Forgiveness

Summary: Set in season 8, reader has not forgiven Sam for letting Lucifer free. When he comes around, old feelings come bubbling back up, leading Dean to step in. Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader, Sam Winchester Word Count: 2767 Warnings: Angst, pre-smut, mention of torture (non-graphic),  A/N: This has been at the top of my fic idea list for a long time, and finally creativity struck. Flashbacks are in italics and this was beta’d by the ever so lovely @queen-of-deans-booty and the gif was made by me. Any feedback would be appreciated! Enjoy!

Hunting was never easy. You could ask anyone in the business and they would tell you the same thing. Even though you were finally on your own with a normal job and your own home, having a library of rare lore books was something you couldn’t bring yourself to get rid of. All of the horrible things you went through three years ago made you give up hunting, but you always made yourself available to other hunters that needed some research.

Although the scars on your body had healed, you couldn’t bring yourself to return to hunting after Lucifer kept you as a prisoner when he was released. It was three months of nothing but physical and psychological torture. You remained strong for the first few weeks, but he broke you in ways that nobody should ever be subjected to.

You were let go after you stopped reacting to the torture… after your body and mind were broken to the point where you felt trapped in your own world full of anguish, fear, and blood. You were found by a hunter who was in the area responding to demon signs, and he took you in and helped you heal. You dropped off the map after that, only providing your number to a select number of hunters if they needed research help.