Alexandra Dillon (American, b. Los Angeles, CA, USA, based Venice, CA, USA) - Oil Portraits on Found Objects (*info with each photo).
i’m just living from bong hit to bong hit
“It’s all right to love someone who doesn’t love you back, as long as they’re worth you loving them. As long as they deserve it.”
— Cassandra Clare; Clockwork Angel
hi i saw your response on the transtape thing!!! do you have any complaints or problems about transtape that people should know about before they buy? i really wanna weigh the pros and cons of it before i buy it, but it really sounds like a lifesaver for me right now!!!
oh heck yeah brosiff i got you. there are more pros than cons but i’m going to expand on the cons.
pros: - flattens chest- no binder - shoulders free- tank tops??? heck yeah- beach w no shirt (he’s working on skin tones besides Pasty White Kid™)- wear for a long time (the longer you wear it the safer it gets actually bc the adhesive chills out)- can totally breathe all of the time- no dysphoria in bed bc you can keep it on- also no dysphoria in the shower bc you can keep it on- no worrying abt sweating under a binder - total free range of motion (working out is great)- not that expensive ($20 if there’s no sale and there’s like $6 two day shipping i think but it’s optional) - the strips aren’t pre-cut so you can mess with the length on your own - made by a trans man for transmasculine people (support the community woo!) and he’s amazing about communicating with customers- the width is two times as big as kt tape or others, meaning you don’t have to layer as many pieces. also there’s two options for width so you can choose which you’d rather have for your chest- discreet packaging with a handwritten note!!
cons: - the adhesive is dangerous (meaning you can get blisters and pull off skin) if you take it off incorrectly or too soon. it’s meant to be worn through activity, sweating, swimming, etc., so really you should wear it for at least 2-3 days- and it’s advertised for up to 5. when you take it off you should apply oil (olive, coconut, baby, etc.) to the tape and let it sit for a while (5-10 minutes) to break down the adhesive, and apply oil to wear the tape is peeling off while you’re taking it off. i’ve found the oil plus taking it off in a hot shower works the best. - in a similar vein, the adhesive can be irritating to skin so PLEASE test it before wearing it for a long time. a friend of mine didn’t know he was allergic to the adhesive until he tried it, and if you have sensitive skin it can bother you. applying lotion before and after use can help with this and i highly recommended it. - when applying it the width makes it somewhat difficult to lay down flat without crinkles, especially under your arms. the crinkles can cause blisters and irritation. with practice, though, you can learn what works for you to lay it flat. it was designed for larger chests; large enough for the chest to “fall” out of the way and be held back by the tape. i have a small chest and i have to pull the chest to the side, stretching the tape and causing more room for stress and wrinkling. - you can only use the tape once. the adhesive wears out after one use and if you’re using it every day it can get expensive to keep replacing it, but if you can wear it for 3-5 days, work out making the length a bit smaller to conserve, and it alleviates dysphoria better than a binder, i say it’s worth it. - it doesn’t make your chest 100% flat. neither does a binder, if we’re being honest, and cis men don’t have flat chests, but the tape works best with shirts that aren’t so tight fitting, like tank tops, loose tee-shirts, and button-downs. it might just be a confidence thing for me, but i’m not as comfortable in a form fitting shirt as i would be with my binder. i’ve been told it makes me look like i have pecs, but i have a mental block. gotta work up that confidence!
i think that’s it! i might add a couple more things if they come to mind, but there’s my synopsis. it’s more good than bad, but the couple bad things do have solutions if you work on it a little bit. let me know what you think!
EDIT: no binding technique is 100% safe, and adhesive presents added possibilities for injury. please know yourself and make responsible decisions when binding. you are binding at the risk of your health and safety, so please exercise the utmost caution!
“And so love passes, leaving only bits from which we must construct our lives.”
— Simon Van Booy, from “The Mute Ventriloquist,” The Secret Lives of People in Love (Turtle Point Press, 2007)
Stephen Spender, from Selected Poems & Journals (1939-1995); “Emptiness,” (x)
I am just like a ghost walking over the world trying to distract myself from boredom and hysteria. It’s a kind of holy moment that unfills anger.
— Bianca Stone, from “Self-Destruction Sequence,” The Möbius Strip Club of Grief
one day im just gonna do it. im gonna vanish into the scottish highlands like god intended
Prints of this poem available here.
me since graduating
Tracey Emin, When I go to Sleep I Dream of You Inside of Me
“can’t find the body that belongs to my voice / or my voice that belongs to the harm”
— Alessandra Lynch, from P.S. Assault, Daylily Called It a Dangerous Moment