♪.+ﾟ♬✿。

Starting to think that my constant homesick feeling is me longing for my childhood where I felt truly loved by my parents instead of being loved despite who I am. Lots to think about…

So bonkers the election is happening tomorrow and I haven’t even thought about it outside of my early voting. Frightening but I can’t think about it because I’m thinking about other frightening things!

I liked 1 (one) war hammer reel and now my whole feed is warhammer someone save me I don’t go here

I don’t like people who let their cats outside but I HATE people who let them out and don’t bother to fix them. I’ve been trying to feed and adopt out this tiny orange cat and this big fat fuckhead attacked her while she was just hanging out!! He’s a menace he does this to all the strays around here and I chase him off when I can but now he avoids me, so I can’t check his collar to see what jackass owns him. I wish I could abduct him get him neutered and send him on his way 🙄

Sitting and drawing feels so weird. This is something I’ve constantly told myself I need to do and that it is important to me, but as soon as I sit my brain tells me to do anything but draw. Like I know I’m not wasting my time, but my brain says you need to be vacuuming. You need to clean the kitchen. You need to run laundry. You need to organize the junk drawer but if I do any of that I’ll stop drawing for the rest of the day. Why can’t I accept my house is clean

I’ve missed the rain sooo fucking much there is literally nothing like a beer and watching it pour and blow…

Feel like pure shit just want her back (the ability to create and enjoy what I made without thinking it’s worthless slob no one will ever love)

Ngl I’m growing more nervous about the election the more people I see saying ‘trump is doomed’ like remember 2016? It seemed so sure that Hillary was going to win

its impossible to state how fantastic world miku is. she's all of us!

I’ve been crying a LOT but it’s good because I think I am making progress. It’s been very nice outside these last few days.

I wanna go to the bluegrass store in town so badly but I’m anxious because I’ve never been there nor has my father… I’m sure the people working will be happy to have another customer but I’m so scared I’ll make a fool of myself!! I just wanna look at books and see if they have maybe a soft case for my dulcimer but aughshshhah. I look like a city slicker today 😭

It is so surreal being a long time charli fan right now. I feel so validated, so correct for knowing who the future of pop was with LOL

My beautiful pickled red onions

I’ve been thinking a lot about an old friendship I had and due to miscommunication and my own lack of boundary setting damaged. For a long time I felt I had derailed someone else’s life in a selfish way even though at the time it was what seemed like the only option to me. I still haven’t fully forgiven myself for doing what I felt was something terribly selfish. Now I know they have a career they really enjoy, and friends, and seem happy. And I’m so happy for them because I know what happened was incredibly painful. I keep thinking I want to reach out and say something, and try to build some sort of relationship again, but I don’t think it’s my place to. I don’t want to dredge old memories and open old wounds, but I want this person to know that I realize I treated them poorly in a difficult situation.

Sometimes I look around and I’m like wow I live in heaven. Blue sky and clean running water and green trees. My own patio. Singing birds. Wtf I’m so fortunate

I love living in Ohio because we have beautiful seasons and kind people and great wildlife but I hate living in Ohio because Ohio is in America. Which I love the people of but hate the government that controls it.