I Aim To Misbehave

It's late and I'm emotional but the repeated refrain about how Team RWBY should have just known Ruby was having a breakdown when she actively hid it from them reminds me of my own abuser. "Oh you should have known, you should have known, you should have just known, you're so stupid how did you not just know?" Never communication, never honesty. You should have known. You should be a fucking mind reader or you don't really love me. Every single time, I should have just known, or it was just proof I didn't really love them, because people who really love just know.

And I took that into the world. I hurt in silence because I got the idea that if people really loved me they would automatically know I was in pain. It nearly killed me because the only thing I knew how to do was try and suffer loudly enough for them to hear, because if I spoke up it was just proof they didn't really love me. So when Ruby shuts herself up and bottles it and pushes away the hands reaching out to her but expects it to keep coming anyway, I get that. I've been there. I have empathy for her and for the people around her who loved her and would have helped if she'd only told them she needed them, and I am grateful she ended this story learning that she needs to say it out loud when she needs help.

But my patience is thin when it comes to "If they really loved her they should have known." No, they shouldn't have. Love doesn't come with telepathy, and demanding something they can't provide will only spell heartache for yourself and the people who love you.

warrior

OMG THATS SO GOOD

A beautiful commission I did for Blueskyportrait on Twitter!

I enjoyed every single moment of drawing this piece! They deserved a hug SO MUCH! T.T

Sketch Commissions slots are available!

Hey... go read Reciprocity by @sigruned if you haven't already. It's phenomenal. bonus sketches under the cut

Man I had to take a minute before commenting on this, I'm honestly stunned. When you mentioned fanart in the fic comments I thought it would be some fun little sketches not this beautifully rendered piece.

The colors are absolutely delicious and I think you did a great job at capturing the emotion of the moment. Oscar is every bit the deer in headlights I was imagining, and I love Ruby's vice grip on his coat for lack of any other way to grapple with her Big Feelings™. This argument was one of the first parts of the story I came up with and I don't know that you could have picked a more fitting part to illustrate.

I can't thank you enough, this and the bonus sketches are such a treat. Are you ok with me linking back to this in the chapter notes?

thank you!! not gonna lie, I didn't think this would end up as more than a sketch either, but here we are aha. I was really moved by how you wrote the scene, so i'm glad I was able to capture the emotions well. and as for linking it, of course, feel free! 🤗💖💕

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“Can you imagine what that’s like? To be completely and utterly failed, time and again, by someone who meant the world to you?”

“How many more people are going to die, because of YOU?!”

“And yet with all your best intentions, have you ever stopped to wonder if you’ve done more harm than good?”

“HOW MANY MORE LIVES…DO YOU HAVE TO RUIN…BEFORE YOU REALIZE…YOU’RE NOT CUT OUT TO SAVE ANYONE?!”

“NO!!”

“…Ruby…”

JESS (◉⁠⌓⁠◉ )

Secret Santa artwork!

happy valentines day to the ship ever 🌹🌲💕

The Journey To Atlas

Is what I’d name this piece cuz… you know… snow and all

In RWBY weapons are a part of a person, an extension of yourself, as Ruby puts it in V1. So, a weapon can say a lot about a person in how it appears and what it's used for.

Looking at Crescent Rose compared to our other main characters' weapons and it's immediately one that stands out from the size alone, it immediately draws our attention, it usually takes up the screen.

Like Ruby, it's striking, awe inspiring and larger than life. It's beautiful, resilient and strong, but evolves to be more adaptable during the Atlas Arc, when Ruby herself has to be more flexible and think outside the box, and her worldview is consistently challenged. It's also very easily the most intricate and complicated design, by her own admission:

"I guess I did go a little overboard in designing it..."

Which, while on the surface means it looks cool and flashy, it's also incredibly complex, just like Ruby.

And as we know from V9, a weapon like that would also be a heavy one to carry at all times too, and it weighs on her. Just like being "Ruby Rose" means to shoulder all the responsibilities and entanglements that come with being who she is, a huntress, a leader, a hero, a spark of hope and light who inspires others. In the end her resolve as a huntress and in who she is, and her purpose, is renewed and stronger than ever before, and wields her weapon once more with confidence.

That doesn't mean her burdens have gotten any lighter though, in fact upon returning to Vacuo, because of her message, all of humanity is now looking to her. No matter how strong, confident and resolved she is, that's a heavy weight for one person to carry alone.

Which brings me to Oscar's weapon, the Long Memory. Which is a cane, smaller, simple and straightforward, but has it's own hidden light stored inside. A cane is meant to take someone's weight by design, that's it's purpose. To be something that's leant on as a crutch when you're hurting to alleviate the pain by taking the pressure off yourself, so moving forward is made easier. Because everyone needs that support sometimes and it's okay to be weak, it doesn't make you lesser, it just makes you human. And it is incredibly human for us to care for and lean on one another for support. That vulnerability leads to our greatest strength as humans.

The one who carries the heaviest weapon vs The one who has a weapon that can be leant on to take pressure off yourself. Ruby who carries a heavy burden and Oscar being someone that can be leant on for support. ooooooohhhh the cymbal ism of it all.

Rosegarden Wedding Night Commission!

Starting the new year off strong!

Now this is cool!

I love rosegarden because Oscar is so fairytale princess coded and Ruby is his knight in silver armor.

This makes sense since Oscar is based on an actual fairytale princess

All of my RWBY Trailer ‘Slices’ together!!

‘No. I’m angry…’

I am so PUMPED for her to go kick some ass!!!!

“I love you”

Inspired by one of @/kabo_cha0726′s art on Twitter, and by Rebirth from Ok Goodnight ♥