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THEY DEHUMANIZE THEIR VICTIMS, WE HUMANIZE THE KILLERS. CREDITS: Icon: Ally Hills
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Hi! For the prompts, can you do one where they go to eden’s twilight and Neil gets roofied? Thanks!

this is… such a good prompt. not sure i took it where you were thinking, but…. here’s this 2k mess

i’m going to regret not proofreading this, but i’m tired and i don’t care

Andrew answers his phone in the bathroom of his New Mexico apartment. “Robin,” is his greeting to the base pumping in through the speaker. The Friday night call is unexpected and routine-interrupting. He’s getting ready for bed, not about to miss out on taking advantage of his weekend of sleep; Robin should be too busy celebrating the Foxes’ latest win to even think about calling him.

“I can’t find Neil,” she says, her panic audible over the intoxicated laughter of someone too close to the phone, rolling into Andrew and upending him.

“What the fuck do you mean, you can’t find Neil?” Four fucking words, and Andrew feels just as empty as he had when he’d been standing in the aftermath of a riot, holding a duffel bag in one hand and a scuffed-up racquet in the other.

Robin’s breath comes in thick and sticky against Andrew’s ear. He can smell the alcohol in the club, though he knows that none of it is on her breath – she’s like Neil; she doesn’t drink.

“I mean that he went to go get the next round for the table and now he’s gone.” There’s a push of noise and then the music is gone and it’s just a memory of laughter and shouting, catcalls and the infrequent patter of late-night traffic.

“He didn’t run,” Andrew says, because Robin would have only gone outside if she had been thinking that; she is intimately familiar with Neil’s story, the crossing of frequencies into her own. Andrew pushes the bathroom light switch down very precisely and paces out of the room. “Get back in the club. Talk to one of the bouncers and tell them what’s going on. If they give you shit, give them the phone and let me talk to them.”

The bedroom is dark, orange light leering only from a small lamp by the bed, and Andrew leaves it that way. He shifts the phone to speaker and sets it on the dresser, shoving his legs into jeans, swapping out his balding night shirt for armbands and something fresher. He’s not planning on leaving, but he wants to be ready. Neil probably just went to the bathroom and Robin is overreacting.

Or Andrew isn’t reacting enough.

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Yes anon-chan that fic needs to be written. In the books Andrew just drugs him and it's never mentioned again. Neil isn't mad, when they start dating they don't talk about it. I think Andrew said something about making sure Neil wasn't a threat to Kevin but honestly that's a big deal. I need closure lol

Well, neil was mad enough to try and kill aaron by throwing things twice in a row, he was understandably furious xD but yes, with everything that comes later neil doesn’t mention it again (and of course andrew doesn’t), and we only have nicky telling him that now that he’s part of the family, they’ll never push him further than he wants to go. which isn’t really an answer, but I think that neil doesn’t talk about it because he understands andrew’s reasons. he was victim of them himself, and of course understanding is not forgiving, but with everything that goes down in trk, with the story of tilda’s murder coming forth, it would have been pointless to try and get some answers. neil knows why andrew did it, and andrew sure as fuck doesn’t regret it, just like he doesn’t regret doing it with matt and renee* and who knows who else. I recall nora mentioning in her extra content (HERE) that for andrew the drugs are acceptable because they’re all taking them, making it a group activity thing more than putting only 1 member in a weaker position so others can take advantage of that. andrew would understandably keep away from that line, because he knows it all too well. but since they’re all on the same boat, and there’s a strong reason to do it, andrew is okay with it (see also meta HERE) so it’s evident that “why did you do it” is not the question neil would ask because he already knows it. I don’t think he’d try to get andrew to apologize for that because hahaha, c’mon let’s be serious. if he went for “yo you know that one time? yeah that was fucked up, wasn’t it” andrew would probably just answer (if at all) that the world is fucked up, cry me a river. but maybe that’s exactly why it would be so interesting getting andreil after months or years they’ve been together, talking about that moment, acknowledging it, legitimating that both are on the same page on the heaviness of it. I need closure too, dammit xD 

