Sometimes I am just so freaking, terribly tired.
I really, really, really love drinking milk. 🥛 And I buy the milk as raw milk from our local dairy farmer. I visited the place recently and saw the cows, they were munching lazily on their food. They looked clean and healthy, as far as I could tell from the outside. They seemed relaxed and like they were taken care of, no clumpy fur, no soiled legs, they were quite nice. I'm not an expert, so obviously I don't know but from what I could tell, things looked okay there and like people cared. Here is a picture of those gentle friends (there were many cows present in this area, about 10-15 I think) :
I love cows. I genuinely love them, they're so pretty and lovely and I like them, in so many ways. 🐄🐄😍☺️💞
Now I watched something about the process of milk production and yeah. The more detail you know, the more you scream. I'm sure the people where I've visited the farm are treating their animals as best as they know and I'm sure they are taking care of the cows and their calves with good intentions. But that certainly doesn't change the process.
I'm not going to triangulate against any inner parts now, so I won't burn the part that loves drinking milk for example in favour of the part that wants this practice of milk production to stop yesterday. We can't look away anymore, I know. I believe it is God's will that we feel. All aspects of this. And I hope I can find a solution in my little world too. I love cows so much and I love animals so much even though I know and I'm sorry I fail a lot.
I'm so thankful for milk and cheese. But I cannot say it doesn't rip me clean apart when I hear what is happening to the calves that the farmers don't keep and they are a lot. And I cannot and will not say that it isn't freaking heartbreaking to my core when I see how we tag those lovely animals in the ears with a number as if they weren't a person!!
Those are beautiful cows and they're so kind and so friendly and they're innocent. 🐄💜 God help me help, please. God bless and protect and hold in your merciful and everlasting love these beautiful animals. You made them absolutely perfect and beautiful. 🙏🏼💚 Amen.