daredevilgorl reblogged
eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.
no one needs to add “sounds fake but ok”, “no”, “well, not me”, “impossible”, etc. to this post. and i’d rather you not.
one day you think: I want to die.
and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book.
and I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun
I want a cleaner kitchen
I want a better job
I want to live somewhere else
I want to live
#♥️#recovery#listen… death is the only circumstance that’s fixed#next time you want to die remember you could do literally anything#like#you could get a credit card#take a one way flight to bali#and spend the rest of your life living in a little hut playing with turtles#there’s no rules#no boxes#everything is open#running away is always an option#and it’s always a better option than death