about to have a complete meltdown bc my trusted hair stylist of seven years left the hair salon and I'm 🥺
I'm watching Teh Batman and it's so fucking dark, all I can see is the reflection of my lamp.
Anonymous asked:
We need some positivity right now! What is one thing that has made you happy recently?
hiiiii, oh that is such a lovely question, anon! thank you for reminding me that being (at least a bit) happy can sometimes also mean making a conscious decision to remember something good.
love it when people in the shut the fuck up train compartment actually do. shut the fuck up.
ugh gotta wash some rice
thinking of creating an IS IT AI sideblog to clear things up with certain pictures I see going around and around and arou- ANGER! BOILING MY BLOOD!
two hours on a Wednesday morning at IKEA and now I need a whole fucking holiday to recover
caressthosecheekbones reblogged
where I am?
Oh, one hour early to my adhd diagnostic appointment.
The irony
big news. might be ptsd instead of ad(h)d. I am bamboozled tbh. another test in three weeks.
where I am?
Oh, one hour early to my adhd diagnostic appointment.
The irony
being so late for the girlies meet up bc the vibes were just off for an early shower. of course: shower curtain came crashing down (at least after I was finished showering) - missed the train I originally planned to take, arrive super on time for the next train. guess who's waiting for his train on the same platform?
my ex colleague with whom I'm so not in love anymore - yeah exactly that one.
wild. right? 👍
#personal#i say things here#this is a joke right#what if he saw me and pretended he didn't. like i did.#(he was on the phone btw)#I NEVER SEE PEOPLE I KNOW IN PUBLIC#what kind of creepy sixth sense do i have for men who have emotionally compromised me in the past#i was not in a state to meet him#thank god i was wearing sunglasses#im not in love with him anymore btw#that was dramatic liberty#still#im SHOOK#The absolute fucking dramedy that is my life?#fate?#what a coinkidink#which could mean nothing#he still looked good#his hair was so dark?#i was secretly hoping he'd lost it all#like the mean bitch i can be sometimes#still very very tall.#tall drink of water#Lauch#lauch boy#😭
wrote an accidental poem about how i was a film snob when i was 20 and didnt appreciate mamma mia in the cinema. but now that i am old and weak and full of hurt, i do.
it goes like this:
doing plant baby maintenance and the one fucking stick that was supposed to be(come) a frangipani - the stick with no leaves no nothing on it after over a year - the stick I was so ready to throw out - that fucking stick had the audacity to grow the tiniest littlest baby roots without my knowledge 🙄 (🥺)
now what
my mum filling out my adhd questionnaire: wait, for whom am I filling this out?
I want to finish this book and I don't want to finish it. The book is Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin.
#feeling sorry for myself#even though i must be one of the luckiest fuckers on this earth#to even go on this short holiday trip. im pathetic.#i say things here#feeling like i dont deserve it#ooh the mood is swinging and aiming for my jaw#tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow#reading#post-holiday depression
caressthosecheekbones reblogged
Awkwardness is natural when you don’t fit into the choreography of the consensus.
Meet awkwardness with mindfulness; keep your sense of humor but do not conform.
Be at ease amidst discomfort. You’re good.
Therein can be found a lovely balance between charming and subversive.
me as the only single person at the hotel's all inclusive buffet
just finished reading The Pairing, sobbing on a Mediterranean beach. like Casey (probably) intended
#the pairing#casey mcquiston#the last three chapters broke my heart in the good way#maybe i can have that one day#judy alone in mallorca#i say things here#im so relaxed#what time is it#hell if i know#tall bald beach buddy who smoked a blunt without me doesn't seem to be in the same hotel#eh#whatever#im good alone
just did the first questionnaire on my way to an adhd diagnosis. one question was: do the last questions (18!!!!) apply to you aged 8-10?
me: ????? wha b*tch i only remember the last one???? 😭😭😭
#im in tears#i have no idea how that might say anything helpful about me/my problems#personal#i say things here#adhd#super personal#i'm so afraid i might not have it#shaking with it#i dont know how i was aged 8-10#i seriously dont remember#i guessed#i wasnt doing super well in school#and had problems being too loud sometimes#thats as much as i can remember#no idea if my relatives will remember me well enough to answer those (same?????) questions#oh god what if i am just an idiot. and a liar.#an idiot liar?????#sobbing#they wanted me to answer super quickly but i needed so much time to come up with a situation sometimes???????#also the overall design was horrible!!!!!!!!!