Birthday Sun-Saturn aspects - "When nobody else is allowed in except the one who is cruellest of all to them - their self"
Sun conjunct Saturn, Sun opposite Saturn, Sun square Saturn, Sun trine Saturn, Sun sextile Saturn
written by astrolocherry
The Sun aspecting Saturn in a birth chart can create a sense of "numbness" or dissociation when trying to express the inner self outwardly. This aspect may cause a paradoxical feeling of taking up too much space while simultaneously feeling unnoticed and depressingly unremarkable. Streaks of apathy are usual and tend to begin around late adolescence into early adulthood. One major challenge of Sun-Saturn aspects is the frequent revealing of personality traits that were previously unknown. The identities that surface beyond the shadows be can be incredibly overwhelming and confusing.
The Sun-Saturn individual can have a level of self-awareness that is highly resourceful and provides a decent attunement to their values. However it can also have an intrusive, inhibiting, and unsettling effect. It can cause fixations and obsessions regarding their self-perceived flaws and the complexes produced as a result. There can be catastrophic influxes of negative thoughts It often leads to self-distancing before they can be left, or deciding they’ll be rejected before they even make an attempt to connect. One humiliating memory of rejection can trigger years of avoidant behaviour. They realise that they cannot control other people’s responses, so they control their boundaries and segregate the parts of themselves that they will reveal to others. Sun-Saturn aspects often produce an internal pressure for self-improvement encountering an equal sense of self-degridation that doesn’t feel worthy of such interventions, and further assumes that they will fail at their endeavours anyway. They often need convincing that there is far less—if anything—wrong with them than they tend to believe. An attraction to powerful and strong personality types that can seem to exacerbate these awry feelings about themselves is by no accident. They are conditioned to seek paternal figures to guide and emulate outside of the family unit, which in many cases were intimately negative experiences. Their inner work is certainly not in vain, this position generates some of the greatest astrological gains available to the occultist, who is traditionally a studier of the Self. It’s just that progress seems so sedate to one who is inclined to intensely fixate.
These are typically measured people, but they can be pensive, tense, and find it difficult to switch off and let somebody else take control. They are equipped with an ability to endure hardship and navigate life's challenges with grace, becoming sources of strength and stability for others. There’s a deep wisdom in their silence and a reason for their introversion. They truly benefit in reaching a state of being that comes with self-forgiveness.
Cherry