Busking in St. Germaine (cont.)
Melodies swam past me as the hot torrent of blood flowed down my throat. Yes, give me that peace that meets you at the end of this path. A difficult home, a displaced childhood, none of it means anything when I am in your arms. We can sing together, and our harmony will be your chariot to a rest we both desire. He struggled once, but I shushed him with a lullaby, ancient and comforting. We were sagging together against the metal dumpster behind us, stumbling like drunken lovers and I felt the handle of the violin case slip from my fingers. The clatter was distant, like the busy swarm of ceramic plates at a café.
More, show me everything. You are so beautiful in your rondo and I need to join in this duet. Please…he was fading and I could feel the surge of the universe inside him giving its last desperate attempt at meaning. Shh, there need not be anything to this world. A meaninglessness without pain or loneliness. Just one heart beats now, and I will take up the rhythm and timbre.
A heavy full blow caught me in my chest, and I felt this Death grab at me with greedy hands. Yes, please, take me with you. But he was gone, and I was here, languid, boneless, and dead. I could feel the world swimming around me, and I slumped against his chest, my limbs weightless and limp and unwilling to obey what commands I could conjure. This is a kind of peace, is it not? My head lolled as I tried to move, but only managed to tumble onto my back, his arms heavy around me as I smiled at the stars, so shining, so bright. Here was peace. A meaninglessness I could not find anywhere else. I saw an angel with russet hair lean over me.
Ah, sweet child. I smiled at him without guile, without malice, without intent. Only pure and aimless joy lit my face and I wanted to share it with him, whoever this slim Icarus was. I murmured something, but it came out like a soft mewl. No matter. The world was soft and safe and I had peace.
Neither of these lost souls were cruel enough for my vampire kiss, truly. I’d taken a little drink, but this youth saw more than he should have and I’d thought it kinder to finish my draught of his blood before he lost his mind entirely through the he shock. Nicolas was dancing far closer to his chosen one, he always had found comfort in the kill. Part of the thing he’d riled against. His own damnation shown before him in his enjoyment of killing his once fellow man. The clutter of that precious instrument marked how far gone the other vampires was in his own reverie. Both hearts were soaring one immortal the other mortal. Nicolas was drinking right up to the point of death, enjoying the risk that he’d be dragged down with them. Finally gone from this life. Far too much sickened their kind. And Nicolas for all his torment was not so old after all. I watched as he fell onto his back with a strange grace. Staring up at the stars. I dropped my own poor soul down to the ground gently and walked towards this clown I had reacquainted myself with. I leaned over him, he stared grinning inanely up at me. Seeing but not seeing me. He mewled up at me. Barely a humanoid sound at all. Not quite a meow or a purr either. “Nicolas. Do you know who I am?” Leaning in further incase he couldn’t hear me above the chorus in his own mind. I crouched next to him. He didn’t appear hurt, nor did he appeared entirely himself. What to do next?