Chapters: 1/12 Fandom: Good Omens (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Rape/Non-Con Relationships: Aziraphale/Crowley (Good Omens) Characters: Aziraphale (Good Omens), Crowley (Good Omens), Gabriel (Good Omens), Madame Tracy (Good Omens), Maggie (Good Omens) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Urban Fantasy, Eldritch, Lovecraftian, the relativism of monstrousness, Hurt/Comfort, Human Aziraphale (Good Omens), Female Aziraphale (Good Omens), Gender Non-Conforming Aziraphale (Good Omens), Pansexual Aziraphale (Good Omens), Eldritch Crowley (Good Omens), Crowley Has Tentacles (Good Omens), Crowley Has a Penis and a Vulva (Good Omens), Genderqueer Crowley (Good Omens), Sex-Neutral Asexual Crowley (Good Omens), Past Aziraphale/Gabriel (Good Omens), Past Abuse, Kidnapping, Imprisonment, Guns, Fuck Or Die, Sexual Energy as Food, Starvation, Altered Mental States, Loss of Control, Mind Invasion, Restraints, Restraint Wounds, Consent Negotiation, Communication, Psychological Trauma, Panic Attacks, PTSD flashbacks, Crying, Pain, Control Issues, Crowley is a Mess (Good Omens), Aziraphale is a Mess (Good Omens), Aziraphale and Crowley Take Care of Each Other (Good Omens), Cuddling & Snuggling, Xenophilia, Crowley Loves Humanity (Good Omens), Tentacle Sex, Tentacle Dick, Various Types of Penetrative Sex, Multiple Penetration, Multiple Orgasms, sympathetic orgasms, Overstimulation, Size Queen Aziraphale (Good Omens), Service Top Crowley (Good Omens), Wet & Messy, Come Inflation, cathartic sex, Protective Crowley (Good Omens), Escape, Relationship Negotiation, Trauma Recovery, Body Dysphoria, Therapy, Community - Freeform, The Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known, Self-Acceptance, Mind Meld, Getting Together Summary:
It’s one thing to think you’ve been… violated by someone in full control of their faculties and freedom, but quite another to realize that person wasn’t in complete control over either their circumstances or mind. And it’s yet another thing to realize they were in such pain and terror that they were half mad with it, crying and screaming.
It makes it easier, certainly, to wrap the whole awful memory up in a thick cushion of rationalization and logic and pack it away for now, for while she’s still in the thick of it all. When neither she nor Crowley have any real choice in how they move forward. Not if they both want to stay healthy enough to survive and escape.
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Aziraphale is sacrificed by her power-hungry ex to an eldritch tentacle creature he’s imprisoned to do his bidding. But, after an awful first meeting, Aziraphale and Crowley commit to helping one another out as best they can.
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Hoooooo boy, it’s another “buckle up, buddy” type fic I’m starting to post. First, some heads up: This is full of potentially triggering content, based on a dark premise, includes tough scenes, and grapples with the emotional fallout of abuse. PLEASE read through all tags thoroughly, and please read responsibly!
On the rape/non-con tag: it only applies to the first chapter, and then things dials back to “extremely dubious consent.” If you need more intel before deciding whether to engage, there’s a spoilery warning in the first chapter end notes, and my DMs are also open!
Second, posting notes: This fic is fully written, and I plan to post a chapter every 2-3 days as I finish up implementing some beta feedback and doing final edits. HUGE thank you to musegnome, Sk3tch, and IsleofSolitude/EmberFaye for their beta help with this fic!
Its finished!!! I’m both so happy for the last chapter and so sad it’s over 😭
Such clever world building and some of the best-written human aziraphale I’ve read.
Definite rec from me
Seconding this fic rec. The premise is so dark but for the most part the fic doesn't feel dark. The interactions and growing relationship between Aziraphale and Crowley are fascinating, intelligently handled (both inside the fic and out, dear lord if every fic protagonist had Aziraphale's level of emotional maturity and awareness fics would all be a lot shorter)...I don't know how to explain. Definitely mind the tags, but this fic is delightful and I loved it. Also, monsterfucking galore.