to a crush - I get crushes easily - I have had a crush for over a year - I have been in a relationship for over a year - I have had feelings for a friend

RANDOM: - I have break-danced - I know a person named Jamie - I have had a teacher that has a name that is hard to pronounce - I have dyed my hair - I’m listening to a song on repeat right now - I have punched someone in the past week - I know someone who has gone to jail - I have broken a bone- I have eaten a waffle today - I know what I want to do in life - I speak at least two languages - I have made a new friend in the past year

Top 10 songs I’m listening to:

I was tagged by the sweet @l-p-r-o-c-k - thank you, dear!  💙

1: ”When I Die” by Lush 

Because this shoegazing track simply makes me all warm inside - topped off with a hint of bittersweet nostalgia and pessimism of course.

2: ”Flesh Into Gear” by CKY

Because I love the energy and momentum of this song. It’s different, it’s a tad strange and it’s one of this underrated band’s top achievements if you ask me. Experimental rock/alternative metal at its best.

3: “Bloodstream” by Ed Sheeran

Yeah, I guess I went a bit soft here… Ahem, but this song just has a cool and kind of dark undertone that I really like.

4: “Walk of Life” by Dire Straits

Well, because I’m oldschool like that!

5: “The Last Day On Earth” by Marilyn Manson

I will always love this song. I used to listen to it playing on repeat while stoned out of my mind… I don’t even know why that’s a good memory to me, but it is. Silly maybe.

6: “Sinklars Visa” by TÝR

Faroese folk metal at its very best!!! I’m a sucker for musicians who combine ancient folk songs with modern and heavy instruments. An intriguing fusion of old and new. Eargasm, yes please!

7: “Rooster” by Alice In Chains

Because it fucking rules!?

8: “Jeremy” by Pearl Jam

A classic alternative rock song that I really love. Maybe because the story of Jeremy reminds me of myself, having been the quiet outcast throughout my school years. Jeremy’s fate could basically have been mine...

9: “Walk” by Pantera

Oh yes. This groove metal song always puts me in a good mood. RESPECT.

10: “Killing in the Name” by Rage Against The Machine

Because it says so much that certain members of American society don’t want to hear!!! And the fact that it sounds divine in my ears as well of course only adds to my excitement about this song. Fuck you, I won’t do what you tell me. 

I will tag the lovely @joeybevosentmeover​ - because I’m really curious as to what you listen to? Spill the beans, dear!  I don’t know who else to tag that haven’t been tagged by someone else doing this - so consider yourself tagged if you aren’t already! 🤘🏻

❤ I was tagged by the lovely @l-p-r-o-c-k - thanks, dear! ❤ You can only say “guilty” or “innocent”. You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you or asks you! 


asked someone to marry you: INNOCENT


kissed one of your friends: GUILTY


danced on a table in a bar or tavern: INNOCENT


ever told a lie: GUILTY


had feelings for someone whom you can’t have: VERY GUILTY


ever kissed someone of the opposite sex: GUILTY


ever kissed someone of the same sex: GUILTY


kissed a picture: INNOCENT


slept in until 5pm: GUILTY


fallen asleep at work or school: GUILTY


held a snake: GUILTY


been suspended from school: INNOCENT


stolen something: GUILTY


done something you regret: GUILTY


laughed until what you were drinking came out of your nose: GUILTY


caught a snowflake on your tongue: GUILTY


sat on a roof top: GUILTY


sang in the shower: GUILTY


been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on: INNOCENT


slept naked: GUILTY


made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry: GUILTY


been in a band: GUILTY


shot a gun: GUILTY


donated blood: INNOCENT


eaten alligator meat: INNOCENT


eaten cheesecake: GUILTY


still loved someone you shouldn’t: INDEED GUILTY


have/had a tattoo: GUILTY


been too honest: GUILTY


ruined a surprise: INNOCENT


ate in a restaurant and got so bloated you can’t walk after: INNOCENT


erased someone in your friends list: GUILTY


dressed in a man’s clothes: GUILTY


dressed in a woman’s clothes: GUILTY


joined a pageant: GUILTY


been told you’re beautiful by someone who meant it: GUILTY


still have communication with your ex: GUILTY


cheated on someone: INNOCENT


got totally drunk the night before an important exam: INNOCENT


a total stranger treated you by paying your fare: INNOCENT


got so angry that you cried: GUILTY


tried to stay away from someone for their own good: INNOCENT


actually murdered someone: INNOCENT


thought about mass murder: GUILTY


actually committed a mass murder: INNOCENT


rode in a stranger’s vehicle: INNOCENT


stalked someone: INNOCENT


had a girlfriend: GUILTY


had a boyfriend: GUILTY


totally drunk during a holiday: GUILTY

I will tag @cherikyassss, @pinkoptics, @soulfulmags, @jamesy4ever and whoever wants to play! 

5 things about me

I was tagged by @soulfulmags and @candycherik to write 5 things about myself and tag 10 people (I won't tag that many though) - thank you, you two!  ❤

1 

I joined Tumblr to have a free haven to play in and just chill. To vent my inner fantasies without judgment and just anonymously let my inner pervert roam free. This place is like an outlet for me where I can share my NSFW scribblings, manips, GIFs, etc... My private hiding place and pleasure pit. That came out kinda icky and corny by the way.

     2

I have a favorite sound. One sound is just so oddly satisfying to me above all other sounds and I don't know why - normally I don't even notice every day sounds like this one. Anyways, what sound am I talking about? A banana with its peel still on being cut in half with a dull knife. I looove it!!! Shoot me now.

Children scare me. They're not my cup of tea in general, but children under the age of 6 just plain scare me. Those big, innocent eyes seem to be able to pierce me to the bone... It's like they can peer into my soul. Makes me nervous. Which is weird, because it's not like I have anything to hide. I never know what to say or how to act around them. And children find me extremely fascinating for some reason which doesn't exactly help - so usually they end up almost clinging to me while I try to just get away. Heeeelp.    

4 

I am a sucker for non-con as some of you might have noticed. I don't know why, but ever since I was a kid and started to discover my sexuality it has always been my "favorite kink". I know it's a sensitive subject and it's definitely not for everyone, but for me it just hits the spot. Don't get me wrong, IRL non-con and rape is NOT something that I would ever condone and it would never turn me on! But in fantasy land it's a very different story! Why? Beats me.  

I have always been an outcast. From primary school to present day. I am what I call "socially amputated" - I just don't function properly with others and no matter how hard I try to fit in I always end up as the weirdo in the corner or a wallflower of sorts. My social skills are non-existing so to speak... And the word "introvert" isn't sufficient to describe my dysfunctional relationship with people in general. So I have always been very lonely which has been painful, especially when I was younger. But I have finally managed to secure a small inner circle of very close friends - 3 to be exact - and I am so grateful for that. I managed to find some people who actually understand my anxiety and quirky behavior and accept my boundaries and limits. I sort of wish I could just be like everyone else and smalltalk and mingle and just be normal.... but I'm slowly starting to realize - and accept - that I'll never be normal. And that's okay too.   

   Whoah, that was quite a mouthful! Sorry not sorry!  

I hereby tag:

@fa-nfiction @cherikyassss @typical-trope @timelosser and @butterynutjob