Your feminine sexuality will feel like a succubus; feeding off from your old male energy and replacing it with a need to hunt down her prey. In other words, your sexuality and orientation flipped into that of a straight woman. You’re not sure if the HRT did that or it allowed you to explore a new sexuality you can’t control to resist. But once you do accept your new sexuality and identity, will you be the one in control?
Boymoding doesn’t work anymore. Your appearance is too feminized from the HRT to hide your transition. Your attitude and movements have also changed. You make up the excuse of wearing leggings as a fashion statement. But you’re unaware that everyone sees you as a trans girl now. Let your old ways go and come out as a new person to start the new year fresh. You always loved winters anyway.