finally i can post one of the story i’m working on, this was the one i’ve promised to @letitrainathousandflames.

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“It had been a massacre. Inside you, still, vivid all the images of the things you had seen, dead men, clones and allies, destroyed cities and a lost planet. You knew well how protective and loyal they were to each other and how they had been constantly treated so far, so you decided to spare them the details, it was probably one of the bloodiest battles you had been involved in.

- It's just that... things like this make me angry, I hate being trapped here doing the same thing every day. I... we want to do more, we belong on the battlefield, we should all be out there fighting, I should be out there fighting and protecting... you - he said, his tone fierce yet sad at the same time.

You knew too well how stubborn and passionate he could be, but somehow thinking of him safe on Kamino helped ease your constant fear.

- Hey, I can protect myself very well, thank you! And you...you’re probably safer out there than we are - you answered, trying to brighten the mood.

- But that's the point, we were born as soldiers, it's our duty, my duty... - he added vehemently.

- Anyway, the work you're doing is crucial, training new soldiers are your speciality, we spoke about that already... - you told him, hoping to calm him down - everyone has a role in this gigantic mess, yours is to set an example... -

- Not much of an example with yesterday's stunt... - he added  - sure the others won't let me forget about it anytime soon, huh?-  now with a hint of a smile...

- Nobody's perfect, not even you... - you answered him with a hint of sarcasm...”

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i’m tired, i need sleep and probably there is still some errors...but overall i’m happy with the result..so enjoy Commander Colt being a total sap

i had to express my pain....just after the last episode.

*please excuse the errors, it was written while crying...

Victory and Death

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(don’t read it if you haven’t see the finale)

so i decided to give a snippet of the story i’m writing since it 's getting bigger and i’m splitting it in two parts ..

this is the real thing, inspired by @letitrainathousandflames​​ clone smut series about Commander Colt.

I'm writing this, a sort of sequel..or spin-off or whatever you wanna call it and making it a sort of soulmate au.

if you haven’t read her works go and do it, right now, HERE

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hope you like this part as much as me (part 2 is already in the making) the rest will be posted, hopefully, on May 4th on Ao3 as a gift...

(the second mood board i made)

Title: All or Nothing.

Little snippet:

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While laying on the bed, still dressed, you turned on the communicator next to you to find out that you had missed not one but two messages, you were really hoping he wasn't upset with you for missing his calls since you knew how important they were..

Making yourself more comfortable while opening the first recording...a faded blue light appeared in your room and a familiar figure showed up.

He was still wearing his armor, probably calling you was the first thing he did after he came back to his dorm.

- you're probably still working, so that's why you're not picking up, obviously, she's working... idiot…-

You saw him exhale, walking around the room a little bit, he was much more weary than usual, and he seemed... lost, and that alone made you worry.

-I just...I wanted to see you, hear from you, that's all, but I understand you're probably busier after what happened the other day, am I being too clingy? Oh hells... I am, I'm so sorry. It's just that after you left... I... I started dreaming and that, love, has never happened to me. At first, I was completely confused, I used to have nightmares once in a while, but then I began to understand, you have started out something that I can't explain and that is beyond my genetics, I want things now, I have desires... I even began to get jealous, you figure - he stopped, sitting down on the floor with his head in his hands.

-...that's why I'll make everything in my power to meet you again, to have more than one day alone together with you, that i can promise to you and to myself...this might have started out as something purely physical but i' m afraid i have feelings for you, trust me, it wasn't just a one-time thing...at least for me - now looking in front of him as if he was looking directly at you...and your breath hitched for a moment.

oh, how beautiful he is…

- i hope you don't regret anything we did or said - he added.

-...I really want to see you but, right now, I'm here rambling on the floor - he chuckled, a beautiful looped smile on his face now.

gosh, his smile..you didn’t remember it so stunning.. 

- how stupid am I looking? Completely off the charts... - he stopped... thinking about something, but then just added -... please, as soon as you see this answer me back, will you? Good night…-

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Hope this isn’t so bad, i know i promised a full fic but with my last check i wanted to change few things so i wasn’t so sure about posting it in full..

thank you for making me fall in love with Colt.. 

