alright. the phandom is pretty toxic recently and it stresses me out. its been stressing me out for a long time actually. even after unfollowing most phan blogs, i still get drama and i still get asks about drama and im not into it. and now i see that people are being forced to delete their blogs or go inactive bc theyre getting so much hate, and im seeing a lot of hate towards content creators saying they owe people their work. im tired of it and it’s gross. 

that being said, i’m moving my tumblr onto a different login so that i dont have access to this blog unless i log into that specific blog. this blog will still be up so you can all access my content, but im not gonna post anything on here for a while probably. i dont know if or when ill come back. but thank you very much to all of the lovely people who send me asks and leave cute comments on my work and genuinely cared for me. i love you all dearly. i just cant deal with all this negativity in my life and i think it’s time i move on for a bit. 

the two blogs i’ll be active on are @worriedpeach and @softlyoongi from now on.

Its finally chilly enough that i can wear my new sweaters! 💛🌼✨🐝

Hi hello this is an official post saying that im gonna take a break from this tumblr for a little bit, probably a couple days or so. I have five posts left in my queue but after thats done i wont be posting anything for a few days. My mental health has gotten p bad and this blog has started to feel more like a job rather than something i enjoy so i think i need to take a step back for a bit and reevaluate, maybe try to find my love for writing again. If you still wanna see me on your dash boards, ill be active on my main blog @worriedpeach and also my kpop blog @queenkihyun . I love you all dearly and i hope you understand 💖

You’re a Roller Coaster

Summary: Phil goes to an amusement park with his friends but ends up having to ride a roller coaster with a stranger because he's the third wheel. Warnings: cursing, mentions of nausea Word Count: 2325 A/N: Thanks to @bubblepoppingsound on tumblr for this prompt! I've been having a bit of trouble with writers block recently so hopefully this will satisfy you guys until I can get something a bit longer out! 

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Phil didn’t mind being the third wheel typically. He knew that he wasn’t nearly as loud as his friends were when it came to conversation. He was much more of a listener than a talker, sometimes not really knowing what kinds of words to say that could possibly explain his plethora of thoughts.

He didn’t mind being the third wheel, because being the third wheel didn’t mean that his friends didn’t care for him or wanted to purposefully leave him out. He knew for a fact that his friends loved him just as much as he loved them, that they would probably die for him if they had to. In fact, his two best friends, Gabii and Maggie, had declared him as their very own Lesbian Father for putting up with public displays of affection and for not holding it against them when they accidentally ignored him in favour of each other’s company.

So yeah. Phil didn’t mind. He was glad he could be a lesbian father. It felt right in a way that things often didn’t. He liked to proudly stand to the side, applauding Gabii and Maggie as they kissed in public, occasionally telling onlookers that those were his gays. Right there! Being all happy and shit! He loved his gays.

when youre s h o o k a f

Look in the Mirror

Summary: As soon as Dan saw the mirrored ceiling in the back lounge of the tour bus, he knew he was in trouble. Word Count: 3378 Warnings: smut, barebacking A/N: Thanks to tumblr user, @7randomwords for the prompt! I suddenly got the urge to write this fic and ended up writing it in two hours which is a miracle considering I've been having writer's block! This is literally just an excuse to write shameless smut.

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As soon as Dan saw the mirrored ceiling in the back lounge of the tour bus, he knew he was in trouble.

He couldn’t stop thinking about it. Couldn’t stop thinking about lying on his back, head thrown back, eyes cast to the ceiling as Phil pounded him to oblivion into the seat cushions. There was something wrong with him. Phil was going to judge him so hard when he found out, would probably tease him for the rest of their lives.

But that wouldn’t stop him from trying, of course. The one thing that he’s learnt from being in a relationship with Phil was that hiding his ideas would get him nowhere, and would most likely upset Phil if he found out Dan was hiding information. On rare occasions, Phil may even have the same idea as he did.

He waited until they were on the road, the stars twinkling in the night sky from outside the windows. Phil was sat beside him, a notebook opened in front of him. He was writing something, his glasses perched on his nose, eyebrows cocked adorably. Dan always loved when Phil wore his glasses, giving him a sophisticated look that made Dan weak at the knees.

i was sitting next to the window for this pic and a bee flew into the glass and i screamed very loud thanks for coming to my ted talk

Yo wassup Im rachel and im not worthy enough to see all the beautiful people popping up on my dash today. I’m biromantic gray asexual and im havin a dandy pride month so i hope you guys are too 🌈 ☀️ 🌸

I finished university today after submitting a 26 page research paper! Time to travel the world! And by that i actually mean fail to get an adult job and pay off my $20k student debt!

