⚜On the wings of the night amidst the stars ⚜

Title: Your Pain Is Valid

Request: Hi! I love how you write about Snape❤️ I don’t know if requests are open but I was wondering if you could write a fic where the reader has awful period cramps and faints in the bathroom where Severus finds her and he is very worried because the reader never told him how bad the pain was so he gives her lots of cuddles. If you don’t feel like writing it, don’t worry❤️ p.s. sorry if there are grammatical errors but English is not my native tongue❤️ - Nonny (Anon Ask)

A/N: Thank you lovely Nonny for this request! I rather enjoyed writing this as I’ve been so ensnared with R&R lately - this was quite natural for me to write as I myself suffer from horrendous period cramps and fainting is not uncommon. *sigh on that* A topic that really should be more openly discussed; periods and period cramps that is. So again, thank you for requesting! ❤️

~This fic is split in both Your POV and Third POV for Severus!~

Setting: Spinner’s End, Mid June

Pairing: Snape x Girlfriend!Reader

ABBR.:│(y/n) - Your Name│ (y/l/n) - Your Last Name │

Word Count: 2974

Warnings: Period Pain/Blood, Fainting, Fluff, Angst, Cuddling, Swear Words

Masterlist page // Masterlist post // AO3 

You stumbled out of bed. Sweat soaked your skin and you shivered as another sharp pain shot through you, at its strongest in your belly only to radiate outward. It felt as if someone had taken a blunt knife and stabbed you repeatedly. You groaned as you hugged your aching stomach. Why now? He doesn’t-, fuck-! You hunched over and panted as the pain shot through you once more. 

Blood ran down your leg. Menstrual blood. As you had risen it felt as if it just flowed from you, like a damn river. Along with the sticky sweat as well, you were a total mess. I can’t, can’t let him see me like this, you thought as you walked towards the bathroom on the other side of the hall; you used all your strength to stay upright and not make any sound as you could hear him downstairs. 

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This is SO WELL written, I was completely amazed! 😍😊 It's not too cheesy, rather it is just so sensitive and in character and very gentle and comforting. Thank you so much for writing something so lovely that one can live in for a while and feel the kindness and gentleness and love in this situation. 🧡 You truly have a gift for writing and I'm glad that you were able to portray Snape so well, and the lady also. A wonderful gift, this little fanfiction, I wouldn't mind if there were ever another story like that, maybe on this topic or maybe another one from day to day life that could use some comfort and some Snape love. 😉😊

(By the way, it looked like you were German speaking also, is that true? I was just curious. 🙂)

my big point of getting "stuck" with the problem of suffering for a long time was how could God look at a kid (especially) and say, "these. these awful, traumatic, horrific things. I can work them for good. I can make them a part of salvation for you and others but they are. they are horrific. and you need to endure them." and I think my perspective on it now is a lot more like seeing parents driving their children to painful, lifesaving medical procedures or putting their knee back in when it's dislocated. "this is going to hurt and I can't explain it to you right now but I need you to trust me. I don't want it to hurt but I need you to look at me and breathe and I love you so so much." and they suffer too.

I really love how this was worded out and I have been thinking about it for the last couple of days too. I especially love the last sentence "And they suffer too." That is a much more healing way to see God, I think. I don't know why He doesn't show us that He suffers our pain too but I guess there are some good reasons. And I know, people may point to Jesus' suffering but that isn't entirely what I was trying to say.

Anyways, I've come to take to this way of thinking too because it is so much kinder to ourselves and our inner children too. We have been and are still getting mirrored terribly in our suffering oftentimes and I found it helps my relationship to God tremendously to see it more like you described here. Not to sink into victim-thinking, only to consider actual compassion. When I feel so sad about the state of the world, when, like lately, I feel so much pain about having come to the realization that my absolute favourite actors and storytellers are also part of the dark ideologies of this world, I eventually considered this. It's not just me who is grieving this. I remembered the song which goes "Break my heart for what breaks yours." Even though this sounds somewhat harsh, I still think it is true on some level. God's heart breaks too and even more so because He knows what is coming when we choose sin. He knows He can redeem it and there is hope but His heart breaks about it too. And it breaks for my pain in this too.

When I saw a few days ago what is being done to pigs in the industrial animal farming, I probably woke up the whole neighbourhood with the sound of my heart shattering. I obviously already knew a lot about it but that was a new level. And I remembered it breaks His heart too. I feel this because it breaks His heart too. We have the power to change things and we will with God's loving help. But in our grieving, He is not detached, His heart is crying too.

I'm sorry if that went a bit astray from your original post but it provoked quite a few thoughts in me and I also very much agree with the other part about the medical procedure. I have come to the conclusion that our salvation is really God's biggest wish and that's why He doesn't always spoil us with worldly pleasures because He genuinely cares about us not falling into lies but really coming back to the truth and to His love and to our real hearts. This is such a deep and soulful topic and it is also about not blocking God's love and compassion so much through our thinking.

You deserve to be looked at kindly.

Not just lustfully, not just like you could be useful to other people or like you could be nice to be around or like someone could gain something from you, no. You deserve to be looked at kindly because you exist. God didn't just think you could be useful or necessary for something, He specifically wanted you that's the only reason why He made you.

You deserve to be looked at kindly when you are angry and when you are sad, when you are happy and giddy in the middle of a tedious supermarket errand and when you are grumpy on a flowery summer day. You deserve to be looked at kindly because you are.

I know full well how hard this all is in day to day life and in day to day interactions between all kinds of people. But I'll hold onto that stream of light and believe that you and I deserve to be looked at with kindness always. Even when we mess up, even when we aren't making other people comfortable. God loves each and every one of us like we are His only child because each of us is just as precious. And He loves us all the same. 💗