.Live like Legends.

On this fine day, i bring to you an idea that haunted me ever since i saw THAT new picture of Oscar Isaac in Dune.

I already said that it gave me old General Dameron vibes mixed with the Clone Army and so, i gave in and did something.

(ndr. i fully respect his role in Dune remake as much as i respect his work in Star Wars, this was my idea of an original au)

(also timelines of the event may be not so precise, it is an au after all) 

(english is not my native language, but i did a check as best as i could)

reblogs & comments are welcome.

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Summary: General Poe Dameron is about to fight the New Order alongside old and new friends. Friends he knew all his life and admired for their courage and bravery. Friends that once were made for one purpose only but they were, in the end, more human than humans themselves.

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 Everyone knew what order 66 was and what happened back then. A Legion, probably smarter than most, was able to remove their inhibitor chip before all went downhill. They were the ones that believed to their brothers who died for them, the least they could do was freeing themselves from this mess.

Things became tough for everyone after the establishment of the Empire, most of them went hiding and changed their names, covering up what and who they were once. But rumours were moving fast through the galaxy and this newborn rebellion was what made them join again the battle without hesitation, sure that it was the right thing to do in those dark times and the best way to honour those brothers that fell in the great war.

So we trying...

This is something i'm working since December, on and off...making many changes to it and being unsure on when i should post it. I almost decided to not post it at all but then something changed.

This is not a drabble, more like a stream of thoughts from the His side, this song is so dear to me and my own interpretation was of a secret love, a true one and at the same time something that ended too soon and shouldn't have existed.

This is about One Year Of Love, and my first post for Valentine's day

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-Just one year of love

Fate isn’t always kind as you can see, you would only lose while fight against it, maybe it wasn’t meant to be, our lives so different and miles apart from each other.

-Is better than a lifetime alone

Everything happened so fast and everything was suddenly gone. 

So strange and yet so sweet and i, i was only a fool.

I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life, every single one had to happen to make sure i was right here with you.

I can't recall when or where but here we are now, longing for something so easy and yet so distant.

I still want you but my desires are worthless now.

I have no choice, and it hurts me deep inside. You’re in every beat of my heart, you’re in the air i breathe and without you, I don’t how to live anymore.

There are no happy endings, not for us, but endings are the saddest part of it all.

My feelings were pure. I just wanted to lose myself in you, seeing how far this would have taken me. I still can feel you in my arms like you were used to be, your scent burned deep down in my soul and your image still in my mind, perfect as always.

You are the blood in my veins and I don't think i can go on without you

You are my smile and now the world seems so cold.

Because you’re all i need.

You’re everything, everything i ever wanted. 

-My hand reaches for to your hand, I'm cold but you light the fire in me

I'm lost, but now you can't help me, my love please.

The only time I’ve really felt love was the only time i got hurt.

I’m longing for you, to see you one last time, to see your smile, to kiss you and hug you so tight and never let you go, be brave for you but i can't.

You became my life so fast and you always will be, no matter what.

-And no one ever told me that love would hurt so much.

You’re still the strength that keeps me going, you are my hope.

I love you and no one will change that even if our forever is gone, just remember that my heart belongs to you.

You’re the one who showed me what i needed the most, the one who really cared about me, the one who was there every time and the one whom I never lied to.

You knew everything about me and yet i hurt you the most.

Our beautiful secret isn’t a secret anymore but don’t care if my life is a mess because of it, it was worth it, every moment, every laugh, every tear, everything.

All the time I’ve spent with you, the most important person i've ever had, the only one i had to leave, it was worth it all. 

So tell me, love, i’m here and i’m listening. I won’t go away this time, so take your sweet time with me, just for tonight i’m your humble servant and my only wish is to make you happy.

You don’t believe me, i know that, but this time just surrender and let yourself go, even if it's just for one night.

