maybe idly thinking "maybe i should kill myself" approximately once every 20 minutes and then just waving it off qualifies as "thoughts of suicide" but for the purposes of filling out these online waivers from my college no they dont<3
if you don't really want to do it and are in no danger of doing it those are "upsetting intrusive thoughts" and not "suicidal ideation".
incidentally, you are also celiac and this happens to me when I eat gluten...have you eaten any food you didn't cook today?
oh trust me i know what an upsetting intrusive thuoght is and this doesn't qualify at all, it's an idle thought in the exact sense that "idle thought" describes. like "oh, the sky is blue" or "maybe i should pick up groceries"
now that you mention it though i HAVE been eating more food i haven't made myself recently. maybe i should check and see if any of the usual foods i consider safe at the campus grocery store have changed their formulas
okay if I have thoughts like that and they're not even upsetting, they just don't go away, that is always 100% gluten mediated.