hello! being too lazy to actually look for the exact post, send me a link of my post and I can try to figure it out :)

I miss it too! I'm doing pretty well these days overall, but this anon made me really nostalgic for some reason and reminded me how freaking long it's been since I was truly active. I wish I could dedicate more time to footie but I'm mostly really busy with work or my girlfriend so I haven't been watching too much. I think I've caught maybe 10 games total live in the past 2 years? Isn't that sad? But I miss this blog and Messi and talking about Messi (like whatever the hell that was that went down last month, I mean dear sweet Jesus what in the actual heck was that) and the Messi family. I do broadly keep up, but not in the way I used to which just big fat sucks. In one way, it helps though, because the losses don't hurt the way they used to. They don't make me feel drained and hollow and genuinely upset for long long periods like they used to. Also I def don't miss the drama of the football world lol. 

But anyway! I always keep hoping that one day I'll come back to footie as a superfan the way I used to, but it just doesn't feel possible anymore. My personal and professional life exploded in a way that I couldn't foresee two years ago (coincidentally around the time my blog got suspended by Tumblr lol). I had one of the worst years of my life personally last year and there are things that happened that I haven't discussed with a single living soul to this day. I fell into terrible depression and only got out of it with medical help (antidepressants are miraculous). I'm saying this openly because mental health awareness is awful and I firmly believe it’s openness that will help get rid of the stigma. I'm a trained medical professional and I didn't even recognize the signs of depression in myself until I was almost felled by it. 

I'm much better now, professionally and personally. I still struggle and have shitty days and shitty hours but it's not even comparable to last year. So I consider that a huge achievement. I realize this is probably not the answer you expected or wanted lol but it's 4:01 a.m. and I'm on the night shift and bleary eyed with exhaustion and I'm feeling honest. Thanks for asking, anon! I hope you're good too and still enjoying Messi's booty d'or <3