Everything takes time to get at a desirable point. Even then, it’s always good to give something new a try. It’s all about improving yourself as the person you want to become.
Remember that there is no need to rush things in your transition. Just like how hormones will take time to feminize your appearance and thinking, you may need time to think about how you will come out fully as a girl. This is your journey and only you will choose the outcomes to your transition.
Your feminine sexuality will feel like a succubus; feeding off from your old male energy and replacing it with a need to hunt down her prey. In other words, your sexuality and orientation flipped into that of a straight woman. You’re not sure if the HRT did that or it allowed you to explore a new sexuality you can’t control to resist. But once you do accept your new sexuality and identity, will you be the one in control?
It means you need to start feminizing more on the outside instead of bottling it up on the inside. Being a trans woman is nothing degrading or unlucky at all. Instant wishes rarely exist, but your transition will luckily come true.
-Take this captioned pic and description with a grain of salt. Reblogging pics of wishing to become women like her were “fun” at first. But as time went on, it became repetitive and even dysphoric as the posts were also coming from blogs using femininity as a form of degradation, humiliation, or even bad luck. Today is Friday the 13th, commonly known as an “unlucky day”. But whether it’s an unlucky day today or tomorrow, know your feminine identity is not cursed. Instead of falling to unlucky traps of those who want to use you for bad, follow those who want to lead you to pass in your change.
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There is a great chance you will both get in trouble for “dating”, making out and missing the work’s end of year party. The latter two are undeniably true. You know dating a co-worker is against policy. But as the feeling gets more intense and you pull away from his lips to bend down onto his knees while holding onto his nice, firm back, the former will then become true. You may get fired, but it’s all worth it for you. After all, your “boyfriend” is the best part of the potluck.
Several nights thinking about it, countless hours learning makeup, numerous times observing girl’s movements, and trying out office outfits, you weren’t sure if it was just a kink or were euphoric seeing yourself for once. But after getting the proper help and treatment, it turns out you are trans. Now under 1 month on HRT, you don’t feel any effects and still present as a guy. But come next year, you may have to start more than just re-introducing yourself to your boss and co-workers. And you feel fine.
The city view at night is not the only thing that looks nice, especially since you’ve been drawing quite the attention from the party. You’re not planning on leaving alone, and you know which guy will be lucky tonight. You didn’t plan your transition to go to waste, you know. Enjoy it.
You tried to compensate your outer male identity by lifting weights, growing a beard, drinking like no tomorrow, working at a “man’s” job, and even getting married to a hot girl and becoming a breadwinner, all before you turned 30. But you weren’t happy; your inner identity didn’t match to what you were trying to be. Now, you’re trying to learn how to be a woman and catch up with women your age. Secretly, you like how women envy your younger looks while gaining interest in the guys paying attention to you. Sure, you may have lost all of your previous accomplishments, relationships, and interests, and struggle to perfect even the basic womanly things, but you are happier than ever being as the woman you always were inside.
You have done it all: the hormones, surgeries, clothes, makeup, movements, voice training, outing, even dating. Your gender dysphoria is treated and people see you as a woman now, to the point where your old ID belongs to some guy no one even knows. Now you just need to change that M into an F and your picture into your new outer self. Your last option will be your new name. What will a woman like you name herself like?
You love the attention you get from men. You love to show off yourself as much as you can. But mostly, you love that you transitioned into the girl inside you.
Adapting to a new gender is more than just hormones and surgery. It’s also changing your lifestyle, workout routines, clothing, name changes, diet, beauty care, use of words, etc. But most importantly, transitioning is a commitment to change into your ideal self. Those timelines don’t make themselves, girl. Take pics and upload them for people to see your progressing happiness.
It’s easier to give up an old phase as opposed to an old hobby. If only the adults in your life knew about "growing up”.
F for Female
It’s the little things that count. Thank you for the lovely message! We are all valid!