where I am?
Oh, one hour early to my adhd diagnostic appointment.
The irony
my head's a fucking mess these days...
(very personal diary entry under the cut)
just got a referral from my psychiatrist to get tested for adhd. she thinks it's very likely.
I could sob right now.
Life is a combination of magic and pasta. ✨🍝
guess who just got bursitis in her left knee bc she didn't literally and figuratively slow down when she actually should've had gsdhagdhhfhsh✌️🤪
#something#me#mine#personal#italy roadtrip#do not reblog#i say things here#austria#italy#verona#gelato#ciao bellissima 😚#being cringe#this is not instagram#but idc lol#do not repost#first pic: austria#second & third: verona#edit: i like how they all have the same flow kinda like the stream in the first one.
feeling shary today
#i say things here#me#mine#personal#you can pinpoint the exact moment i realised the light was hitting my not brown but hazel eyes in a flattering way lol#have some foamed oat milk coffee#and freshwater pearl earring#and fuzzy girl sideburns i guess lmao#to delete in a hot minute when ill suddenly feel super self-conscious <3#really personal#do not reblog#will make unrebloggable immediately#sorry for sandmännchen sand in my eye oop <3#taynick jumpscare lol#also: interior design choices i made in the past#and am rethinking currently#sneak peak of my flat i guess
u know when you're high and texting your brother about the inappropriate flower arrangements he picked out to send your mother for her 70th birthday and you cannot explain to him why he needs to pick more conservative, classic shit bc you're high and you add "haha she will probs be more happy anyways to receive flowers from us that You picked out for a change 😂" and now you ask yourself is that a normal™️ thing to send.
after only 4 hours of sleep i have seldom been feeling as uber conscious about my own flat decoration. had to immediately purge almost all the pink, girly stuff. not that there was much left. will ban it into a box of some kind and see how i feel in a few weeks.
#the shabby chic brainrot had me in its claws for over a decade now#not even joking#i say things here#i am a grown up#i want my surroundings to reflect that#a bit of whimsy is okay.#sparkly monkey pill box my beloved: you may stay#cherry blossom fairy lights: sashay away#adfakjfg#hashtag get masc'd#i know i was overcompensating my extremely strong masculine energy with all the cutesy stuff#jesus i feel like i grew up ten years within the last 12 hours#insane#very deeply personal post#do not reblog
soooooo... my back is still hurty, but much less so and my will to live and maybe even see this mid year off with a bunch of alcohol and a smol bang sounds more like a plan again, than staying in for the third nye in a row. (2022/2023 was. not good.) these are my options and I'm being a little whiny bitch about choosing, so maybe help me? decide? discuss? what should i do tonight?
option 1.: the dinnerparty. my friend + her fiancé & several other couples i do not know (yet). there will be fish (dont like) but as i famously volunteered for dessert and have not left the house since... 😬 i actually cancelled this plan as i thought two days ago i would still be incapacitated at this point in time. my friend said i could still come whenever i wanted to if i felt even slightly better. was she just being nice? well. i could go to the main station (which is ridiculously close tbh), shops there are still open but it would surely be A Task on nye and i would still need to come up with. something? or go very very late, very drunk already and only bring some bubbles... option 2.: could also go to one of my best friends place for raclette, her boyfriend and parents the only other people present. i know and like them all. would need to drive to another city and stay the night though and have nothing to bring as a thank you present... (wait maybe my alcohol stash? unfortunately i do not keep a moët&chandon in my pretty cabinet...) was she just being nice tho? when she suggested?? i am nervous.
3.: suck it up. stay at home for the third nye in a row, cosy & drunk without moving or spending any money at all as the takeaway costs of the last days will have left a gaping hole in my bank account already anyway. i know now how a movie night with me, myself and candles work. i do. sleeping in my own bed: also always a plus. bit sad tho innit.
be nice pls 🙏🍊💜✨