Life update since I went MIA lol
Idek how long ago, but I took a break from Tumblr (and other things in my life) because I'm dealing with anxiety and depression that have impacted my functioning/daily life. I'm in therapy, taking meds, basically trying to get help in any way that I can but things have not really improved so far. I have lots of supportive people in my life and access to mental health services, so at least I've got that going for me. I may come back to posting here occasionally/whenever I feel like it.
In spite of my struggles, I managed to graduate with my Honours Bachelor of Science in Psychology and won a small student grant to continue my study (my study was evaluating virtual cognitive testing). My supervisor was supportive of me when I needed help (I have definitely learned the importance of having a good, kind supervisor). I got to do a guest lecture on brain damage and repair for the class I was TAing, so that was cool. Also, I presented research posters at two virtual conferences.
I've been working as a research assistant this summer. My main project is a qualitative neurorehabilitation study. My other research assistant position is wrapping up soon (it was my first ever research position). We're sending a manuscript out for review and working on knowledge translation.
I am barely managing to get my work done right now, but I'm trying to make some life changes since I've been isolating myself at home nearly every day. I've applied for a couple jobs that I'm excited about and I'm looking to move out of my parent's house.
I am pretty sure I won't be applying to grad school this upcoming cycle (but I will eventually). Even though I look good on paper, I don't think I have the mental clarity or energy to apply anytime soon. The thought of not applying would've freaked me out years ago, but it just feels right and takes a huge pressure off my shoulders. My mental illnesses also squashed my love for research this past year (basically things I used to be so excited about just feel like a chore now) and I think my research interests have shifted a bit and I don't have the energy to sort through that right now.
Some fun/nice things I have done this summer: Visited a winery and brewery with friends. Cut my hair and got highlights. Threw a graduation party for myself and a couple friends since we didn't get an in-person graduation ceremony. Outdoor movie nights because one of my friends got a projector. Fostered two puppies. Started watching Criminal Minds. Tried goat yoga. Lots of after dinner trips to get gelato or ice cream for dessert. Paddle boarding on the lake.