I hope everyone is having a great day today, heres a pic of my cat

i had to do my makeup bc im about to go out to dinner with my parents but i totally just cried to a kpop tv series

Love Scenario

Summary: When Phil first saw him in the spring, he thought he looked like bubblegum. Word Count: 5,325 Warnings: tooth rotting fluff, mentions of kpop, phil is thirsty af A/N: I got an ask a few months ago from someone talking about how this person they knew from high school was completely different and confident and they liked that, and this was inspired by that bc it was such a cute thing. I really wanted to write a fic where Dan wears makeup and soft things, so this is a very Dan-centric fic and I hella dig it. Also feel free to let me know other things y'all want me to write! The title of this song is from Love Scenario by iKon! Special thanks to @dandelionisonfire for screaming with me about this fic, ty ly bb Read it on ao3! Read it on wattpad!

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When Phil first saw him in the spring, he thought he looked like bubblegum.

His brown hair was curly atop his head, little messy ringlets that were so effortless yet still so stylish. His eyes were shining, framed by long eyelashes that kissed the freckles on his cheeks. Those very eyes were like pools of honey, sparkling with a light of their own and golden brown in the sunlight. His cheeks were pink, lips resembling cherry blossoms, and it was such a beautiful contrast to his porcelain skin that Phil could have sworn he was a walking doll. He was wearing makeup, that much Phil could tell from afar, with a light dusting of pink eyeshadow and winged eyeliner. There was a smattering of glitter on his cheekbones. Highlighter? Phil didn’t know the logistics of makeup, but he thought this boy was absolutely stunning.

He was wearing high waisted shorts, ones that showed off his pretty, rounded thighs and had six buttons on the front. Phil wondered if the buttons actually did what they were supposed to, or if they were just for show. He was wearing a light pink crop top with a small embroidered cactus on the breast. His pink converse matched his shirt and everything about him was pink and bright and Phil lost it completely when he saw the boy blow a bubble out of bubblegum he was chewing.

Bury Your Flame (3/3)

Summary: After receiving a dragon egg when his grandfather passed away, Phil is forced to ask for help from the local dragon tamer. As he soon finds out, Dan Howell is nothing he’s been expecting. Infuriating, ludicrous, and completely lacking respect, Dan is everything Phil hates. But Phil will do anything to make his grandfather proud, even if that means getting help from the local cluck. Word Count: 17,366 / 45k Warnings: Blood/gore, angst, threats, major injury A/N: Chapter warnings include violence, blood, mentions of throwing up, amputation, and ableism. Ahhh it's finally done!!! At long last! I can't believe it! I've been working on this fic since last June so it feels a bit unreal! Thank you so much for your patience in getting the last chapter up, I had a few things come up that were unexpected so I wasn't able to get it up as soon as I would have liked. I'm just glad I was able to upload it at all! Thank you so much to @dandelionisonfire for your endless support and betaing. I could not have done this without you! I hope you guys liked this fic as much as I did.

part one | part two

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The trek to Dan’s house was a rather long one, both because they didn’t have Dan with them, and also because they were traveling by foot instead of horse and carriage. There wasn’t much talk between them, mostly because Phil was trapped in his own head, worrying about things that he couldn’t change and wondering if he would truly be able to change his father’s mind.

When they arrived at Dan’s hut, his attention was immediately brought to the dragons grazing in the garden, followed by castle guards ransacking the entire place. Looking through his belongings, tearing apart his furniture, searching for anything that would peg Dan as guilty. Ducking behind a tree to watch, Phil could tell by the way that they were yelling at each other from across the yard that they were getting frustrated.

If they had thought they’d find something, they were truly imbeciles. Even if Dan were the culprit, he wouldn’t hide his things in such plain sight.

Phil turned to Lennyx, staying low and locking eyes with her. “I’m going to try to get the attention of Dryas,” he whispered. “We can’t let them know we’re here or I might get in a fight with the guards.” It was supposed to be a joke, but it came out flat.

