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Bardificer

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She/Her // 19 // ADHD, OCD, Aspergers // I'm always surrounded by LGBTQ and/or Neurodivergent people. This pleases me. // Profile picture: https://picrew.me/share?cd=HhqxRgl8EB
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i-am-a-fish
Anonymous asked:

This is rough, have any advice on not fucking killing myself?

I know there are a lot of people thinking about killing themselves right now. I felt the exact same way in 2016 when he first got elected.

This is a bad thing, but to anyone having these types of thoughts, please don't do anything that can't be undone. This is the last term he can be be inaugurated, after these 4 years, or hopefully less, he will be gone. It's difficult to stay positive right now, and that's okay. You don't have to stay positive, it's okay to feel these emotions as they are. But please do not commit suicide, because if you do, you won't be able to feel any emotions ever again.

Even though I felt hopeless at the time, I am so glad that I didn't kill myself in 2016.

For my own sake, I really need the people who are upset with this election to stay alive with me

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bardificer

All killing yourself will do is make the situation more hopeless for the rest of us. The last thing we need is a chain of suicides.

We can still fight, we can still get past this. Things will be tough for a little while, but someday they'll be better again.

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i-am-a-fish

Sex Ed Time

ok I'm gonna tell you about some things that might happen if you are transitioning m->f. this is not a comprehensive list just my own experience, be sure to do your own research I just really wanted to voice how this affects me because I think open discussion about this type of stuff is just more helpful for everyone rather than keeping it private

  1. BOOBS HURT WHEN THEY GROW
  2. your sex drive (libido) will probably go down a lot
  3. facial hair is very hard to get rid of
  4. my go-to gender affirming clothing is high-waisted jeans. I suggest going to a goodwill or some sort of cheap store that lets you try on clothes to figure out what you like
  5. muscle mass will go down, fat will be redistributed
  6. boobs do all sorts of crazy stuff when you run / exercise
  7. overtime your skin will get softer, you also might smell nicer, and I've been told it can thin body hair but I don't really see it all that much 🤷
  8. your brain chemistry can change when you reduce testosterone and increase estrogen, there are lots of factors that contribute toward any changes to your personality, but hormones can have an impact as well. for me this is a good thing because I struggle with allowing myself to feel emotions sometimes, no matter how hard I tried I was never really able to get myself to cry. I've gotten closer to being able to cry since I started transitioning though and that makes me very happy
  9. this is a slow process that can take several years, ultimately you're going to be in your body for several years regardless, so if this is something you want it's definitely something you should try to pursue if possible. the time will pass anyways, and it does feel nice to work towards something that can make you happier.
  10. also this is very important, you don't need to do any sort of hormone replacement therapy in order to be trans. not everybody can access HRT, and for those who can access it, not everybody wants to take on all the changes that come with treatments. you don't have to chemically or physically change your body in any way in order to deserve respect

all right that's all I have for right now feel free to add anything in the comments, I would especially like to hear from trans men what your experiences have been, I think openly talking about these types of things can really help some people

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mindfulwrath

Going the other way (f -> m) :

