I've been pondering a question. A question that I'm asking myself but also as a teacher I see kids and teenagers asking me this in the future.
If God loves me so very much and His love is unconditional, how do I know?
Practically, I mean. How can I know that He really does love me so much, that He loves me unconditionally?
Taking my example, I cannot really know it through my experiences. I've been hurt badly, I've been bullied, I've been neglected, I've been abandoned, most of my family has died in the past 5 years, I'm severely impacted by all this, my health is really not good, those who I've asked for help have kicked me down harder and the people I've called my friends have 90% gone on with their lives without me even though I've tried almost every nice thing I could think of.
That is pretty devastating. There are of course very loving things that I've experienced and I don't mean to discredit any of this. Among other things, I love my boy cat very much, he was born last year. ❤🐈 He's the best boi and I wanted to adopt him so much and I'm so thankful that it was possible even though there was so much trouble at first.
Now anyways, this is a very beautiful experience and there are many, many experiences that are beyond awful. But my main point is that through our experiences we can get to know God and seek to understand His mystery but I don't think we can know His love for us this way. I don't think any of my experiences make me feel or understand if He really truly loves me with all His heart. Does anybody have a thought about this? Is there a cool medieval scholar that has already pondered this question 8 centuries ago? 😯🤔😉
I'm really asking myself and God these questions and I know that when I'm able to teach as I want to, I will have lovely kids coming up to me with questions like these and I'm trying to find ideas for answers. Through worldly things, I don't think we can really know our true identity, which is Gods infinite love for us. A very big thing to think about. 🙂🧚🏼♀️💜