Me: I wrote Helaena getting chased into a storm by Vhagar where she ultimately got knocked into the ocean by a wave and fell off her dragon. It’s meant to be a traumatic event that completely alters the course of her life. She spends a month at sea trying not to die. She’s in a state of dehydration and experiences hallucinations. You know what I didn’t do? Have her have one (1) nightmare or hallucination about aemond and vhagar. THEYRE THE ENTIRE REASON SHES STUCK AT SEA! I wrote TWENTY NINE CHAPTERS! Not one nightmare about it! How did I miss that?!? Why did I not think about it? I spent so long writing and editing that section!
The priest listening to me in confession:
“My child none of this is a sin.”
#if I ever go back and edit I’ll have to thrown in the scene#I think my logic at the time was I wanted most of the chapters as short as possible to reflect her weakened state#and how she wasn’t really thinking#just existing#writing#ao3#writers on tumblr#creative writing#writers#fanfiction#writeblr#fanfic#mine#hotd#hotd fanfic#house of the dragon fanfic#house of the dragon#into the eye#into the storm series#helaena targaryen