I think I did okay!

you know, there's not much worse than getting a crush on someone you don't know very well

The guy doesn't wear a wedding ring, so when this crush was developing, I thought he was single. Yeah...my man's been married for almost 30 years (there's also the issue of him being 20 years older than me. I have a problem, I know)

I hate moving so fucking much

I opted to go with a moving company since I’m moving alone and would have to make two trips (moving truck then personal vehicle) across multiple states.

They gave me a 4 day window when they could pick up my items (31 May - 3 June, and the guy I talked to said he would do his best to get a Friday pick up). I was told Friday, 31 May between 9 and noon. On Thursday (30 May) afternoon, I got a text (not a call) saying that they were still on track for pickup by 3 June. So I called to figure out what the fuck is going on. The driver got Covid. I can understand the last minute update if they’d just found out, but the professional thing to do is CALL the person getting fucked over.

I was then told the pick up would be Sunday (today) between 9 and noon. At 12:02 I called to see if something had changed. And I hear a woman in the background talking about how it’s only 12:02. Yeah, I’m gonna call as soon as your shitty workers miss the window I was given after you cancelled the afternoon before the first day. I get a call back after they figured out where the truck is. The new estimate for truck arrival was 3:30, because they got stuck in LA traffic (bro, you know LA traffic is a thing, leave earlier especially when it’s a 4.5 hour drive to get to me)

At around 3:30, the truck got here. They left their location at 9:30am, so there was zero chance of making it to me within the window I was given even if they didn’t hit LA traffic…

I planned on starting my drive tomorrow morning. But I can’t leave until I clean the house and given how late it’s going to be when the movers leave, idk if that plan is gonna happen

I accepted a tentative offer for a government job and had to fill out a bunch of forms. The system is so fucking stupid.

I have to fill out questionnaires and that information populates in the actual forms that need to be signed. Okay, that's all fine and dandy. However, if you realize there's an error, you can't unsign any of the documents to go back into the questionnaire to make your changes. I have to contact HR to have them send the form back which will unlock the questionnaire. There's also multiple forms that do not apply to me at all (one for retirees and one for claiming veteran's preference). I was told I need to sign the retiree one anyway - the instructions literally say "Use SF 813 only for persons who are retired from active military service."

And I've been emailing this lady back and forth and in 3 emails I said two forms need to be sent back so I can make an edit and it still took me calling her and explaining it AGAIN (literally twice on the call) for her to actually send the forms back so I could make the edit.

And this shit is preventing me from getting a final offer so I can make plans for moving and know that I actually have a fucking job.

So I've been looking for jobs and now I'm so stressed because I have one that already picked me as their candidate and I'm just waiting for the tentative offer, but now I have a second place that I just interviewed with that told me to expect an offer soon. The first is in New Mexico and the other is in Utah. Surprisingly, there's more to do in Utah than NM. However, the one in NM counts for public service loan forgiveness. So assuming that program still exists in 4 years, I'll have my loans forgiven and I'll no longer have to worry about it at all. The Utah job sounds mildly more interesting, and I'd have far less interaction with people I used to work with (both jobs are doing things related to my Air Force job, but one works directly with the units)

I feel like I'm letting one place down by picking the other or like leading them on. I realize that's stupid, and I should do what's best for me. But still...

The worst part is my boyfriend is here in California, and we're not quite at the point of moving in together. So we're gonna try long distance, but like who would choose to move away from their family and friends (and all the things to do in central coast/southern California) for someone they've known less than two years?

So I might be separating from the air force in November. The plan was to do ten years (I’m a little over 6) to get my student loans forgiven, but honestly, I just don’t know how much more I can deal with. Currently looking into other government jobs to still qualify for loan forgiveness.

It would be a huge change, and I really don’t know if I’m ready for it. But I truly, down to the cellular level, dislike my job and kinda the military as a whole.

So I decided to try out online dating for the first time (using Bumble). Things I’ve discovered are automatic left swipes:

So there’s a small chance that I’ll be able to live my childhood dream. I gave up on being an architect when I was applying for undergrad so very long ago. Then any time I looked at Master’s programs I didn’t qualify because my degree is in biology. Plus, I didn’t want to take on even more student loan debt. I recently found out that ASU has a 3 year program specifically for people like me without a background in architecture. I will admit, I looked at the tuition and fees and regretted applying and having hope that I could achieve this goal. And then I found out I got in and I cried because it felt like my dream was within my reach, but the astronomically high cost would likely stop me. It’s been a rollercoaster of emotions lately and it hasn’t been fun. Honestly, I was in a shitty mood all day. But I looked more into my GI bill benefits and if I understand it correctly, I might actually be able to afford to go. So maybe...

I’m really excited. My leave got approved so I can get my tattoo in 2 weeks. Was kinda worried it would get denied because of covid