this jirai is working hard to get better :)
this jirai is a dumb girlpilled gore lover
this jirai is HIGHLY sensitive to smells! they will gag and run away from smells they don't like!
I feel like such a freak my friend just wanted to try my headphones on today and I let her but I got so overstimulated by the clanking of plates that when she asked for a specific song I said no and took them back ugh why can't I be normal and not scare people she probably thinks I'm so weird but I can't help it
don't kill yourself suicide is cringe
I get headaches so bad they make me brutally nauseous
been eating more recently and it's really helped me feel better psychologically. my medication is working very well recently and I'm so excited to keep living.
my knees ache and my eyes water constantly. I try to see the point in living but my vision is blurred with tears and pain so it's hard to make out the future clearly
having multiple online personalities has been fucking exhausting and tbh I'm just tired of it at this point. I give up, I am bunny, have been bunny for years and I'm not going to pretend I'm anybody else
I want to cut my wrists so badly like just leave ugly horrible marks and scar myself permanently. I don't even know why, it's just a desperate compulsion.
I feel sick to my stomach honestly I find making and keeping friendships so hard it almost doesn't feel worth it anymore I wish I could just disappear I just want to see more of the same people I can't stand how things are changing so intensely and so often
I have a bf but I NEED a sugr d@ddy bcs im sooooo fucking poor I cant afford all my jirai wants and needs under these conditions!!! I NEED BOYS TO GIVE ME MONEY
wish I could try all these yummy snacks but it will make me fat 3:
don't mind me I'm just playing solitaire to block out the external stimulation so I can tolerate being alive in public