Do you ever think in the absolutely devastating contrast between dazai’s reaction to odasaku’s death vs chuuya’s to the flag’s? About how Dazai is generally seen as cold and emotionless but odasaku’s death is one of the few moments in which Dazai shows pure, genuine, /unadulterated emotion/. One of the few moments in which he wasn’t the demon prodigy or this omnipotent being and just someone suffering because they just lost their best friend? About how chuuya is his opposite and is this giant ball of strong /loud/ emotions, about how he is by far the most expressive character in the whole story but when he saw his friends die, he had to keep a blank face? About how he consciously fought the urge to scream? About how he was falling apart but he /forced/ himself to keep his emotions at bay because he put albatross needs over his own pain? Detached, apathetic and always in control Dazai Osamu was overwhelmed by emotion and crumbling apart, meanwhile loud, expressive and impulsive Nakahara chuuya was forced into quietness. I just find fascinating that they showed completely different reactions of what they usually show to the world but is precisely that what makes this scenes hurt so fucking much.
Anyway, just a midnight thought