#eras – @cordeliaistheone on Tumblr

arcadiaego replied to your post:greenberetgirl replied to your post: Cut my life…

I think these days we have to adapt ourselves to the idea that we will not have THE job or THE house for a long while, but that’s ok.

Yeah I think this gif sums it up pretty perfectly

(eta: and to think I was initially going to just end this message there! you should be so lucky)

Marina is my queen ♥

cordeliaistheone

arcadiaego:

I’ve got to say, I’m not that into Marina and the Diamonds to be honest, or at least not the latest album, but this is one of my favourite videos ever. I want to be her! (Or be with her. This reminds me of a convo my friend and I were having at the weekend where we were trying to work out if straight people have this problem…)

You are my.. royal adviser? One of them. Wait so I’m royalty too in this scenario? I was going to say you’re my princess but I’ve already sent you a Bend it Like Beckham gif with love-of-my-life undertones (a given for all gifs from that film) so I don’t want to be too full-on.

Lol, I could be your lady in waiting. I always thought that would be a cool job, as you would get to know all the gossip and everything without actually having to do any ruling. But then in historical dramas they always seem to end up getting their head chopped off or poisoned with dresses.

Wow, no you can call me princess any time. *eyebrow waggle*

Anyway thank you for reading and replying and caring etc.!

I feel like I may make some progress now with this mindset?

I hope so

I hope so too!

I was putting too much pressure on myself but maybe having a short term plan as well as remembering to take things one day at a time like greenberetgirl said I can get my life together

I think it’s really hard for our generation to live up to the standards of the one before, even under normal circumstances. Times now are harder economically and arguably existentially. (Well, I think so sometimes, anyway.) My mum keeps going on at me about houses but she really has no idea how expensive renting one would be, let alone a deposit on a mortgage. I am renting one room atm and that’s as much as I can cope with. But that’s OK, you know? All that matters is your own standards, you don’t have to live up to anyone else’s as long as you are moving at a pace you’re happy with. You don’t get brownie points for ticking off accomplishments as you go along.

I realise this is easy for me to say,but it’s because I’ve gone through all that disappointment of having to deal with being unemployed, living at home with my parents, living with a chronic illness and mental health problems. At school everyone always said I was so clever, and could do whatever I wanted. For a while it seemed like I had squandered my potential, but now I tell myself that the only judgement that matters is mine. I don’t need more money, or a partner, or kid, or house to feel happy, I need personal satisfaction from other things.

YES!! That is one of the best videos in all of ever! Lost count of the number of times I've watched it ♥

Shame you don't love Marina as much as I do! Though that would admittedly be hard!

I love her songs for their catchiness and her voice and the odd musicality but also I can relate to pretty much every single one of her lyrics and she says things most people wouldn't admit - it's so refreshing and comforting. She's so honest and doesn't take herself too seriously, which are some things I value most in people. I can really relate to her and I HUGELY appreciate that she doesn't just write "love songs" because pretty much EVERY song in the history of ever is about love, most films, books.. it's everywhere! I understand why this is but it's near impossible to find a film that doesn't have a love interest shoehorned in - if love isn't already the main order of the day. And you need to love and try to understand yourself before you can expect someone else to love and understand you, and that's not as covered a topic in mainstream films/music as it should be.

Like that Joseph Gordon-Levitt quote "He thinks she’ll give his life meaning because he doesn’t care about much else going on in his life. A lot of boys and girls think their lives will have meaning if they find a partner who wants nothing else in life but them. That’s not healthy. That’s falling in love with the idea of a person, not the actual person."

A while ago I was getting really frustrated that everyone was talking about love and relationships and I felt so alone. I needed to sort out my own mind and it felt like there was no-one out there willing to talk about that, to explore solving problems about yourself alone before you move onto problems with other people, or use them as a crutch.

“The answer is that you never, ever, rely on another person for your peace of mind. You have to learn to live with yourself. You have to learn to turn back your own sheets and set a table for one without feeling pathetic. You have to be strong and confident and pleased with yourself and never give the slightest impression that you can’t hack it without that certain someone. You have to fake the hell out of it.” - Armistead Maupin, More Tales of the City

Not the most uplifting quote but true. You need people, but you also have to learn to stand on your own two feet.

And Marina isn't afraid to talk about the pain and the weird stuff, worries. Her Electra Heart album is about relationships, but it's how you see yourself, how others see you, and so many other themes too, not just "love songs" like so many other people do.

I'm not saying she's the ONLY ONE who does this, but the majority of people definitely don't. And I'm not saying love songs and love is unimportant - of course not! But for me, and for people growing up and learning about the world and themselves, it's important for there to be focus on other things, not just ~relationships.

So there's a hopefully legible essay on why I love Marina so much.

Oh and yes I do get this!!

I get this with boys as well as girls! I'm generally straight but there is room in my life for a bit of this too

Wait a sec HAHAHA well Jesus Christ it's all coming out now - I have a massive crush on Eva Green and was looking for an alluring gif of her and the first one on the tracked tag was this so clearly I have to use it

But back to business!

And back to Simon Amstell! I just went and transcribed his stand-up for this! I am pretty tragic.

I did fall in love about five years ago. Fell in love. Five years ago. But with somebody I invented. Which isn't ideal. And he was based on somebody who existed, but because I had such low self-esteem I took every negative attribute I felt about myself, converted those into positive attributes, and projected those onto him - thus he would heal me, and complete me, in my life.

A lot of it is narcissism really. I've realised my type is me, but better. Which I think is okay, I just need to find somebody who wants himself, but much much worse.

I went to see him in this play that he was in and he was really vulnerable on stage, and I really like - vulnerability to me is quite sexually appealing. I don't know if you - like you know there are people who are more like "Well we know what we're doing, we've done it before, we'll do it again - everything's fine." To me it's much more sexy if someone's a bit more "Oh, I feel faint," you know? It's hot, right?

And I feel that way about men, being a girl (/woman. I don't feel comfortable calling myself a woman. I am but a child!). Because men and women aren't THAT different. We still have similarities we can relate to etc.

I am really inspired by my long-time love Andrew Garfield and in many ways aspire to be like him, but at the same time I want to go to there

Although I was realising recently that maybe we're actually too similar and maybe our hypothetical dream relationship wouldn't actually bring much to the table - see 'Hermit the Frog' - Marina strikes again! - and not to say he's like in that song, or to boast that I think I'm as great as him, because I think he's amazing.. but in lots of ways I feel I can relate to him and maybe we'd not really complement each other in a relationship because of this?

He said "Being with Emma was just as fun as swinging through buildings, because it felt like the same amount of exhilaration." and there's a quote I like from The Accidental Tourist by Anne Tyler: "I’m beginning to think that maybe it’s not just how much you love someone. Maybe what matters is who you are when you’re with them."

I mean, I can relate to Emma [Stone - his girlfriend - in case you're not in love with them like me] but I can see how she would complement him and I may not so much

I don't know

I don't ACTUALLY know either of them

But do we truly know anyone?

What do I know?

At the moment

I'M DONE HERE

Lol, I could be your lady in waiting.

I think it’s really hard for our generation to live up to the standards of the one before, even under normal circumstances. Times now are harder economically and arguably existentially.

Interesting! Something I'll think on.

(I ramble on about pointless stuff most of the time and when you actually give me something to work on I write 5 words. I will think on't though, promise! Just don't have anything to say right now!)

I don’t need more money, or a partner, or kid, or house to feel happy, I need personal satisfaction from other things.

I like this!

The mad, great staring eyes do nothing to affect the messages in these gifs.

I think I should leave now as it's 7am and I've akjdnjasdnGIJ'd enough for one day.