Cassidy Leora

Ahhhh this is sooo cute and I’ve been squealing all day you are ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE AH THANK YOU

I 100% understand your nervousness–I was exactly the same way! I (also got it in my head at a very young age that basically kissing = MARRIAGE, so it was a huge deal for me somehow in my mind, making it even worse!)

Of course, everyone’s experiences and personality is different, so take anything I say here with a grain of salt!

(If you’re a non-aspie/anxiety ridden mess this post will probably make ZERO sense heh. Also to any potential interested future partners LOL SORRY RETHINK YOUR ATTRACTION I’M WEIRD)

To answer your question, I HAVE had my ‘first kiss’, and it was with someone I’d been in a relationship with for like 4/5 years.

I think, at least for me, that was the key point–I would have NEVER, and still wouldn’t, kiss just anyone. I only got myself to do it because I trusted this person and had considered them my best friend since I was like 10. I may be a special case, or you may be the same way, but I would never even THINK about choosing to even hug someone I didn’t trust with my life.

Given that, it was still such a scary thing for me. I hate touching of any kind, I’m ridiculously awkward, blush too much, make everything weird. That’s just me, so as much as I wished I could have been that smooth girl that knew exactly what she was doing, I most certainly wasn’t! I don’t think anyone is, at least not at first.

‘kissing’ was something that has ALWAYS made me nervous; in theory, it was romantic, but in reality I would much rather stick to awkward head patting, or, better yet, just snuggling my cat *>uso that’s a whole other confusing story.

 If this other person you have a crush on understands and respects you or, better yet, if they have Aspergers as well, than I really wouldn’t worry at all! Most likely they can relate!

The person that I kissed didn’t necessarily understand my Aspie-ness, nor my low tolerance for touching, but that wasn’t anyone’s fault. I didn’t, (and still don’t,) fully understand it myself, it’s just how it is. But I DID lay it all out on the table–my feelings, how it made me nervous, how I’d never kissed anyone before–honesty is key. The other person might be just as nervous as you are!

I think it’s completely normal to have a little anxiety for things like this, and it’s NOT a bad thing! Don’t feel aggravated if you’re not sure of yourself, and are still learning!

I, for instance, handle these sorts of things so badly that when I finally got myself to stop hiding in my hands and KISS said person, I literally fell over.

Yes… I’m one suave spoon…

I mean, it was like a stumble, and obviously he steadied me, and after that I changed the topic as quickly as I could and fled the scene casually. (I also wasn’t particularly ‘ready’ and wanting to do this at that stage in my life, so I may have behaved differently given the right person/a little later in my life/ect *nervous laughter and choking*)

This is just how it was for me, so you may be ENTIRELY different! Don’t let my own clumsiness scare you away #OwO# You should, overall, learn to turn those nerves into excitement, especially if you really care for this person! You may find that you really enjoy it! You never know unless you try!

Sadly, I can’t tell you a lot, considering I’ve only been in ONE relationship in my life, kissed the one person, and even that was just like how you’d kiss a cute animal and NOTHING more.

I can’t say I personally “enjoy” it from this little past experience. It depends entirely on the person, and I can guarantee the person to manage to get me to LIKE kissing will be a special Bear indeed, and take a LONG time to earn that level of trust and comfort. (Probably why I’ll end up forever alone orz)

Am I oversharing? I may be oversharing. Oh well. 

I REALLY loved to get this question–ANYTHING to help out a fellow Aspie-Cat!

This is honestly such a mess, I’m so sorry, but I hope maybe I helped in some way? Honestly message me again if not or if you need anything else at all! I enjoy rambling oops ^u^*

(and to any other followed reading this I’m SORRY you probably NEVER WANTED TO KNOW THIS MUCH ABOUT ME SORRYEEEEEHHHHH)

Ultimately, your nerves are normal. I would suggest maybe talking to the other person and explaining how you feel, if they don’t already know! But more importantly, try not to overthink it! I know this is what holds me back most in every area of my life, but try to stop thinking so much, especially if those thoughts turn negative!

Now that I’m not 7 and afraid of literally everything anymore (i mean i still am lbr), I understand more that having a first kiss isn’t some sacred seal that MUST BE SAVED UNTIL THE PERFECT MOMENT. It’s going to be awkward and silly and it’s always a good idea to laugh at yourself! Try to stay positive about it, and go at your own pace!

I hope this was even a bit helpful! I wish you the best of luck with your cute love journey *GIANT HUGS*