deepfriedtwinkie reblogged
the reason i like staying up late so much is because between the hours of 1am-5am, the world is quiet and no one expects anything from me. i could stare at my wall for 4 hours and there would be no consequences. it’s so silent and calm. i love it
#it's back#also me#did you mean: my life#I mean there are also plenty of times I WISH I could be asleep but can't and it's maddening and I know I should#but whether I'm up voluntarily or not I will just still always love the night hours#in my ideal world I would sleep from 4AM to 11AM every day and never lose my favorite part of the day#that's seven hours a night which is P L E N T Y of sleep for me and then I'd still be up at an hour that ends in AM#but I'd never have to feel like a quitter who forfeits my time that I value so fucking much to do something as boring as be unconscious#because if there's a choice between losing time to do the things I want and losing sleep? how could there ever be a contest??#that's where I've fucked up in the past but I don't care. I can sleep when I'm dead but the things I enjoy are ALL I enjoy and I need them#when there's a choice between ''fulfilled but tired'' and ''using all my time to serve others but well-rested'' I will ALWAYS choose the 1st#and I know choosing fun over sleep isn't healthy - but is a funless life healthy either? no#I'm lucky-slash-warped enough that I have the ''luxury'' of choosing because I can function GREAT on low sleep#so yeah; I have a love-hate relationship with late night hours but I love them more than I hate them#probably always will even when I'm forced to give them up forever and live by what is a completely unnatural clock to me#feeling disgusted every night that I'm forced to turn in like a middle-schooler and lie there awake for god knows how long#knowing I could be basking in the freedom and solitude I love but nooooo I have to miss out for reasons I don't care about#always reblog#never not reblog#this#accurate