-I'm a prisoner of love inside you

I was alone all my life, i was alone amongst other people too, alone with no one to trust to, never truly happy but then i saw you for the first time and i started to believe that everything was possible, that you could became my hope and so it was, i was completely sold.

Always remember what we were for each other even for a short time.

Even if destiny is against us, i’ll never let you go that easily and if you ever need me again you know that i'll always find you.

I will be always yours, my love. 

-And all I can do is surrender

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@binkyisonline @deakysgurl @painandpleasure86

(I know u will appreciate this)

This is something i need to get off my chest...so i made something

Enjoy...

If You Can't Beat Them...

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Habromania: delusions of happiness

Drapetomia: an overwhelming urge to run away

Ilunga: a person who will forgive anything, the first time, tolerate it the second time, but never the third.

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It has been love at first, but then popularity came through and everything was about to change forever and way too fast.

First it was the family, everything seemed so pitch perfect and lovely, something to aspire to, something so sweet it was almost fake.

Then it was the group, all the changes, and the first child, an accident, but he was loved nonetheless.

Tours then began, months away or sometimes a whole year or more, but it was always worthy the first times, and then the second child came, they quite didn't remember if he was an accident or anything else but they accepted it.

Albums, songs, press conferences, tours it all became a routine after that, always the same but at least in the end, he always came home.

Then something switched on again...soon after the third child, the husband was still lovely but he was away more than before, rarely coming back home or not at all, rarely calling in and when it all happened he was nervous and tired.

He began to travel more, by himself or with his friends, more parties came in and she was always left alone, by choice or not it didn't matter anymore, she was in fact alone with too much time in her hands and 4 children to manage.

She didn't see what she still called her husband in a year and a half, he was somewhere around the world, probably too busy with some other new interest to care.

The rarest times he was home they would always fight, and after that he was once more out the door to wherever he liked to go those days, doing whatever he loved to do.

She manage to keep calm, not for herself, but for what she considered her family still, for what she had left, their original love completely missing, her life lost. Regrets soon started to be her only company.

Then hard times came in, his former husband was lost. Depression came in, they tried, for a while all seemed normal again, two more children came into their family, maybe it was the right path…after all.

But then, unexpectedly she took another hit, this time the final one.

He was again on his old path, old habits kicked in again, but now more evident than before, now he was shameless and she can't take it anymore, that true love that once was, wasn't there anymore.

Everything now was just fake, the perfect image of a happy family just the perfect cover for the press, the perfect facade to sell themselves to the world.

Yes quite perfect indeed.

She wasn't angry, how could she. At this point she didn't blamed him anymore. It was pointless, but the image, the fake happiness had to stays on.

For their family or part of it and for the world to see..

A compromise.

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Note: another twist of a fairytale

@painandpleasure86 @binkyisonline @deakygurl @deakysgurl

So this is just a sneak peek for @ogrebattles since the second part of her secret santa gift is taking up my life 😅 (i want to write a drabble but the fic apparently has a life...and became a oneshot...hopefully) ...

So enjoy this first part...(just out of my draft, without betaing or anything)

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Brian x reader - friends to lovers - fake dating.

This was a really bad idea, like really really bad, but how can he say no to her when she was looking at him like this? This was bad but he was so in love.

The worst was that she was his best friend, the one that knows him better than himself, so why she never found out his true feelings? Because she didn’t feel the same and she cared too much to hurt him, probably. 

The day she asked him to help her they were in the library as usual, working together for the next exam. She was way too nervous that day and her mind was completely off.

-Are you ok? If you want to skip study maybe we….- he asked truthfully.

- No, Bri i'm ok, i just..- taken aback by his question.

- You know you can tell me everything, dove...i'm your bestfriend- he inquired more.

He wanted to call himself more, it hurts everytime to just be her friend, but he loved her too much that even the slightest thought of losing what they have was unbearable to him.

-I know...i just, i think i fucked up big time, this time- she confessed at last.

-What did you do? Should i be worried or have to punch someone in the face?- he worriedly said then, making her laugh.

That laugh, so beautiful and dreamy, a sound that haunt his dreams every damn night.

