The land of Goddesses & Monsters in Neptune in the 1st house -
written by cherry
Neptune in the 1st people have an unseen battle being carried out just below the surface. Where her spirit meets body, endless conflict between light and darkness and darkness and light takes place all day and night. She hears the call to surrender to the sleepy serene of midnight for eternity while being drawn to a glowing echo. Sometimes her spirit is unsure where to go and it creates a lability of her existence that makes it all seem too real or surreal. She often gives up trying to tell whatever could come next. Everything seems a certainty in this mythic choreography. She often gives up trying to tell whatever could come next. Everything seems a certainty in this mythic choreography.
While Neptune in the 1st people are notorious for evoking dreamy, faraway, and surreal impressions, her life within is anything but a dream. The Neptune in the 1st visions are direct divinations from the divine flame. Her imagination and spellbound reverie becomes a nation in itself where she expends an astral adrenaline in exchange for metaphysical energy. When she closes her eyes, sets her sights on the conquest and chases the fantasy, she can sense the fire burning the dream into her real life as she catches it in her hands.
This excessive expenditure of physical energy in immaterial realms can result in a tiredness that she can’t seem to sleep off. Neptune in this position can design vivid, peculiar and poignant, and trilogy-like dream episodes that may result in her questioning if certain events occurred while she was awake or slept. There may be frequent unsettling themes involving combat, violence, cruelty, bloodshed, and fire, and sometimes with a seeming impaired ability to run, freely move, or escape. In some extreme cases, the dreaming is excessive and even involves repetitive or demanding physical labour. Even when the individual has forgotten her dream or believes she slept the whole night through, the side-effects of her secret life become evident throughout the day. She may experience a vague or heavy daytime fatigue, a listlessness that cannot be explained, a weariness when she gets home that can make socialising at times seem a marathon effort.
The condition of Neptune in the 1st house may produce adrenal-like episodes in the individual involving or similar to feverish spikes of temperature, emotional reactivity, excitement, inspiration, impulsive desire, and anxious anticipation that end with the sense of the blood is being drained out of her. Frequent and chronic headaches or migraines with intense auric experiences at the onset, often with sleep-deprivation being major causation may be another Neptune in the 1st side-effect. She may also possess veins notorious for swimming away whenever she needs blood drawn, turning even the most simple venipuncture or blood test attempt into a routine ordeal - for both the clinician and the individual.
The First House is the astrological house of self-expression, presentation, and exhibition. Neptune casts a great vision onto the character she appears to be and the impression she wants to create in others. As Neptune is a planetary muse, the individual may enjoy the masquerade of make-up and experimenting with various palettes, styles, cosmetics, costumes and watching the character in the doll that comes to life.
The First House also belongs to Aries, and Neptune’s fog of redemption can be next impossible to resist and will be closer defined depending on the sign and aspects made to Neptune. It may produce an inclination for harsh Aries and Mars tainted regimes, possibly involving strict physical exertion and activity, punishment and restriction, even the bloody carnage, agony, excruciating recovery, and faded scarring of cosmetic surgery to attain and maintain the vision. This brutality in her nature may be quite surprising and seemingly at odds with her appearance - especially one of Neptunian aesthetic, glamour, and grace. It can be all-out blood, sweat, and wet mascara tears behind these picturesque scenes.
This is why the mirror is a symbol that follows Neptune in the 1st around life if she can see it or she doesn’t. It’s the altar where she catches a glimpse of the inner Priestess as particles move from the light to her eyes for the enchanting illusive moment. The mirror can cast a reflection that blurs and changes before her eyes. Her transfixed gaze are all that remain unchanged as her face swirls like mixed watercolour into mirages, memories, mermaid ancestors, and sometimes a small child.
The mirror can also be a site of self-confrontation, declaring torment, heartache, and attempts to remember who she is. It can be where she cries out and for the girl staring back in a private ritual of saving herself.
In some scenarios, extreme rage and self-contempt can distort the image into a girl that she wants to hurt or even destroy, that she could shatter this mirror and see the broken pieces of herself everywhere.
The compass beneath all of this is the spiritual task of Neptune in the 1st in action, felt most evidently through the ill-defined identity that can trouble her throughout life. That evasive ‘tangible’ identity she saw others grow into and thought she would eventually too. That is not the Way for Neptune in the 1st. The archetypal Neptune is The Mystic, The Muse, The Magician, The Mermaid and The Matriarchal Holy Trinity, who all and more go through the process of ‘waking up’ in her first house as they move away from the comforts and familiarity of dewy darkness and into the light. Her story is the rebirth of a new Priestess in the spring- the Goddess who breaks each dawn, a new initiate, a new leader to guide us toward the next vibration, astral territory, and undiscovered dimension. A new teacher of scholars, a new visionary to lead the dreaming. From victim to victory, the only possible ending of this story.
Much awaited, ordained, celebrated,but most of all, content, at ease, with who she is.
Light at last,
without a shadow of a self-doubt
🍒Cherry art by Kurtis Rykovich