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AWW thank you~!!! It's because I get frustrated with my unsteady circles~

THAAANK you~!!! -BIG THUMBS UP- It was difficult but I had fun~!!

It's less an art challenge and more me formally dedicating an entire month to pookie (celebratory sacrifice to a God style!!) Also. THE TIME CONSTRAINT is killer!!!

I don't think I've ever been on a road trip - for long car rides...I've never been involved in any specific activities for them. I usually just listen to music and try to sleep~! I've recently been getting more prone to car sickness too v_v I think Tuvok's favorite thing to do on long trips where he doesn't have any duties is stare out the window silently or talk to T'Pel/Janeway if she's there. (I headcanon he's the type who can't read while in a moving vehicle where you can feel it's moving, he'll get nauseous) I personally don't think he tries to entertain his kids, there are four of them - they should entertain each other (in his opinion). Maybe he'd put on an audio book? If they get too rowdy or a fight breaks out he tells them that that is NOT how Vulcans behave and also asks if they want to go back home?? Because he will turn this hovercar around. If his kids try to talk to him while he's driving he says he's driving and has to focus and directs them toward T'Pel. I can imagine Tuvok playing 'memory games' with his children which they're all very excited about as children but once they get older they realize it's basically just a pop quiz and don't want to play anymore. I can also imagine a certain song coming on and his entire family goading him until he joins them in singing along~!

-Exhales hot air into a cold atmosphere, creating the illusion of smoke- You got it, kid

Ahh that's lovely~!!! I like it too - there's so much you can do with afro textured hair!

Some styles for Tuvok~!! PS: I WROTE THE NAME WRONG BC IT WAS 2AM it's @punkbxt

I have a personal headcanon that Tuvok doesn't really like animals and they always want to bother him when he's around, reinforcing his avoidance of them. However, when he was a temporarily disowned teenager at the monastery he had to take care of the Vulcan Chicken-Equivalents as his chore sometimes and he always had a difficult time. His hands were always pecked bloody and his clothes got dirty and he kept breaking eggs by accident. He kept getting assigned to the chore though, especially if he complained v_v I think current Tuvok would do alright with gardening but actual farmwork is VERY laborious and I don't see him being particularly interested in animals...I do really WANT to see him doing farm work though, bc it'd provide a lot of avenues for slapstick comedy. Neelix: Be sure to let me know if you get too tired, Mr. Vulcan! Tuvok: After [Vulcan Experience] this is hardly a challenge, Mr. Neelix. Neelix: Mhm, oh good...Watch out for that rake! Tuvok: Ra-? [BAM] Chakotay, Later: Nice work, Neelix. Naomi. ...? Where's Tuvok? [Neelix & Naomi look at each other and giggle] Neelix: Oh I'm sure he's hanging around here somewhere, commander! [In the background Tuvok is in a tree, staring down a large animal which clearly wants to attack him] <- Neelix & Naomi aren't helping him because he said he didn't need any so OK~! Good luck~!! Another headcanon I have!! Tangentially related - is that Tuvok did not know how to grow crops and the airponics bay's vegetable supply is mostly due to Kes and Neelix at first. [Kes teaches him as they go]

AAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH~!!!! I'm so glad someone read and enjoyed it!! That makes me so happy to hear you have no idea...recruiting people into the T'Pring Lovers Association...and writing Rand was so fun! TOS has such a specific type of dialogue that I was unsure I was doing it justice pretty much the whole time, but it was still fun~!

Some memes for the fic since I didn't know what to put here, thank you~!!

B'Elanna x Automated Unit 3947 = Yuri

I have no angsty thoughts on his blindness itself per say [I think he'd be able to adapt well and without a lot of turmoil because he is so disciplined, they're in an emergency situation, and from the way he reacted to Kes boiling his blood and nearly killing him with "This just shows I need to teach you even more. Same time next week?" where a Human, and perhaps even another Vulcan, might be more wary of leaping right back into that situation. He's lowkey a bit too curious for his own good when it comes to the mind but that's beside the current point.] HOWEVER I do think that since he got...exploded?? There was an explosion?? [I don't regularly watch Year of Hell, I know everyone loves it and I don't dislike it but it's not my scene] He and Seven were working on some kind of torpedo that got detonated and he saved Seven is how I remember it. Anyway since all that happened I do wish we'd gotten some visible facial scarring/burns. I know the Doc can heal those things and it probably isn't worth it from a real life 'this is a show' perspective but I like the idea of resources running lower and so becoming injured becomes more and more of an actual risk to productivity and lifelong consequence. So I drew a Tuvok with more facial scarring/burns from that torpedo & also with his hair grown out a bit more since he's not buzzing it regularly [he still shaves though, canonically]. Seven feeling guilty in the background is another potential source of angst because I imagine Tuvok's skin would feel uncomfortable...itching, pain, etc and maybe Seven helps with putting ointment on the afflicted areas? Oh!! Actually, Tuvok seems like someone who doesn't like asking for any help and who values his independence/[to some extent] separation from the rest of the crew highly. I can imagine him struggling with being so suddenly and traumatically rendered blind [explosion as opposed to slowly losing sight] and needing to rely so heavily on someone else because of their situation [if the ship's layout weren't so dangerous and changing all the time I imagine he could get around with a mobility aid or through memory instead of relying on Seven to guide him] I can imagine a certain amount of angst coming through Tuvok just fighting to accept that he does need help and that that's ok! That might be an interesting angle actually, especially since he's going through this with Seven who we know values efficiency and has said that Borgs who are damaged in any way are killed and used for parts. How does this affect them both?

