⚜On the wings of the night amidst the stars ⚜

I went to a monastery today, it was quite beautiful. 🥰 I've been there when I was 13 years old and we went on a school trip with our class. There is an adventure camping right next to it and we slept in tipis back then and did some kayaking during the day. It was amazing even though I was not popular to put it mildly. But I had an amazing time walking around the monastery in the evening, that was magical. ❤

And today we went there again with my family and it's still lovely, I hope to visit it again when it's more quiet there, hopefully in May because nature is so especially beautiful around there, it's also right next to a river. 🥰💚🌱

Now I'm totally exhausted because I didn't sleep much last night and still I'm quite happy and my mind is full of ideas for 3 of my fanfictions and I have no strength to write it all. 🥴😪 So fun!!! 😅😂😁

Yesterday I started a new fanfiction and I'm so curious about that, it is set in the 'Harry Potter'-world but so far there are no characters from the books appearing, I'm not even sure if this is somewhere close to Hogwarts or not. I'm so into medieval music at the moment, Minnesang especially, this is all somehow working in favour of my story. I'm very curious where this will go and yes, why not have a 4th fanfiction to work on while the others are exasperatedly waiting to be continued. ;)

This is SOOOOOSOOOOOOO AMAZING!!! 😀😍😄

Everything about this video is perfect! 💜

And I don't know what it is but I break into tears seeing something like that. Just recently I went to a really cool Western Festival near my town and there you go up a hill to the entrance. There is a very old, VERY beautiful steam train that you have to take up that hill and back down if you want.

And I stood there, outside on the platform, the sooty smoke blowing around us and I felt like a sudden rooting of my feet and broke into tears. I was in my historically inspired linen clothes too and at that moment I powerfully felt that I was home. Finally, I was home and everything was how it was supposed to be. Given most of my interests I think it is possible that my soul has had a really connected life in the late 1800s and living in this modern age right now, I have never fully recovered from not being there anymore and everything feeling so un-home to me here. I took some pictures on that festival and when I get the photos (they're being developed currently), I may post some of them here, if you're interested. 😃😊😁

You know, this whole trial thing between Amber Heard and Johnny Depp is eventually a theater play, I am fully aware of this being a mass distraction and I'm aware of Mr. Depp's relations to very dark people and organisations. So I'm not sure what to really make of this whole trial and I also didn't believe in this "Johnny is so innocent uwu" commotion. This video of him smashing the cabinets for example wasn't particularly proving his immaculate character. They're both down a pretty bad path and I can only hope they will truly recover. Johnny maybe has better chances at that at the moment but we never know. We could pray for them.

But what today's examination (the small parts that I saw) showed is why I said I don't discredit Amber's feelings even though she is unbelievably vile. And a compulsive liar. Even such extreme pathologies have their root in early childhood abuse and I think that is clear at this point. It's just much, much harder to have empathy for her due to her actions. And that's okay, we don't have to excuse any of that. We don't even have to want to find empathy. I'm just saying that after all my experience and knowledge in terms of trauma dynamics, I am not surprised at all that there is a lot more to the story. It's just the unconscious and unfeeling way of trying to resolve said trauma that is a whole terrible, disgusting mess. May God's justice and mercy prevail always and may everyone find healing.

So, just a couple of thoughts from my side and experience. Social interactions and group behaviour and how it feels.