* she’s a bit of a special case because she wasn’t forced at all. actually mat wasn’t either. mat gave in, and renee knew what the drink had in them and accepted it, andrew didn’t try to hide it. so it’s actually in neil’s case that andrew went for tricking him into it. does it speak of how threatened he was feeling for kevin and his own promise? food for thought. [let’s keep in mind that andrew doesn’t know that nicky attacked neil, so we can’t count that against him] 

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Anonymous asked:

Dearest Etra and your lovely followers: I would like to know if anyone has ever read/written a fic in which Neil and Andrew discuss Andrew's drugging of Neil at the club the first night out? I've never seen one but if anyone knows of one or has written would would they please point me to it? I think I'd be interesting to see how this conversation would go hypothetically. Thank u so much lovelies! ♥️

I want to know if there’s a fic too! and if it hasn’t been made, consider this a prompt! o__o 

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what are the track lines matt has?

reading son nefes part 2 rn and did Renee used to do drugs?

1) they’re a result of repetitive and blunt use of drug injections. “The darkening of the veins due to scarring and toxin buildup produce tracks along the length of the veins and are known as track marks.” (x

2) yes, she did 

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Etra, what's the "official" description of Matt?

“Nicky was almost six feet and Kevin was an inch or two taller, but this man looked halfway to seven. Part of the illusion Neil blamed on his black hair, which he’d gelled up in short spikes around his skull. The hairstyle was also what kept Neil from recognizing him immediately, as the man hadn’t sported such a brazen look last year. [...]Matt’s short sleeves did nothing to hide the faded but obvious track marks on both arms.”also from the extra content “The first time the girls saw Matt shirtless, it was distraction enough to forget their conversation. All of the men on the team were built, thanks to the strenuous workouts they had every day, but Matt had the body of someone who was devoted to his fitness routine. He was endless hard edges and muscle, an eight-pack and perfect pecs, with not a single ounce of fat visible on his frame.”[[on that note, I feel like we often forget about Matt’s background story]]  

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So I was re-reading when Wymack recruits the monster and when Wymack say he can't get him off his drugs and Andrew responds with not for another two years does that mean if drake didn't happen he would off been off them at the end of his second year?

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yes. in tfc we read 

“Andrew would spend some time in intensive therapy, attend weekly counseling, and take medication. After three years of this they’d let him off his medication long enough to assess his progress.” so yes, he was supposed to come off them anyway in 2 years, when they would check how well the three years had gone. but we also read from the scene where kevin tried to recruit him for the ravens

"Tell me it's the medicine. Tell me you'll be better than this if we take you off these drugs.""If you what?" Aaron asked, startled into speaking."Deaf and deluded," Andrew said, sounding delighted. "This isn't a ten-step program, you know. It's kind of a permanent thing.""Not if we don't want it to be," Kevin said. "We can overturn the ruling."

is he just brushing them off, or do we have reason to believe that andrew doesn’t think he’ll ever come off them? that at the end of the three years they’ll simply find an excuse to deem him too dangerous for himself and others? probably. yet, we also know that andrew’s agreement with kevin revolves all around his after-drugs state. maybe part of andrew thinks that he’ll never get off them, and the other part that even if he does, he won’t gain anything from it. 

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Seth/Aaron h.c.

+ they meet at a party, both of them are pretty high and messed up but they gravitate towards each other like dying stars. 

+They both just got into high school. Their young and dumb and searching for comfort in the bottom of pill bottles, whiskey and handjobs in the closet. 

+ Neither of their parents care where they are. They spend the weekend revolving around each other. On Monday they disentangle from each other on the couch, Aaron makes them pancakes leaving extra’s for the other passed out teens. They both make it to school on time. 

+And after that, they both seem to be at the same party at the same time. It’s like they are both clicked into the same frequency and now Aaron now the color of most pills like he knows Seth’s eyes. 

+They never talk at first. Seth chain smokes joints for most of the night with his girlfriend before inevitably being drawn to Aaron. They’re never sober when they hook up which is great because these fledgling feelings would burn in the light of day.

