@cyggiestardust / cyggiestardust.tumblr.com
There have been big changes. Truly, a great many of them. I’m actually so exhausted that I’m having a hard time doing this. I didn’t sleep properly for several days because of anxiety taking over my life, but it took over in the background, meaning that I didn’t know a damn thing about why I was stuck awake, trying to sleep but not being able to and instead spending an…if I’m being honest, kind…
Honestly?
I don't know when I'll be ready to talk about the majority of what has happened since the last time that any of you really saw me. It's not something that I'm proud of and honestly what it feels like in my body is that I just started combination venlafaxine and klonopin withdrawal at the same time.
hokay, so here’s the earth no let me get serious. I’ve been having a hard time the last couple of weeks. Mentally, and physically. It’d been a while since I last spoke to my therapist when I had my latest breakdown/through, and honestly I’m not entirely sure I’m completely OK right now. There is just….a fucking lot going on right now, you know? I’m having to retrain my body into doing things I…
Oh, BTW, the tags for my drawing activities are:
♥︎ Sketch A Day for the, well, sketch of that day, and
♥︎ Cyggie Attempts to Draw, because let's face it, this is me definitely making a valiant attempt 😅
(TL;DR for those who want just the meat and none of the heart-vomit: Beloved kitty gone from cancer and I’m not ok.)___We put my dear beloved kitty DP down today. He was 16.We realized he was in trouble when he abruptly stopped eating and started being cuddly with the entire house.After panicked searching, my partner found a vet that would do the job.He declined fast. The tumor they found was…
Kiki’s Epiphany Service
Another movie that it took me forever to see was Kiki’s Delivery Service, and I have to tell you, as a burnt out witch, this movie hits differently. It’s made me come to the conclusion that I do not need to be actively trying to end this burnout. It all comes back (or doesn’t) in its own time I also realized that I hadn’t been enjoying the writing, or the process, for a while. And the only thing…
So, as it turns out, I’m not dead.
It’s like 11 at night. I’m writing from my gaming rig, slightly stoned off …a lot of things, but mostly cannabis. There’s been nothing much new to report except that my doctor got me on a new pain medication, one that seems to be working far better than the last one did. Darling Prince, the cat, sits at my side with his head on my elbow. What an awkward place to be, kitten. I’m setting up…