Bury Your Flame (2/3)

Summary: After receiving a dragon egg when his grandfather passed away, Phil is forced to ask for help from the local dragon tamer. As he soon finds out, Dan Howell is nothing he’s been expecting. Infuriating, ludicrous, and completely lacking respect, Dan is everything Phil hates. But Phil will do anything to make his grandfather proud, even if that means getting help from the local cluck. Word Count: 14,412 / 45k Warnings: Blood/gore, angst, threats, major injury A/N:Thank you so much to @dandelionisonfire for betaing this for me again! I’ll try to get the next part out shortly, but it may take longer than two days because I’m going out of town this weekend. We’ll see though! Thanks for reading, I love you all!

Part One

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Part Two

Phil had gone over to Dan’s hut early in the morning, and they were currently taking a break. They’d hiked further up the mountain so the air was slightly thinner and they were sitting on a steep ledge, looking out at the tiny appearance of Lilium. Phil could see his own home from there, the very home that he had grown up in and had even gotten lost inside seeming so small that he could simply crush it in his palm.

While Phil was sitting farther away from the ledge, trying rather hard not to die, Dan had decided to sit on the actual ledge, feet dangling over in a way that made Phil fear that he was going to fall. Dan was humming a song, even kicking his feet as he played with Ophelia. It was giving Phil a nasty feeling in his chest, something akin to fear, because if Dan fell over the edge then he would be falling to his death.

If it were up to Phil, he would get up and move Dan himself, but sadly he was immobile at the moment. If he were to move, then he would dislodge Atlas, who had curled up into a ball on his lap. That was simply just disgraceful and not something that was possible at the moment. So instead, he called out to Dan, a frown on his face. “Tamer,” he demanded, trying to keep his voice as emotionless as possible. It would be weak to show his worry. “Come sit against the wall with me.”

Bury Your Flame (1/3)

Summary: After receiving a dragon egg when his grandfather passed away, Phil is forced to ask for help from the local dragon tamer. As he soon finds out, Dan Howell is nothing he’s been expecting. Infuriating, ludicrous, and completely lacking respect, Dan is everything Phil hates. But Phil will do anything to make his grandfather proud, even if that means getting help from the local cluck. Word Count: 14,320 / 45k Warnings: Blood/gore, angst, threats, major injury A/N: At long last, I'm finally uploading the first part of my dragon tamer au! This fic will be approximately 45k words and will include some violent scenes and angst. But it's also just really fun at the same time! Thank you so much to @dandelionisonfire for betaing this for me and for helping me out with this story. You're the best and i couldn't ask for a better person to look at this fic. This fic is basically my baby after I've been working on it since last June, but hadn't been able to finish it until I had finished Sweet Pea! And now it's going up! I'm emotional lol. Thanks for reading i love you all and the next part will be up in a few days xoxo

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Two days after Phil’s grandfather had passed away, a loud knock resounded on Phil’s bedchamber door. He didn’t have the chance to grant access to the visitor before his door was opening, revealing his father.

“Philip,” the King said solemnly, and Phil sat up curiously on his bed, giving him a confused glance. His father, dressed in his usual elegant attire, had an odd looking box cradled in his arms. It looked like a small chest, with stained purple wood and sparkling golden plates to protect it from harm. It wasn’t too large, yet big enough that it obviously held something inside of it. Perhaps gold or jewels?

“Father,” Phil replied, trying his hardest to sound respectful. He stood from his bed, bowing his head. “To what do I owe you this pleasant surprise?”

The King took his time making his way over to Phil, gesturing his son to sit back on the bed. Still holding the box to his chest, they sat in a comfortable silence until his father finally broke it. “Before your grandfather passed, he confided in me that he wanted you to take care of this.” He handed the box to Phil, who took it in his hands gingerly. It wasn’t as heavy as he’d imagined it would be, but it was heavy enough for him to be aware that there was definitely something inside. “A letter is inside detailing what it is, exactly, but it was very important to your grandfather that you have this. He told me that he wanted you to keep his legacy alive by doing this favour for him. Do you think you can handle that?”

Phil glanced down at the box quizzically. He couldn’t very much tell what it was just by the outside, but the depth to his father’s tone made his stomach clench with nerves. “But what is it, father?” he asked quietly, running his hands down the sides of the chest. There was a lock keeping it shut but he didn’t have the key.

Okay! Question for yall. As some of you know, Ive been writing a fic where Dan is a dragon tamer and Phil is a prince. Its not completely done yet but its almost there. Estimated word count is 40-45k (i have about 35k written). Because you guys are gonna be reading it, I want you to choose the format.

So, should the fic be:

-Chaptered

-Three parts

-Oneshot

Let me know! I cant wait to share it with you guys!