  1. Your clit may well be the first thing that changes. Mine started to grow noticeably after just a few weeks on even a low dose of T.
  2. You will get so fucking horny. Not even for anybody (or maybe that's because I'm ace), just abstractly, distractingly horny. Every day. No, really, every day. Invest in a vibrator. (In my experience this cools off after the first year or so.)
  3. Your facial hair will grow in stupid and scraggly. You'll have weird bald spots. You may grow a neck beard. You probably won't want to shave it. You don't have to shave it. Look weird, who gives a fuck.
  4. It's fine to dress like a frat boy or a mall goth or a lumberjack or all three at once. You can wear cargo shorts and flip-flops. You can go outside looking like you crawled through your laundry hamper to get there. It will feel illegal the first 100 times you do it and then you will be free.
  5. You'll build muscle even if you maintain the exact same level of activity as when you were estrogen-dominant. Muscles are hungry and you will want to eat more. Eat more. Aim for proteins and leafy greens. Watch your cholesterol and salt intake because your blood pressure will probably go up.
  6. Your hemoglobin will also go up. This is nice because anemia sucks, but it can become problematic if it gets too high. Consider donating blood a couple times a year if you can.
  7. Your periods can stop after a couple months, but they might not (mine did). If you stop taking T, they'll come back. If your dosage is too high, they can also come back (excess testosterone gets converted into estrogen - this also happens to naturally testosterone-dominant people).
  8. Voice changes start around the couple-month mark and your voice will be weird for a while. The initial drop is chaotic and squeaky, then it will settle, but it's probably not done changing. Keep using and stretching your voice, because I'm seven years in and while my voice has mostly found its range I've lost a couple semitones off the top and added them to the bottom in the last few years. Also, cis people are terrible at clocking T-voices, so don't worry about it. Plenty of cis men sound just like you. Seriously.
  9. Crying might get harder, or it might just get weirder. I attribute most of my lack of tears to being happier these days, but strange things make me misty-eyed. Hard to disentangle what's psychology and what's endocrinology.
  10. You'll get real hairy and its fine. Yes on your belly. Yes on your chest. Yes on your back and your knuckles and around your nipples. You'll have shoulder hairs long enough to braid. You'll get hair in places you didn't know hair grew and you'll have bald spots in places you never thought about being bald. Unless you're a competitive swimmer or cyclist, don't fuckin worry about it. Get weirded out by how smooth Hollywood men are instead. Why are we waxing these men like sports cars?
  11. Love the fuzz. Love the armpit stank and the weird-smelling pee and the sweaty back (you'll run hotter after a while). Love the voice cracks, they'll be gone soon. Love your flattening butt and your thinning lips and the new parts of your forehead you get to see as your hairline changes. Love your body, by God, love your body! You made it! It's yours!
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Drawing made before and after I heard testament wasn’t acknowledged with unique dialogue in johnnys arcade mode.

(2nd comic got the trnsphobes Crabbbbbyyyyy but I think it’s so awesome GG has a roster that allows two characters to connect on this issue. And the amount of people who went I’ve been testament here before made it worth it)

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i-am-a-fish

women with deep voices ❤️

men with high voices ❤️

your voice specifically the one that you use 🫵❤️

seriously though, no matter what voice you use whether it be your natural voice or something you've trained, your voice is beautiful and you should never be ashamed of how it sounds under any circumstances

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bardificer

And on that note, do your voice training.

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flikkerij

if u wear a binder and still have some boob

remember

chris evans still has more boob

no worries

This is somewhat reassuring

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rojo-todd

At a grocery store before I had top surgery there was a couple Infront of me. The guy was pointing at random folks around and saying to the girl, “I’d fight him for you, I’d whoop him for you, I’d beat him for you.” She nods toward me and says “what about this dude behind you?”. I have my headphones in (without music) and I see the guy glance behind himself at me, make a face and look back to her. “Nah, girl, did you see his chest? He could probably knock me out with his pec, girl” Honestly it was a life changing event.

official boob post

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i-am-a-fish

I got a training bra for the first time (I am transfem) and oh my gosh it is so comfortable!!!! I'm wearing it at work today, it's like a hug and it's very affirming, I love it!!

BOOBS SWEAT ?????!??!???

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i-am-a-fish

Hello :>

my name is Goldie you can call me Fish or Goldie

I'm very high right now, I love u guys [:

I'm 23 now and transfemme i will update my profile in a second I eat estrogen with my breakfast

This is what I look like

talk to you later love you (c:

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There should be a boob fairy who comes to transguys who sleep with a pillow over their chest and takes their boobs and leaves a little gift.

And then she flies over to the transwomen and puts the formaly unwanted boobs in a place where they are wanted.

Boob donation complete. Wouldn’t that be nice.

official boob post

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pezpenser205

controversial opinion but top surgery and other trans healthcare shouldnt be trans exclusive. so what if an autistic woman wants top surgery because boobs are a sensory nightmare?? good on her. she isnt "mutilating" herself any more than anyone else who gets cosmetic surgery for anything.

it doesnt have to be exclusively "trans healthcare." maybe a cis guy just wants boobs or a cis girl wants a dick. who cares. your bodys yours. customize that bitch. the more normalized it is to just do whatever with your body for any reason the easier itll be for the people who need to do it to actually go through with it because they wont be socially pressured as hard or harassed afterwards.

remember when Angelina Jolie got a double mastectomy to avoid dying from cancer and everyone flipped out

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hadesisqueer

I remember a few years ago there was a guy giving me and my class an LGBTQ talk, talking about orientations and gender identity. And he told a story that happened to him at another school.

