For all things will kill you, both slowly and fastly, but it's much better to be killed by a lover.

-Charles Bukowski, Falsely Yours

...and although I suffer for you, I find that even suffering for you is easy.

-Fyodor Dostoevsky, Poor People

-Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

I wish I could be normal about affection but my love language is merging souls😮‍💨

When Charles Bukowski said,

"I loved you like a man loves a woman he never touches, only writes to, keep little photographs of."

(Love is a dog from Hell)

AND

"I want so much that is not here. And I do not know where to go."

I am headcanoning the two quotes being related to the concept of purest, innocent love; that 'keeping your love's polaroid photos with you everywhere you go' type of love, 'having eyes only for that one person who makes you weak in the knees' type of love, 'no one else catches your attention anymore' type of love, 'writing letters and poetry for them just because they exist' type of love and a whole lot of other sweet gestures that show how much you love them...but all that is not to be found here, not in these times and it makes me feel like I require so much that no one can offer and I do not know where to go and find it...I need me a Bukowski 🩵🥹

"all sins are attempts to fill voids"

,,,But I do love thee; and when I love thee not

Chaos is come again-

People using others to feel good about themselves then wonder why they're constantly having identity crisis when people leave them.

you're not even your own person and you're trying to join your life with someone...how selfish can you really be???

𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅.

~ Aurora Raine

He said 'ily' but Dostoevsky said ,

"...she tortures me, tortures me with her love... In the past it was only that infernal body of hers that tortured me, but now I've taken all her soul into my soul and through her I've become a man."

'I should have been more kind'

That is something a person will never regret. You will never say to yourself, when you are old, "Ah , I wish I was never good to that person ." You will never think that.

"You are a wonderful creation.

You know more than you think you know, just as you know less than you want to know."

( now I'm even losing my name- it was getting shorter and shorter all the time and is now: Yours)"

~ Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)

"Love her, love her, love her!

If she favours you, love her. If she wounds you, love her.

If she tears your heart to pieces – and as it gets older and stronger, it will tear deeper – love her, love her, love her!"

"I loved her against reason, against promise, against peace, against hope, against happiness, against all discouragement that could be."