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Anonymous asked:

Would you be open to a long distance relationship?

I was in multiple long distance relationships. With distance ranging from a different city to another country. And it is hard but I guess I would be open to it again if I loved someone. I am a romantic. Edit: i have to add I would probably not be open to Any relationship right now in my life. Focused on first finding a job / source of income / focused on fighting my anxiety and depression

certainwoman

I am quite ambivalent on the model of mental illnesses being recognised as disabilities. Because depression and anxiety disorders are quite dependant on outside economic and societal forces and other sources of marginalization and as a short i say I am mentally ill even while I know stable employment, community involvement, strong support systems would make me far more functional if not even make me not rely on meds. At the same time for bureaucratic purposes, having disability status may mean in certain countries that acquiring financial support, accomodations etcetera is possible for us. Not in my country though.

certainwoman

I can still succeed (even though i am 31 and unemployed and mentally ill)

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My mom is telling me to start writing articles on social issues here or elsewhere

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And no if I had to do it all over again I would study sociology again because frankly I love it and I do not learn from my mistakes and think we are bound to have a revolution

certainwoman

Is anybody listening?

certainwoman

I was quite idealistic in my approach to education which is why I got a master’s degree in humanities / social studies. I really did not consider the difficulties in finding employment as something that will happen specifically to me. Also I did not count on university classes contributing to my overall anxiety and self-doubt. At this point, I am quite jaded and would really tell any working class person not to do what I had done (and get a master’s degree that isn’t exactly sought after) and I feel simultaneously awful about this bitterness I acquired within time. I think education overall is wonderful and I wish everyone got to experience gaining knowledge in a field of your choice. However, I do not wish the poverty, disappointment and humiliation that comes after. It is ridiculous to say that I wish I hadn’t followed my dreams.

It isn’t exactly that following my dreams got me to a worse state than I was prior to graduating. It is the fake job listings, the networking, the issues that come with living in a geographically remote area, the humiliation of being a certain age and living with my parents, the feeling that I could have and should have be the one helping my mother who is going through menopause and is in pain. It is also the horrible professors I encountered at university who made me feel afraid of writing, it is the bad relationship I was in that made me feel the smallest that I had ever felt. I am trying to maintain hope. It has been a year and one month of unemployment-post-graduation. Of arguments with my mother. Of job interviews that made me feel hopeful but ultimately did not amount to anything. I tried to seek therapy but all I got was an increase in my medicine dosage. I tried to apply to jobs below my educational level and I got the “overqualified” remarks. I got in contact with people who claimed to be able to help me but it turned out they just wanted the attention. Everything sucks and I feel like I am just drowning. I am supposed to be grateful for my physical health, for having family that did not kick me out, for things not being even worse. I am not living but just merely surviving. How to feel grateful in such a state? If I did not have hope, I would die but how to maintain hope in the face of constant disappointment?

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mohammedswaierh asked:

Hi 👋, My name is Mohammad, and I’m reaching out in a moment of desperate need. I’m a father of three young children living in Gaza, and we are caught in the midst of a catastrophic war. Our home is no longer a safe haven, and the future here seems increasingly uncertain. 💔

I’ve launched a fundraising campaign with the goal of raising $40,000 to relocate my family to a safer place where my children can grow up in peace and have a chance at a brighter future.

Unfortunately, my previous fundraising efforts were abruptly halted when my account was terminated without explanation. However, I remain determined to keep fighting for my family’s safety and well-being. 🫶

If you could take a moment to read our story, consider donating, or simply share our campaign with others, it would make an incredible difference. Every act of kindness, no matter how small, brings us one step closer to safety and a new beginning. 🙏

Thank you for your time, compassion, and support. ❤️‍🩹

https://gofund.me/fd1faea2 🔗

Unvetted but will share in case it is legit.

certainwoman

I have no idea how i should be pronouncing the phoneme /r/ in german? Uvular seems to be the most popular variant which is a bit unfamiliar for me being fluent in only croatian and english. But i am trying.