do you ever actually sit and wonder why youre "friends" with certain people and you really cant find one good reason why?
I feel so much better now that I've been writing again 😊
it seriously sickens me that people are still friends with the dude who did this to me especially after they know what he did. it sucks even more that i can't avoid it because everyone i know, knows him... disgusting.
no matter what happens, you'll never have to suffer for what you did to me like i have to every single day
i miss you so much it makes me sick
it feels like i'm drowning and every time i start to come up for air, another wave comes to push me back under
you make me feel like shit, but at least you make me feel something
i wish i could just stop playing this over + over in my head ptsd fucking sucks
all i want to do these days is fuck, sleep, and cry. seriously. that's it.
I used the word "reluctant" and he didn't know what it meant so I said "you know, like, hesitant" and he told me he doesn't use "big words" WHAT?!?11!?! Nothing worse than a hot guy with no brain
note to self: find a better place to have sex outdoors.
quandary: i want to be around people, but once i finally am, i'd rather crawl in a dark hole + be alone for all eternity
spending my saturday night reading mitchell heisman's 1,905 page suicide note.
i've got to learn to let people in.