I wouldn't last five seconds in a room with that merry band of freaks and geeks /lh

This made me laugh out loud I love it so much

I don't know anything about Saavik v_v I really love these two posts about her though! X and X I think about these posts often and whenever I do I feel like I want to draw!

Incorrect! Bigender/Trans Tuvok is not cursed at all and is in fact a blessed image, sight, thought etc v_v Please rise and salute Mz Vulcan!!!! That IS undoubtedly a funny scenario though - they are forever destined to be Husband & Wife. Imagine worrying for several years that your wife might leave you for being trans and then you meet with her again and she's your husband and the only thing that changes is you're HIS wife now. This is T'Vok's life.

Send them to their grandparents houses for a looong visit. As is tradition v_v

Original Ask: Thoughts on the Keethera? (Tuvok’s block puzzle thing from s3 ep2) <- At the time I had no thoughts as I didn't understand what anon was asking. The Keethera is very interesting. I've said this before but it's interesting and indicative of his character that the two games/meditation exercises we see Tuvok partaking in are the Keethera and Kal-Toh, both of which do not have a hard and fast ideal or win-state and are meant to show the person or people building them something about themselves. It's very much unlike chess, which is Spock's game of choice. The Keethera is more a diagnostic tool and Kal-Toh speaks to the core of Vulcan emotional control - that is, the ability to find harmony where there is seemingly only random chaos. Tuvok's not doing well mentally. I don't think Tuvok's been doing well mentally since vanishing into the delta quadrant, much like everyone else, however unlike everyone else he doesn't seem to have any sort of....safety net? Anyone to confide in? Nor does he seem to WANT to or know how to confide in others - how to be open about his pain or need for help.

I like this interaction in which instead of having to say that he's struggling, Kes can simply look at the Keethera and see that he is. Tuvok's inability to effectively share his pain with others makes sense - they're all aliens to him and he isn't close with any of the Vulcans on the crew. He's also a person who prides himself on being solitary and strong and Vulcan. As seen in 'Alter Ego' he intentionally cultivates an air of being utterly separate from others even when ostensibly participating in a group activity and is shown several times in the series to think himself above others. [Ex: Neelix, Chakotay, B'Elanna, Humans in general] However, the image he has of himself makes reaching out for help incredibly difficult. He has cultivated an image in which he is utterly unlike the others, in which he is better, less prone to being hurt, and because he stakes his pride on this image he now cannot ask for help without it going against his image and damaging the reputation he enjoys holding. I think this is a relatable problem. Personally, when I was a teenager, I had cultivated an image of being a jokester and bubbly person which I struggled valiantly to maintain even when I was going through severe bouts of depression. The idea of myself as someone who was a jokester and happy all the time was very important to me and losing that felt like it would be 'giving in' to my depression and losing my identity when in reality my refusal to actually address my depression was causing my depression to worsen. In Tuvok's case, his identity pre-delta quad is perhaps the only thing he has left of his old life. It's stated and implied multiple times by the narrative that Tuvok is lonely and misses his family and that that loneliness is beginning to cause him to act in ways he normally wouldn't (Compare him to Marayna in 'Alter Ego'). The fact that he misses his family and is lonely is also relevant due to the fact that family ties are INCREDIBLY important in Vulcan culture. Tuvok's family is obviously very close but more relevant to this, family ties are stated across several episodes to be crucial in dealing with trauma or mental stress. Personal information seems to be [across multiple series] very private to Vulcans. Personal information is sensitive and intimate and not something you share with just anyone. To me it's natural to assume that this is also a contributing factor in Tuvok's resistance towards reaching out for help. He feels it's something private that he should only share with other Vulcans who are close to him or a healer - but no such person exists on Voyager and his closest friend is the captain, whom he doesn't want to 'burden' with his problems when he can handle them alone [or so he thinks] and so he endures and endures and endures in silence. The Keethera showcases Tuvok's mental state not only in its structure but in Tuvok's persistent mantra that he is fine despite the clear signs to the contrary. "I am in control," he says, as the Keethera falls apart. It is also telling that Tuvok has no separate course of action. After the Keethera crumbles and Kes leaves, Tuvok just starts building the Keethera again. It's a meditational aid and helps focus the mind but something strikes me as incomplete or wishful about him continually building it, alone, and only to watch it crumble. What else can he do but continually punch the numbers and watch as he's told over and over again that he's not okay?

Tuvok's conversation with Kes at the end of 'Warlord' is something I love. I think it's very good advice on dealing with trauma that he struggles to follow himself. We never see the completed Keethera at the end of 'Flashback' - there is no assurance that his mind is completely healed from the trauma he's endured. [Even if the memory was not strictly 'real', his reactions to it were and thus we can say he DID have a repressed traumatic memory] Instead we see him talking with Janeway, with a friend, and we perhaps know that even if it isn't - he's not alone.

Cute~! Worf deserves a wife who doesn't die tragically v_v