If anyone wants to know why I love and appreciate Taliesin Jaffe so much, here’s another reason to top off a very long list of reasons.
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twitter thread:
‘im here to rant’ @ softangels_: “@ executivegoth im having a really bad night and im trying to find a reason to live, any advice?”
‘Taliesin Jaffe’ @ executivegoth: “Actually, yeah fuck it. Here it is: [linked image]”
linked image transcript: “A few years ago I was in one of my longest runs of severe depression (I’ve had a few) and decided, “fuck it. Since I know I can’t live like this for much longer, I’m going to do all the shit I’m terrified of, because no amount of “fucked up on meds” could possibly be worse than this living nightmare. ”I got a therapist who is amazing (took 3 tries). I got on meds, which took 7 different attempts including one that made me super agro, and many where I couldn’t feel any change for weeks. I took vitamins. I went outside every day, if only for 5 minutes. I failed to do the basic minimum to count as human A LOT. I told a few of my friends the truth instead of trying to pretend I was okay. Most were helpful as fuck, but not all. And after all that and STILL being in therapy I can tell you that getting fully out of depression feels like gong technicolor in the wizard of oz. My brain wasn’t capable of producing the chemicals necessary to feel actual happiness. It was a car with gas but no oil. Just stuck and tearing itself apart. I know it feels like there’s an external solution to these problems but there isn’t. Plenty of skinny hot people wanna fucking end it. Plenty of hot skinny people are hot and skinny because they are trying desperately to feel human. Respect your biology. Go figure out if your brain is even giving you the biological opportunity to feel good. Then go to a professional to help you clean up the mess, because it cannot be done alone, any more than you can remove your own tumors. I would of crashed and burned HARD before Critical Role ever happened, and could have never imagined the life I have now. Accept you might not feel good for awhile, but there is that technicolor world, you just have to be open to some heavy emotional work to get there. Love you.”
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