if anyone’s got some good recs for winter soldier/tony stark, pls send them my way. i could use some dark/angsty fics.
if not, would anyone be interested in filling a prompt for me?
prompt: post cacw. once tony is given enough time to handle the grief of civil war, steve and tony make amends, and in turn, naturally, he invites them all back and they’re functioning again. nothing like the way they used to be. bucky’s still got a problem. that’s the winter soldier. the words are still there and he could be triggered at any moment of time. so B.A.R.F is used to help bucky still channel himself through the soldier. maybe bucky’s therapy requires bucky to switch to the winter soldier, figure out how to take out his programming. maybe tony needs to be involved with that for the science to work?? i don’t know. so in these “sessions” with the winter soldier, tony comes to realize he’s not a murdering robot. he’s actually just as much a victim as bucky is? yes, it’s winter who killed his parents, and countless others, but he was a weapon. a weapon with no semblance of a choice. he doesn’t know what he is, or why he does, it’s simply his job to obey. it kinda fucks tony up, given how much of a bleeding heart he is. and maybe he helps the winter soldier make little choices for himself? maybe it starts out simple with picking between two types of colors, then foods, then into something more complicated than that.
bucky in turn feels better? his headaches start fading, he’s in a lot more control of his body, and while the winter soldier can’t be erased yet. the constant fear surrounding him starts to dissipate. tony meanwhile gets attached, like he always does, and while the soldier isn’t equipped to return those feelings, it doesn’t stop tony from pining. and while soldier/bucky are attractive, i really want the attraction between them to be emotional, guttural, something that can’t be helped and has little or nothing to do with actual physical attraction.
maybe once soldier makes a lot more of his own choices, tony figures out a way to make the soldier go away forever? or figures out his programming? maybe this is an angsty, fucked up fic where he has to say goodbye to the soldier and cut the cord so bucky barnes could live his life like he deserves????
bonus if they get a goodbye scene and tony is transparent about what he has to do. and all the soldier really does his smile and go “i know.” and asks to kiss him? that’s the last and final choice he wants to make.
