i'm by myself in a big city at a conference that isn't in my main field but is tangentially related and i barely know anyone and there are thousands of people and trump won the fucking election and i'm eating really good cuban tapas and not tasting them and everything feels fake and hard and i just want softness and i am so incredibly lonely
#send me an ask? a kind word? a question about fic or life or anything?#i feel like i'm crumbling#i wish i felt like creating anything or honestly doing anything at all#the ennui is real folks#me: you have so much free time to write fic!!#also me: puts on chappell roan and lies in bed listlessly staring at the wall