-No..no, it's not that bad but still..- she hesitated a bit.

-So you could tell me- encouraging her to speak.

She stared nowhere before speaking again.

-Ok, i'm so sorry..i told my family that we're dating and now they want to meet you, i'm sorry Bri, i shouldn't have...i - burying her face in her hands.

He was taken aback for a minute, not understanding what was happening.

-You...did what? Why?- he said -I swear i'm not mad at you, i just don't understand- still trying to process the informations she just told him.

-They were nagging me constantly about how much they want to meet you, they didn't believe we were just friends, bestfriends actually, so the other day, without thinking i told them they were right, hoping they would leave me alone…but.- 

She was truly sorry, her face said so. He could see that she regretted what she'd done.

-Ok...so now what? What do you want me to do?-

Oh, he will regret this, he will wholeheartedly regret all of this.

-Are you seriously helping me? Bri, you don't have to, i don't want to make you uncomfortable- she spoke again, facing him more.

-I want to, seriously, we're bestfriends and we had to help each other if needed- he answered proudly, cursing himself inside his head a second later.

-They want to meet you, that's all, one night only, tomorrow actually, but just one night no more…- she reassured him.

-I think i can manage, don't worry about me. So now, want to go to lunch? We could discuss the details then- he offered nonchalantly.

-You're the best, i love you…- jumping out her seat and hugged him tight.

And again his heart skipped a beat, he was aware that she intended as a friend, but still...his heart had a mind on its own.

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John Deacon:

Breakthru - a side story - part 1 part 2 (coming soon)

Invisible Man - Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 (coming soon)

drabbles

If you can’t beat them...

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Brian May:

- (coming soon)

ships:

drabbles

Joger week - photography

Froger week - circus - piercing

Deacury week - first christmas together

Breaky week - tease - some day, one day

Froger - braiding hairs on a sunny day aesthetic

Surrender - (Halloween special) + insp. aesthetic - (collab with @binkyisonline)

Unicorn au (@binkyisonline ‘s dtiys)

Touch my world with your fingertips - Chapter 1(sneak peek) Chapter 2 (coming soon) - (collab with @binkyisonline )

Secret santa 1 2019 - John enemies to loves/soulmates + moodboard - Brian friends lo lovers/fake dating(sneak peek)

Secret Santa 2 2019 - victorian vampire Brian soulmates au + young photographer John x nymph au

Somebody to Love event 2020 - Brian x reader - friends to lovers modern au - fic inspired story + moodboard

work in progress:

 I Want It All (Deazello) - collab with @binkyisonline

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Star Wars/Clone Wars

Believe - (clone trooper x jedi! reader)

war at hearts - good soldiers follow orders (clone trooper x reader)

live like legends - (general Poe Dameron x clone army au)

FOX:

mental abuse - (a Commander Fox drabble and aesthetic)

REX:

I lay down this armor - (a soft Rex drabble)

brother - (Rex & Cody hurt/comfort)

victory and death - (Rex after order 66/Clone wars finale inspired)

COLT:

all or nothing - (Commander Colt x Captain reader) on Ao3

FIVES:

Headcanon - (SFW & NSFW)

jealousy - (Fivesweek2020 last day entry)

When the hummingbird sing (inspired by @clonesandmoans​​)

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Clones Ships - Keeli - Dogma - Bly - Comet - Crosshair - Kix - Thorn - Hardcase - Cody - Fox - Waxer - Jesse -

LIFE IN THE 501ST - a series (mostly posted on Ao3)

how not to wake up first thing in the morning (sleepyhead Tup) - (or Tup’s morning routine)

how to find peace and have fun in between - (Hardcase sleep & morning routine) -

how to be a perfect soldier and fall apart in the process - (Dogma’s mind struggle)

how shore leave works and what involves - (just Fives, Jesse, Echo & Tup and the usual chaos) - coming soon

COLLIDE - Fives x officer!reader

Chapter ONE

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The first try...

- on Ao3 -

work in progress:

Wolffe x  civilian! reader - Fox x reader