someone said before we started talking they thought “fuck, they’re so cool.” and they didn’t talk to me because i seemed intimidating. no i am not cool and unbothered i am just sad and lonely 😭
crying bc my partner told me to say 3 nice things about myself and i genuinely couldn’t think of anything
oops i overshared and made them uncomfortable because i need to feel seen on every aspect of my being. surely this won’t happen again
so crazy how part of me was sperm once. like damn why was i trying so hard to be a person this sucks
chat im chill now. was having a terrible time and remembered a box cutter in an art kit i had. it wasn’t sharp enough so i struggled to snap it because my hands were shaking too much :/ when i finally got it the bitch still wasn’t sharp enough???? so i gave up with that and grabbed a pencil sharpener but i couldnt get it open because the shavings fucking jammed it??? so i just went damn, this shit silly fr im tired laid down ate a snack and smelled some lavender.
anyways that was my loser moment today how’re yall doin?
why do i always believe that i have every thing figured out just to be disappointed when it falls apart?
so sick and tired of seeing “you still have to take responsibility for your actions!” under posts that arent saying that. im boutta. oooo im gonna
“why are you so upset?” idk man. maybe bc i have i get super upset disorder
Anonymous asked:
bro are we living the same LIFE. why the hell are you so relatable
im mentally ill
i think im getting better! :) [another event occurs]
why should i feel bad about feeling the way i do?
#istg if someone is like “oh your mental illness doesnt excuse your behavior” when the FUCK DID I SAY THAT????#anyways#i cant control how i feel but i can try to control how i act#bpd#actually bpd#actually borderline#bpd safe#bpd vent#bpd thoughts#bpd blog#borderline personality disorder#actually mentally ill#cluster b
what do you mean i have to keep going? what the fuck
yall i could be so much worse
it has been less than a month