A little birdie (Instagram) told me that today is @lizleeships‘ birthday, and so I wrote this quick little thing based on this piece of her art which I adore. Happy birthday!!
Research used to be Dean’s least favourite part of hunting.
The chase, the danger, the adrenaline of it all, that’s what he lived for. It was the moments when he was down in the thick of it, saving lives and fucking up monsters, that made it all worth it. Those were the parts made his blood sing, like that was what he was put on this earth to do.
Sifting through library archives and poring over newspaper cuttings or textbooks so old that they threatened to fall apart if he even looked at them wrong?
But he has to admit, research is much better with Cas around.
Firstly, back when he’d first come down to earth, the guy had been like a walking, talking encyclopaedia. If you asked him any question about just about anything, he knew the answer to it—unless, of course, it was something to do with the nuances of human interaction. In those cases, literally anyone would have better judgement than Cas.
But now that he’s got a lot more experience under his belt, researching with Cas is so much easier. He’s spent enough time with the Winchesters by now to know a lot more about the process, and working cases, and working people. He’s come so far from those first few hunts when he couldn’t even hold his badge the right way up.
He’s a valuable asset in and of himself, but when Dean finally bites the bullet and confesses just how he feels, the easy routine they’ve fallen into with research reaches a whole new level he’d never known could even exist. Because while previously they would sit opposite each other, pointing out things of interest and working as though they were on the same wavelength…
Now they work like two halves of a whole, knowing exactly what the other person needs or is looking for before they’ve even said anything. Dean doesn’t have enough fingers and toes to count the number of times Cas has shown up with exactly the right book, or pointed out a key piece of information right as Dean realizes what they’re missing.
It might have something to do with new motivation and the fact that Dean often kisses him with gratitude whenever any of these instances occur, but hey. Whatever works.
But the best part of research, believe it or not, is not the way they finish each other’s thoughts and build pieces of the overall picture so seamlessly that it’s almost like they’re sharing brain cells.
No, the best part of research is that Dean gets to be close to Cas.
He gets to sit side by side with Cas in libraries, or at the table in the bunker, their elbows brushing as they work. He gets to lean his head against Cas’s shoulder when he’s bored or tired, lets Cas calm him down with gentle touches when he’s pissed off, watches Cas with what Sam has teasingly dubbed ‘heart eyes’ whenever he thinks Cas isn’t looking.
The best nights of all are when they get burnt out with research, though. Technically, they have to keep going, due to the fact that their cases are often pretty time-sensitive, but that just means that a few textbooks accompany them to the couch while they put on whatever Netflix show they’ve decided to binge that week in order to take a break.
Tonight, they’re watching ‘Nailed It’. If Dean has to look at another word right now he might explode, and so the textbooks Castiel brought with them are mostly for Cas’s benefit, and not Dean’s. He, at least, is still looking through them, pencil tucked behind his ear and his side warm against Dean’s where they’re curled up together on the couch.
Dean is totally happy watching people fuck up watermelon carvings and horrifyingly complex cakes, and leaving Cas to keep plugging away at the research. From the way Cas snorts at some of the jokes and makes quietly horrified sounds when the creations are revealed, however, he is splitting his attention somewhat.
And that’s how their night goes.
For all that he’s tapped out on research for the night, Dean still offers his thoughts when Cas asks him, hooking his chin over his boyfriend’s shoulder to peer down at whatever section of ‘Halos and Hellos’ he’s looking through. As the night wears on, he finds his eyelids drooping more and more, his head dropping down against Cas’s. By the time he’s nodded off a few times, Cas seems to decide that that’s enough, turning off the TV.
“Get some rest, Dean,” he murmurs, twisting back to press a quick kiss to Dean’s cheek before returning to his book.
They shift until they’re a little more comfortable, Cas still leaning against Dean’s chest as he continues to read. Dean drifts in and out of consciousness, for the most part. He’s partially aware of the moment Cas seems to give up on research and just leans back against Dean, books falling forgotten into his lap and the little blanketed nest they’ve made themselves on the couch. For a little while, they just doze—or Dean does, anyway.
He’s in one of his semi-awake moments when he hears someone shuffle out of the kitchen.
“You adorable assholes aren’t getting out of research that easily,” Sam grumbles—mostly to himself, by the sound of it. It’s the kind of thing Dean might comment on, or reply snarkily to, were he not already quickly returning to the dream he’d been having just a few minutes ago.
Before he fully drifts off, though, he does hear Sam comment, slightly louder;
“You don’t even sleep, Cas!”
Dean feels more than hears Cas’s quiet chuckle, and a few seconds pass before Cas whispers, “Sshh.”
Dean snorts softly, then lets sleep pull him under once more.