god, while pressing the fire iron into your skin: someday you’re going to agree that this was necessary

When Mary Shelly wrote "I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other" god I really felt that

Chessy Normile

eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.

no one needs to add “sounds fake but ok”, “no”, “well, not me”, “impossible”, etc. to this post. and i’d rather you not.

one day you think: I want to die.

and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book.

and I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun

I want a cleaner kitchen

I want a better job

I want to live somewhere else

I want to live

it may never be like it was before but growth can persist through pain

Danez Smith, “I’m Going Back to Minnesota Where Sadness Makes Sense”

1975

Natalie Díaz, from "American Arithmetic", Postcolonial Love Poem

𝙹𝚊𝚗𝚞𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝟹, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟸 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟶-𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟹

—Mama, is my grief your secret pleasure? HÖSTSONATEN (1976) dir. Ingmar Bergman

— Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via alwaysalwayslolita)

James Baldwin, Giovanni's Room

- November 11, 1911

- The diaries of Franz Kafka, 1910-1913

[ID: Everything bad and weak in me held me back. End ID]

Offret, Andrei Tarkovski, 1986

HAND ON MY HEART. HAND ON MY STUPID HEART

ross gay / susan sontag / unknown / richard siken / warsan shire / lana del ray / tturing / hera lindsay bird / richard siken

Walt Whitman, “O Living, Always Dying”, Leaves of Grass

Warsan Shire, from “To Swim with God”, Bless the Daughter Raised by a Voice in Her Head