+ in the space between orgasms and sleep they talk. Aaron can’t remember ever actually talking to someone and it being the whole truth. They lay back to back sharing body heat most nights. Something in spare bedrooms sometimes smashed into garden tubs sticky with beer. 

+ One night when Aaron goes to sleep Seth programs his number in Aarons cell. Add’s Aarons number to his phone too. This is the first time he kisses Aaron. Small and light on the cheek like a secret. 

+ It breaks from being casual and they both know this when Aaron calls panicking tripping on shrooms asking Seth to pick him up from the park. Tilda had dosed him before locking him in the closet, somehow he got out and then Seth was there picking him up all casually. 

+ Seth has to physically lift Aaron into his car because his limbs aren’t of much use at the moment. They get back to Seth’s house where he sits with Aaron all night giving him water and ice packs and telling him fairy tales because they tried watching t.v. but that freak Aaron out too much. 

+ Aaron stays there for three days. He’s still a little sore about being dosed up. Tilda new there was a mandatory drug test and did it to get him kicked off the exy team. He still not ready to go home and Seth's parents have not come to knock on his door once in the whole three days. 

+ “They don’t care.” and Aaron wonders how that’s even possible. 

+ And somehow they both create hideouts in the each other. Running to one another’s arms or cars or homes. It takes a long time before they touch sober and an even longer time to admit that they aren’t just friends. 

+ Seth always patches Aaron up when he does something stupid and Aaron makes sure Seth eats. They build a foundation out of scavenged items and hid in their small fort away from the world. 

+ They both still have girlfriends and school and different lives but it doesn’t compare to the way they look at each other. like hope. 

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nah imma do this  @glowingforyou @still-waiting-for-godot - I’m still not sure if I want andreil to be childhood friends reunited, but BOY IS IT TEMPTING  - actually yes, let’s just do it because it’s a nice crossover  - cause PARALLELS  - max’s “I will never abandon you, chloe” is the same as neil’s “I want to go back for you” because, guess what, max did abandon chloe and doesn’t want to be that person anymore, just as neil doesn’t want to look out only for himself after falling for andrew 

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“don’t look at me like that” 

- and I can’t fucking find a single gif of it now but you know ep1 when they’re in chloe’s truck and max gifts us with this incredibly gay stare at chloe while she drives with the sun behind her 

probably waxing poetry like neil was on the bus with the poetic sun hitting andrew’s poetic hair and eyelashes  - rooftop dates becoming lighthouse dates 

- you know that awful alternative universe max visits when she saves chloe’s dad? and you remember andrew’s disease in the earlier drafts? yeah me too haha ha.  - significant gifs (phone) (camera) - you know how lots of people start reading tfc expecting a sports book about an outsider finding his new family and positive feelings about working hard for your goals and other classic sports stuff, and then shit gets fucking dark all of a sudden and you’re like WTF? and you know how lots of people start playing lis expecting an aesthetic videogame with bi&lesbian characters with indie music in the background and then shit gets FUCKING DARK haha ha.  tw for tw: spoilers for LIS

tw for: death, kidnapping, needles, drugs, suicide, bullying, goddamn murder and creepy sexual vibes from adult figure in power position toward 18-19yo people tw for video: all the above, gore (referring to a picture on the wall)

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Life doesn’t make much sense these day’s (Nsfw Aaron/Seth)

A/N: before you consider this too ooc please see Norah’s extra content and the notes at the end. 

Aaron presses himself against the painting like he’s trying to become a part of it or maybe he’s just trying to keep himself up. It’s both if he’s honest. 

The velvet floral piece with short brushstrokes of peonies whicks his tears. He’s crying because the painting is so beautiful it causes his heart to ache. He’s crying because of the hit of ecstasy he took. And he’s crying because the painter put such love into those flowers and Aaron wishes someone could paint love into him instead of bruises.

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coldsaturn

slowly filling the fandom with every type of (good) content. yes. 

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