He explained that once, he was going to give the same talk he gave to us at kids a bit younger than us (we were 16, so the other kids were 15). But before he did, one of the kids, let's call him Dave, came at him privately and told him he was gay. He explained he wanted to come out to his class, but that he was scared because of some other kid. Let's call him Josh.

Josh had transfered recently, and he was from another town, another country even. He had repeated a year and he was 16. The guy was pretty popular with girls, and good at sports, he was very good-looking but and also pretty tall, like 6'3. He was considered pretty intimidating by most. And since he was popular, masculine and intimidating, Dave was scared that if he came out, Josh would bully him.

The guy giving the talk helped him out a bit. He started the talk, and eventually, he started talking about homophobia. He asked the class what they'd do if they saw a homophobic attack. Then Josh straight up said “I'd break the homophobe's arm.” The guy giving the talk was like “isn't that a bit violent” and Josh insisted “no, I'd beat the shit out of them.” Then, the guy giving the talk kept going talking about orientations and Josh usually answered a lot of the questions he asked to the class.

Josh was apparently a huge ally. Dave felt more safe knowing he'd defend him and he came out. Josh gave him a pat in the back and congratulated him. Someone asked him if he was gay too (given he knew a lot of stuff) and he said “Nah I'm straight. My moms are the gay ones”. Turns out he had lesbian moms all along lmao. And a trans best friend back in his country. And he'd beat the shit out of anyone who dared being homophobic or transphobic in front of him.

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Every time I bring up something to my dad about how I feel like my transition has gone all wrong he’s like “Oh no that happens to cis men too” and this is why there needs to be more realistic expectations in media

Me: My beard is so weird and patchy

Dad: That’s because you’re 23 years old wait until you’re 40.

Me: I sound all weird and high and feminine

Dad: So do half of the male actors we know

I think it got a lot easier to understand and welcome transition with HRT once I understood that i don’t have to love every single thing that happens as a result of HRT in order to be trans or for transition to be the right plan for me.

There just came a point when I realized that not all cis boys like puberty or like everything that is happening to their bodies. They might be into some aspects of it, but less into others. But they don’t get to pick and choose, and over time they adjust and come to like, love, tolerate, deal with or even dial back some of those changes. None of that means that they aren’t actually men, and nobody ever thinks that a boy isn’t really a boy just because he isn’t loving being a hormonal, acne-covered, horny, sweaty mess who is sprouting hair on his toes or has that one weird long hair growing out of his shoulder… Because before I realized this– in the many years when I was delaying HRT even though I could and should have been on it already– I would think things like, “Well, I want facial hair and a different facial structure and voice, but I don’t want to be hairy all over! That would be weird! What if I’m as hairy as my dad?!” And I took those thoughts to mean, Maybe I shouldn’t transition. Maybe HRT isn’t right for me. Or even, maybe I’m not really trans. None of that was true. Take those thoughts and transpose them into a 11 year old cis boy’s head and they are perfectly normal.  What I actually found when I started testosterone was that: 1. Everything happens really fucking slowly anyway. You have so much time to adjust.  2. A lot of the things you were worried about won’t bother you at ALL (or you’ll love them.) 3. T isn’t a designer drug. You don’t get to pick and choose what you want or how it will look, unless you add in additional drugs/procedures/grooming to get it that way, but that’s OK. It’s not about achieving some designer body that is in your head, it’s about becoming the boy/man/masc/nonbinary person that your genetics have set out for you uniquely. And that’s actually really beautiful. I don’t have the thick defined facial hair after four years, because that’s not what my genetics coded me for at this point in time. I do have a hairy stomach, which looks awesome and occasionally makes queer dudes drool. I don’t have a deep voice; I do have a nice facial structure; I do have a masculine hairline that may, in time, recede even more though I don’t want it to. All of this- is, for me, the whole package. It’s entering into real life, in the body. Sometimes when we are pre-HRT we really don’t know what that’s all about and we might feel apprehensive about that, but it’s really OK. It’s taking the whole package and learning and living and growing old.

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