in a shocking turn of events I do so much better playing chess sober
#rev speaks#tw alcohol#chess and I have a relationship of I miss playing it#but I can't really play it when I think about it too much#because horrible nasty no good memories#but like I want to play well which I know I can do#but also associating brain with chess causes flashbacks#but ahhh I want to play it and do it right#anyways it's a damn circle