A Conspiracy of Cartographers

listen, if you want to be with someone that has ADHD and doesn’t / can’t take medicine for it, you have to understand that we just forget. Yes, we know you had us write it down and put it somewhere obvious, we still forgot. Yes, you just said it 10 times, we still forgot. Yes, you literally, to our face, seconds before, told us in detail, we turned around and forgot immediately. we forget, everything, immediately, most of the time.

Honestly this is still true for most ADHDers who DO takes meds, just maybe slightly less so or less of the time.

Lift your hand up if you need for the roles to reverse in S3 at least for a moment

Crowley always protects, gives, saves, gives in

I need Aziraphale to do that in S3

I need him to just give in because something would make Crowley happy even if it isn’t Aziraphale’s favourite thing. I need him to protect him. I need him to save him. I need him to be more of a giver. I need him to show Crowley that he is his everything.

I need Crowley to feel so bloody loved that he won’t know what to do with himself.

Yes! I was just realizing that this is why Crowley waits by the Bentley. He knows it’s time for Aziraphale to be the one who comes back, the one who steps up and protects what he cares about most, the one who chooses our side over any offers of power.

I loved the fact that he waited there because it was his “this is NOT me leaving this time”.

He confessed, he kissed, he waited. He told Aziraphale to not bother when he tried to forgive him. He switched their roles.

I genuinely think this is part of the reason why Aziraphale returns to Heaven. The worst has never quite happened to him, he's always been rescued at the last minute (almost always by Crowley). Even when his faith almost broke during the scene with the Metatron in s1, he could still walk back from it because Armageddon *didn't* happen, the plan is Ineffable, all's well that ends well. Until he's in a position where Crowley can not rescue him (from his own decisions or any external force) I honestly don't think he'll be able to move on from his constant "but Heaven/we're the good guys!" mindset. And frankly for it to get to that point I think Crowley is going to have to be in danger that Aziraphale and only Aziraphale can get him out of. Even saving Earth/humanity wouldn't quite be enough on its own, he/Heaven could still find some way to justify it (God's Great Ineffable Plan).

Aziraphale's faith has always been a cornerstone of his character, which is both his strength and weakness. Crowley knows that, and knows now there's nothing he can do about it. He can't rescue Aziraphale from his own convictions; only Aziraphale himself can do that.

Until the choice is between Heaven and Crowley's destruction, Aziraphale will stay stuck in the same patterns he's always been in.

worth blogging over and over