Hey there, as a reminder and because I have to remind myself of that a lot too - God loves you exactly as you are. No ifs, no buts no nothing. He loves you exactly as you are with all the good things and all the bad things and He doesn't have to think twice about it, no matter what you do. I know this sounds very radical. Of course He doesn't want you to hurt yourself or others and He wants you to see the truth eventually but He is fine with what is. There is nothing about you that He doesn't love. The stuff that you think is bad about you, He loves fully. And the only thing we can do in this respect is come into alignment with His love, the truth. Because contrary to popular opinion, nothing gets genuinely better if you reject it or shame it or try to hate it away. A) it doesn't go anywhere, just out of sight and B) if you were also able to love the thing that is "bad" about you, the destructive behaviour of it would stop.
I know extremely well how impossible that can seem sometimes when you have something about you that seems unsalvageable and that other people dislike too. But the real healing comes when you love it as it is and don't love it "so it goes away". When you start loving it just the way it is, it stops going down in terrible patterns on its own. And it doesn't have to be the hugest step, just doing one thing that feels more loving than before is already doing so much. If you just have one action that is a little more loving towards that one aspect of yourself, that is enough to do it step by step. You don't have to find the big all encompassing solution to it all.
God has no resistance to you. I'm still trying to understand that but genuinely He loves every part of you exactly as you are and without needing it to change. It's not like He has to wake up in the morning and think really hard how He could love you now that you have done xyz. He created you, He loves you completely because you exist and even that is an understatement, His love doesn't even need a reason. But just when you find yourself judging yourself again for something in order to be "good", just notice and remember that God is able to love this and if you find love for it too, it comes back to the original peace and release. Best wishes and blessings to you all. 🙏🏼💚